Hey everyone, Frodo here (for those wondering, no that isn’t my real name, though it’d be pretty cool if it was). I don’t really know what this site is for, as I found it while searching up how painful it is to overdose (apparently very painful). Â But I decided to register because I thought someone here might be able to help me. I just can’t take any more of my life. I know it sounds insanely selfish, but I just don’t want to live anymore. I feel incredibly weak for having these feelings, as I see people who have much worse lives than me be […]
I start crying until my vision is all blurry and then a voice inside my head says “hey now! dry them tears, you knew you’d never make it”.
I’m sorry but I need to let this out before I go.
I can’t live like this anymore. I can’t live trapped in my own brain. I can’t break out and just be myself. I hate waking up hating myself for being this loser. I hate that I can’t be like everyone else. I can’t really talk, I can’t join in, I can’t have fun. I’ve talked some but it’s still always censored and reserved. It’s not the real me. It’s the quiet conservative personality I learned in order to make it through my childhood. I hate myself for still being like this. No one has […]
Don’t Say Die or Suicide to people who do not understand.
The guilt shame and disgust and knights in white coats will be aimed your way.
Don’t say you want to die if you want to be put on a guilt trip by everyone.
Don’t say suicidal or you will be shamed into hiding your feelings so those who you confide in can feel better so they don’t have to change how they treat you – and so they can feel better sticking their heads in the sand.
Don’t say I HATE MY LIFE or you will be told you are a failure and caused this yourself when you […]
How could you know?
You had to stay away, didn’t want to get burned
By the girl of flames.
But, how could you know?
That she tried to change, change for you,
the flickering girl.
And, how could you know?
know that she was already so broken, so blue,
blazing, beautiful, bright.
Well, you couldn’t have known.
It would take so long, so long to fix her,
she’ll rise from the ashes.
But you couldn’t have known.
About the deep scars that line her skin,
the girl who burns.
And you couldn’t have known.
How the tears have shattered her smile, her eyes,
don’t let her fade away.
You couldn’t have known.
so as i sit and stare
i wonder to myself who exactly would care
if i died tomorrow
who could ever feel an ounce of sorrow
while my body may still roam
that only stands as my outer dome
inside i am dead
all my life ive been secluded
so ive concluded,
why stay
through all of this dismay
ill never find an answer
i am gone
my problems are to deep
and no longer shall i weep
ill never belong
so i just tag along
on this train of sorrow
looking for a better tomorrow.
I must continue on.. With every last drop of blood, I must proceed to the end. Take one hard and solid look at yourself, and I will do the same.
It’s time, now is the time to take action, not tomorrow. Now is the time when I will prove what I am made of, and that my life indeed means something.
Now is the time to let go of reflection and turn your attention towards tomorrow. Now is the time to suck up the pain and push forward.
There is no need for prayer, there is no reason for doubt.
The only way through this hell […]
Meet me out on the steel
Beam built to the sky
From the ground, you see my life
Two tear drops to bend the light from my eye
And so I dive..
Meet me out on the wings of flight
Dreams, to still keep my head up high
Many destinations pass me by
And still I fly..
To the ends of this earth, the harder I try
Sweeping through moments, through motions, scraping the sky
Eager to live, to feel, to breath, never knowing why
This tower of temptation, these endless stories can invite
Me and my rights…
Meet me down in the grime
Holding me close, this once, and for the last time
Coldly closing my grip, to open […]
Therapists know what’s the best for you and what you need, at least that’s what the therapists think. But I can tell you, they don’t know what’s the best. I have a therapy now, and it drives me crazy, and it also makes me feel even more depressed. I want to stop that therapy, said that to my therapist and explained to her why. Only she thinks it’s better to move on with the therapy, because she thinks it can help me. But it’s a therapy with the whole family, how to communicate, and say thinks to each other and stuff. It’s just not going […]
my world is crumbleing before me I just want it to end. there is a girl one who i would do anything for and she hates me. my performance in school is so low that my parents threaten me. every one i have ever loved has eventullay left or began to hate me. the only reasonable thing i can think of is suicide i always say to myself if someone gave me a gun the first thing i would do is shoot myself in the head . no one would ever care.
hi,
to all the people who are reading this, I know how you are feeling. I’ve been suicidal for a very long time. I had set my date of death to 7th of july 2012. I did this to have some time to review if life was really worth it.
A lot has happened since the day I decided to kill myself. A friend of me pushed me to seek help which eventually led my to this site, suicideproject. I got here ironicly by looking for the logical suicide. I didn’t find that, but I did find this great community of likely minded people. I waisted […]
I’ve smiled all my life. Since I learned how to smile when I was a baby. All of them was real till I turned 7. When I was 7 I learnt how to keep others happy by smiling myself even though it never really was a real smile. I kept my best friend oblivious to how I felt inside. She thought I was happy but inside… Inside I was tearing apart because my dad had moved even further away from me. He lived with me and mom, happily married, playing with me. Then they fell apart. He stayed in the same country for a little […]
Knowing you were going to die, which movies would you want to watch/rewatch? Which books would you want to read/reread? Help me make a list!
Hi, I am 35 years old. I am married for the second time. I love my wife. I lover her more than anything in the world. We have just had a beautiful baby girl. She’s 2 months old. I love her so much. We have four cats. I love them a lot. I would never harm my family, the only thing I want is to make them happy. But I can’t.
When my wife and I met, I was married, and so was she. It’s a complicated story, but we both got divorced and moved to US where I had just gotten a job opportunity. When […]
Hey my name is Aly , and im 24. Been on my own since i was 17 , mum leaving me and dad when i was 2. Dad been most of his life a sailor, so not much around …He remarried , so i have a step mum and a half brother ( 19 yo ).Never got along with step mum thats why i left home at 17.
So.. left home at 17,moved in with my first bf who was 30 years old at that time… he made me choose..so i chose him ..
I’ve always felt like im in a tv show .. like im the […]
I cannot decide. why the hell i am unable to decide? is it so hard of a decision? all the knowledge and experience accumulated hitherto and it cannot make me take the most basic decision? do i care about others, do i care about myself… if yes, then it should be the easiest decision one can make.
i’ve been contemplating only and only this thing since last two days and nights. i am in the uninfluenced state. it should be just so very easy. what a strange thing choice is! we think we can make a choice, but the truth is we cannot. maybe the character of Notes from Underground […]
It’s been a week since I have been out of Brentwood and well I miss it. See people stare at me when I walk down the hall ways and they ask me why or how I could do something like that. But I don’t tell them becasue I know they wont understand. One of the softball girls made a rumor that I broke into her house and our neighbors house to and they caught me on camera like what the hell so I couldn’t have people thinking that I did something that low when I hhad just tried to kill myself. People ask me why […]
21 year old guy from the UK. I don’t care of your gender or where you’re from. I don’t usually open up straight away, but if you need someone to talk to then I’m willing to listen. I’m quite immature and sarcastic, but I would say I’m nice and fun to talk to. I mainly listen to indie/rock songs. I like a lot of TV shows; Parks and Recreation, Once Upon A Time, Boardwalk Empire, Walking Dead, American Horror Story, and Vampire Diaries. I also like gaming; currently I’m playing Pokemon ^^
kier1992@hotmail.co.uk
You told me to calm down. I was calm. All I told you was I was trying to get a second job to pay for the damage I caused. I know I’m going to school, too, but I have to do this. I’m not going to ask for handouts. I’m an able-body and I can work for my money. I’ll pay with my health if I have to. Or whatever health I have left. I feel like I’m getting a little sicker every day. When will I just fall apart into ash and dust? Why is the Universe testing me? I’m not as strong as […]