please someone,
make it all go away
or just tell me how to handle this?
please someone,
make it all go away
or just tell me how to handle this?
Last night I attempted to commit suicide using the “detergent suicide” method. Unfortunately, it did not work out the way I had hoped. I am unsure if I should have doubled the amount of lime sulfur & toilet bowl cleaner. Basically I got in my car, mixed up the chemicals and for a few seconds the signature “rotten egg” smell was very apparent but then olfactory fatigue kicked in as has been mentioned. I started taking deep breaths of the mixture and in about 1 minute I began to feel as if there was no air to breath. I tried to remain calm, but my […]
What would you have done differently?
We don’t make the difference, nobody makes a single difference to the world. You don’t matter but for the little circle of habits you’re surrounded by, if you weren’t there your work would have been taken by someone else, and your love/friends/the time itself, would have gone by almost as kindly as they are going by now. I was thinking it this evening..
What is my life? What are the ridicolous hours i’m delivering pizzas the weekend? And you? You’re so sure to mean something to all this, and not just be a vain crumble of sand in an infinite nothing?
“You so disappointing, you aren’t married yet. Everyone else is getting married but you aren’t.”
Well thanks for being so supportive, mother.
:-/
It’s hopefully gonna be a good one 🙂
I was in this old abandoned house, and I went into one of the bedrooms, it was obviously a little girls room everything the previous owners had was still there but it was layered with years of dirt and grime and neglect, while I was looking around at all these memories some stranger left behind this really old cat came limping out of the closet, he looked like he’d been there ever since these people left, just abandoned, alone, he was dirty, his fur wasn’t healthy and neither was he, it was obvious he’d been scavenging all these years to survive, i picked up a […]
I’ve so rationalized my departure. Slip on the hood in a hotel turn on the cylinders and I’m gone.
46 years old in London, I have no significant other or children, no job for 2.5 years (living off savings about to run out and benefit ), no car, no home, I’m sofa surfing with family (they don’t know I homeless) and staying at B&B’s (belongings in storage), no friends.
I’ve had tons of counseling, tried many meds and I remain with absolutely no confidence or self esteem whatsoever. My departure will be a favour to society and the planet.
Then the other part of my […]
Hi ya’ll
I have been suicidal since around 3rd grade. Adults were so harsh that I hid and didn’t talk. But I did hear the spirit beings in my room. These spirit beings followed me around and tried to help me when my mother was raging. Every time I was in trouble I would find help. Like the time I drove 3 brothers to Louisiana so that they could live with their aunt. After dropping them off I ran out of gas. I throw a blanket out in front of a concrete creek for a few hours, and then a man talking about Jesus walks by […]
I am miserable. The business I have been operating 70 hour work weeks for 2 years without profit, putting in my dues, will close if I can’t land an investment today. I am jealous of the girls that work at the gas station. They dont deal w taxes, child support, the agricultural board. They go to work then go home. I owe everybody money. I have a warrant for my arrest I cant afford the $50 to close out.
My kids are 5 & 9. The only thing keeping me “here” is the thought of them motherless. Would they bounce back like kids do? Would […]
I had a major problem with alcohol the last 2 years. I’ve been trying to self medicate. This last spring, I was suicidal. Was asking God. Is it wrong to take my life …if I’m mentally ill? Can’t I start over? Get a new life?? I stopped drinking after a horrible black out on the 4th of July. The last 3 months of summer were wonderful. I was not drinking, out in the sun and exercising daily. Suicide wasn’t on my mind, at all. I was loving life. However, now that summer has ended, I have been having this constant panic, guilt, fear feeling. My […]
Well I see your face, the picture remains to be unspoken.
Welcome to hell, as if there’s nothing else that can be broken.
Maybe it’s home, how they left you alone…your life is stolen.
Like down in the deep, won’t you let me sleep, cause I feel nowhere.
Could this be real or purgatory? Your the hope that fades, when nothing remains you can’t be known.
All these tragic lives, crying to let them die, to see the world end.
When fortune fades, the bitter taste of life, it can’t be swallowed.
These torturous days, when everything changes what we love most.
With all these cutting knives replacing […]
so nobody has a problem sleeping.it is day here,it is night somewhere.sp is now ghost town.and most sp users are from USA
Milo Garret: It’s about seven o’clock in the evening, mid January, the sun nothing but a cigar cherry as an old man’s weak piss of rain gives an oily shine to tinseltown. This morning, I woke up in a hospital. “So Mr. Garret, how you feelin’? the doc says. “Numb” I say back. He chuckles a bit, tells me you can’t fell numb, ’cause numb means you can’t feel. You can’t feel numb, you can only be numb, he tells me. He goes on, talkin’ some dopey bullshit about my dressing, about itching, about keepin’ it dry. But I wasn’t payin’ attention no more. Funny […]
If anyone ever wants to talk, hit me up on facebook. im always here to chat, especially since im invisible to everyone else in my life.
facebook: dan kusz
,idiot,stupid,useless,worthless,garbage,ugly,nerd,that’s what I am. A mistake,I have no purpose in life. Why can’t I be like the other 13 year olds? I can’t do anything right.Why do I exist ?It’s painful to be alive. Maybe its because I’m a spoiled brat. Maybe not. No one appreciates me for who I am. Always saying things like ” why couldn’t you be like your sister”and “you’re so short,go do more exercise”. I’m ugly ,fat ,short, not the guy you would want to hang out with. I have no value,my life’s a piece of trash. I try do do good but they still hate me.You have […]
You know, there’s always this kid in school that nobody notices.
I’m one of them. The reason is probably because I’m a loser.
I cut
I do it to relieve stress
And everyday I go back home I get yelled at
I’m not appreciated
I have no idea why I’m still alive
how can i love you,
why do i care,
how was i not aware,
you were going to leave me at my worst,
to turn my life into death,
leave me screaming in despair,
i trusted you to always be here,
through thick and thin,
you put my life in the wrong spin,
when you left i picked up my knife,
i thought i was an ex cutter,
but i guess i was wrong,
i must have been fooled […]
I have been threw a lot in my life some could say my life has been a struggle but not as bad as some have had it but bad enough. As I write this and I think about how good my life is going  at the current moment, I ponder how long until this current bout of happiness will last. I see so many people with smiles on there face and I wonder are they truly happy or are they just hiding it well? I have so much to live for as some say but I think otherwise I have a lot of internal issues […]
William, I miss you dearly, and although I can still feel your presence lingering, I feel the emptiness that I’ve caused. We promised to meet in the afterlife and that my heart was yours. A piece of it still is, if you’re still willing to take it. I will always love you.
I remember that night we first met. You were with Darius and Garret and TJ. Jessica might have been there too. Just writing all of their names brings back the memories of us at the park. Remember that time you stole my cape? Or how we slid down the slide at the playground together? […]
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