Today I was at the doctor betting blood drawn for testing. I had to roll up my sleeves. It showed all of my cuts. My mother won’t stop staring at me. I though it would open up room for converation so I could tell her how i feel. But she doesnt get it. My new household nockname is freak.
hello. im back. ive been gone for over two years, i thought my life was going great! i wasa loved and loving, hoped for and hoping, cared about and caring… i am 18 now. im not the same scared little girl i thought i was before. im a confident young woman… or, thats wat the world thinks… thats wat everybody thinks, i mean… thats the point, right? i guess u could say that i am on the right track? i have a good job, i have all the right connections, i have all the correct scores when it comes to the life test. i have […]
As easy as it was for you to call me those names is as easy as the tears came. He and I are the fat ones of the family. Only when your stuff are missing then there is a big meeting. No one else is important. In a doublestandard household it is hard for me to find peace. Is is that gender has anything to do with a crime commited, the crime stays the same even if the criminal is a woman/man. The funny thing is I didn’t even eat your the pancakes and eggs. I hate standing there in a line like i’m about […]
Today marks the third week at my new school. Having moved around my entire childhood and going to three different states and countless different schools, I don’t have many people to talk to. Even my parents are too busy for me. When will I make friends and build a stable foundation for my life? Will I ever crawl out of the rubble?
Today was hard. I had to face some old ghosts and demons from my past that have always left me trembling and screaming. I couldn’t help but wonder why I try. I try… because it’s expected of me. I do what I’m expected too. I’m a good girl. Today was hard. Much, much harder than it should have been. Why does giving up seem so easy, so doable, and continuing on is so very, very hard? Shouldn’t life be the opposite of that scenario? I know, at times, it is good to struggle, to build character and all that hog wash crap; but when my […]
It’s funny how one can unconsciously search for like minded people, with pit having a clear concept of who there self is to began with.
I’m a panromantic homosexual, and my girlfriend knows I’ve suffered with self harm. She knows I still do and that it’s hard breaking the habit, and she’s there when I need to talk. Tonight I told her if I had never met her I would have left and that I probably still wouldn’t be alive today. We have a long distance relationship, and I can’t see her all the time, so I feel alone. Tonight though, we were on videochat and I told her about all of it. Her first words were ‘Oh my God’, and then she started crying. She talked to me, and […]
No matter how far I travel, or what I try to do, I all ways end up back here
does anyone want to just talk? for the past couple months ive been away at college with no one i can talk to and i just want someone that i can exchange past experiences/ life stories with. im 18 years old and ive been depresseed since i was 14
I’m here to help anyone who needs it, and I’m always open to new friends. So if you’re struggling with anything at all, my tumblr is snowlette.tumblr.com, and my gmail is koorishiroiuyoku@gmail.com.
I just want someone who can trust and beaccepted by. I feel like no one cares about me and if I were to die tonight nobody would notice. I hate myself for being so lonely.
Hello everyone. My name is Shane, and to be straight-forward here, I’m not suicidal. Not anymore anyways. But I know what it’s like to feel lost, alone, and worthless. And I wanted everyone to know that if you have nobody else to talk to, you can always talk to me. I’ll answer you by email at armstrongshane8@gmail.com if you’d like, or you can add me on skype at armstrongshane (my usernames for those aren’t very creative, I know). I’m pretty much online day and night if you need to talk and I really enjoy helping people. And I realize how hard it is to talk […]
No one needs to read this, no one needs to care. I just need to put it out there. Last night I said my bf broke up with me. The friend he promised didn’t care about me did everything she could to make me feel better. Thank you. But how the last round of this relationship started is what I need to talk about.
He had been dating a girl who was extremely clingy. Finally he broke it off with her. We both said that we still had feelings for the other, but I was a little wary. I told him we needed to wait three […]
This world sucks u need money. To live and survive. Or u loose. Everything … what else is next..now I can’t aford Counsling. Or other. Bills. Child support Probation. Etc ether way
Its a looseing. Battle. Any way I look at it ..I’d rather die than be in jail. I can’t even. Find a job after I got busted by the state revenue. Board. I understand why Jesus let the state kill him. And didn’t run ….. Lord I lift my empty hands to you o Lord
Everybody seems to think there’s only one way of looking at things;
Living is the only option, right?
For if you’re suicidal, there must being something wrong with you.
Who decided life was worth living anyway?
Actually death is a option.
It seems so strange to think life is for everyone.
That someone of sane mind can choose a way out.
After all; aren’t we free control our own lives?
last night was the worst of many. i not only lost my family and home but i broke a promise i thought i never would. last night me and my mum had a really big arguement over my birthday. its in 9 days and im turing 17 and all i wanted was to spend time with my family and do what i want to do as its the 1 day of the year i get unlimated attention for the right reasons. mum wanted to be selfish and make the day about her so we both got angry. she yelled and threatened me and i pulled […]
So I decided to be completely honest right now about my life.
one of my friends is constantly attempting to commit suicide.
my entire group of friends is into cutting and marijuana.
my parents think I’m the good one.
my teachers think Im the smart kid.
my siblings want to be like me.
but I hate myself.
I want to die.
i can’t even tell my friends who cut that I do too because they depend on me to be the stable one in our group.
the one who isn’t fucked up.
i don’t know how much longer I can take it.
i just want to drive and drive and never look back.
honestly?
i feel like shit
…in that time, at that moment and in every time and every moment of the future, you truly believe you cannot and will not be able to cope, that it’s all too much and nothing will ever be right and it’s not like it’s ever going to end well anyway so why not just quit now? It makes so much sense to simply put an end to a life that is nothing but painful when it feels like it will never be anything else.
And the people who try to prevent the suicide of others will often say things like “what about your family/friends/loved ones?” and […]
I don’t know if this description of suicide is accurate even though it it is splashed all over sites that claim they want to help. What if the problem is permanent? Can you help now? I thought not. You can’t give a bullshit definition for something if you have never experienced it before. Another one of societies attempts to label the things which they do not understand.
Why bother in the world of inequality, where billionaires have everything and the masses are destitute. Why work, why slave over, why even participate in the game of social mores and maniacal head hunts. Maniacal CV and Resume sending. This is not the way life is supposed to be. Spend all your money on pleasure, and then let someone else play it. Fuck all the GDP statistics and the deranged global money-changers.