I want to say that nearly half the males in my family have contemplated suicide at some point in their life.  For some reason, men are taking their lives at nearly five times the rate of women.  I have had friends and family disappear, overdose or lose their life.  I thank God for one who still lives…he became a best friend and between him and some damn good women in my life ,they lead me through the most depressing time of my life.  I’m not exempt from the statistics of contemplation.  But when I came out if it, I found my life back on track. […]

I’m in a place where if I didn’t live to see another day……..I wouldn’t really care.

Anyone ever had something terrible done to them? I did. Police, doctors counsellors. Everyone was concerned. I wasn’t. Was I suppose to? I was upset sure, but everyone assumed I was suicidal, depressed, I was crazy, I needed help. Putting words in my mouth. Sure I was depressed I still am and was way before this, and sure I’m suicidal but I’ve been for a long time. This changed nothing. Or I though it didn’t. It was funny the first few months I acted like nothing happened. Everyone was concerned, and I was neutral to the whole thing. It never hit me. But as months […]

So my name is Seth. I was honestly debating whether or not to join this project. Welpp, im here. Nothing really important about me. Its just sad how I grew up & the first thing I learned about life is how much it actually f*cking sucks.

held life in your hands, and felt it drift away?

Have you ever

watched a being struggle to stay in this world, and yet witnessed their spirit disperse into the aether?

Have you ever

touched something so gently, for fear of harming, only wishing to let them understand they were loved?

Have you ever

been so moved by a beings will to live, and ultimate loss of will, that you cried so serenely you didn’t even feel it at first?

I have.

Many a time.

And I feel as though, each time, when their spirit disperses,

a part of mine does too.

And I’m left

broken

empty

incomplete

About a week ago, I posted a thread that I was going to jump off a building, I tried to, but I somehow missed the point where I could fall into the ground, and instead I hit a lower roof, shattered my legs, and now I’m in a hospital where I could be sent to involuntary treatment even as an adult

Now my parents are going to go back and listen to these goons that talk to you and try to “understand” you while they get a pay raise for giving you some bullshit meds, and still my parents don’t understand none of this is helping […]

Disclaimer: This is an article that I found on another website wandering around the internet.  I did not write any of the words but I found this to be very interesting….so I thought I’d share it here. 

I have been unlucky enough to be the guest of two different psychiatric hospitals. In addition, I have worked in nine psychiatric hospitals in a professional capacity. Most people, even professional psychiatrists, have a rather naive view of what happens in a mental hospital. Private psychiatrists who spend most of their time treating private patients for depression and anxiety may have very little experience with a real […]

I talked to my dad about the whole online education thing and he was completely against it. He thinks it’s the wrong way to educate yourself and that I should continue attending normal school…I’m so fucking depressed, I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to go to school, that’s the problem. I can’t cope with it any longer and my parents can’t seem to understand that, they think I’m just being “stubborn” about it all…but my condition towards this is very serious. He said that if I continue to go against his wishes, he will stop the internet for good, won’t speak to […]

It’s weird. I love helping people and it makes me feel good about doing it. Here lately I’ve been thinking about sharp objects. A few months ago I tried slitting my wrist and just being done with everything… I just want to be done with life… But I guess it’s not my time yet…

How do someone recover so fast?.. Like.. Recover from all the pain. How to stop? How to stop all the voices in your head? How to stop myself from thinking that suicide is the only way?… I’m only 15 but .. Suicide is all I can think about. If I find life difficult to handle now.. What about the future when there’s more obstacles coming my way?

I slit. First time, I’m sure it was for attention. Just to get someone’s attention, I attempt suicide. Funny uh?… I first started cutting myself was about 3 years ago. But ever since that first blade that I draw across my skin… It gives me a feeling of satisfaction . Up till today, I still cut myself but then… I don’t know if it was to get the person attention again or is it because of all the pain that I can’t handle.
It was.. An addiction to slit. Like, each time you had some problem and you began to solve the problem by cutting […]

Hey if any one wants to chat or something send me an invite on Skype we can video chat or IM it doesn’t matter. My SN is Frosty66686. just mention this site so i know who or where ur coming from. send me an invite anytime ill accept it.

bring me a dream…

Gods Children, Satan’s Plaything

They say we are all Gods Children.

Why does our father ignore us?

Why doesn’t our father console us?

Why do we have to ask for our father’s comfort?

They say our God is in us all.

Why does father want us to destroy his vessel?

Why doesn’t father make us feel loved?

Why do we have to ask for fathers love?

They say God is always with us.

Why Doesn’t father talk to us?

Why does father make us feel alone?

Why do we have to ask father to be in our hearts?

They say we are nothing but […]

Sometimes I wish there was some sort of real time meet ups over Skype, teleconference, chat rooms, at a dinner even, where people could come and discuss freely about their feelings, life circumstances, suicide plans and the deep depression that makes them feel like suicide may be the only way out. Without fear of people calling the police, telling you to snap put of it, reminding you that a lot of people go through bad times. The fact that you have to remain so closed on the subject makes you feel even more alone.

Oh well, just a wish. This secret is a terrible […]

I was hoping you’d disappear. See, I’ve come to realize that though I hate my life, I abhor yours. You and all of your perfection, your pride, your happiness. You and your perfect family with your picket fence and house on the hill. So then, as I sat there at my window watching the rain pour into that very lonely night, I couldn’t help but wish you away. I awoke from peace, leaning against a cool window and pulling a blanket over my shoulder. You hadn’t crossed my mind…until the pregnancy test caught my gaze. Will I never be rid of you?

that big question whether you going to stop cutting but then you think about it you really don’t want to stop the cutting because it’s like something that has became you

and we all understand that it’s dangerous but the thing is we don’t want to be reminded what’s going to happen, thats why we do it because we already know what the risk is.

but the biggest question i have is are we ever gonna stop cutting? why is it that we feel so deeply into cutting and have to get into arguments over it? is it worth the cutting and make our parents upset or […]

This may be because I’m high as hell but still I think it would be cool.

I was thinking that it would be cool if everybody on here that is feeling the same as me you know alone,useless,a failure,whatever it is would get together and hang out talk and just have each other back. I mean it would make since, nobody will understand what were going through unless they’re going through the same thing. There would be no psychiatrist or councilor involved it would be just us, for us. I bounced it off my sister and she said it sounds like a cult lol. I told […]

I was watching colombiana, and in the credits they played NIN’s song Hurt song by Johnny Cash. As I listined to the lyrics I imagined myself committing suicide to this song, it just fit so well. I’ve always imagined myself doing the deed while listing to something but nothing fit perfectly.

Hurt

By: Johnny Cash

Originally performed by Nine Inch Nails

I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that’s real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything[Chorus:]
What have I […]

Hi I’m 17 and live in a small town in ca and wow I don’t even know what to say I guess that all my life all I have ever wanted was to be loved to be someone’s world and for them to be mine I don’t want money fame or to be remembered just to die with a wife and some kids but no matter how hard I try I can’t I never under stand I’m a nice guy who cares more about outhers then my self but all the girls seem to like the assholes that treat them like shit I dont know […]