Just actually sit down to think about it
Love is a myth and you can live with out it
Love and pain go hand and hand
If you cant see it why believe you can
You want to see you want to believe
In your heart its not make believe
Use your mind your heart’s deceived
By the one called your hearts thieve
In the end why feel the pain
From the myth love let your mind restrain
To let your heart be broken and stained
Is a huge risk and in the end what do you gain
When you think your in love
Fall […]
Roses are red
Violets aren’t blue
My hurt skips beats
When I’m with you
Your eyes so big
My heart so blue
You can not see
It yearns for you
Blind to it
I know its true
But god almighty
I wish he knew
Every second I think of you
Thoughts are endless they hurt too
Like a twisting rode
Plunged threw my heart
We are forever
Ment to be apart
Not gods will
Your just to smart
Relationships
All ways tend to part
So we stay friends
Makes my heart depart
But friends are forever
that’s a start
If one day you should change […]
I wrote this earlier…its just an opinion and please excuse the foul language :)
This is a depressing world we live in….a very depressing world one I cant bare to live in one I wont bare to live in…but im a bad person and bad people belong in this hell…I belong in this hell….I hurt everybody with my words…my touch….my everything wonder if anyone else realizes that they already live in hell hell cant get much worse then planet earth…I hate myself people hate me but who gives a fuck right……..who…really….gives….a….fuck!!!!!!!!!!!….the world is filled with disappointments im just another one of them ill live………..ill die……….but I swear to my lord and savior I wont multiple….why bring something in this […]
It’s my first post here, I must admit that I don’t know why should I bother doing this given that nobody gives a fuck what I do. I want to fall asleep and never wake up, I’m one of the worst persons that ever lived, I’ve made a lot of people suffer and most of them hate me. I think I shouldn’t be alive, that way the world would be a much better place, I can’t think why I could make the difference here, nobody will miss me. I’m that guy that walks alone with his head down, who people never talk to, I don’t […]
I wish i would just do it, but why make the ones i love feel the way i do :(
Hello im waste2304
I honestly don t know why im ganna air all this out here but i guess i hope i can help someone else see it the way i do today i signed up for this site because i need someone…anyone to listen to me i mean im going so crazy and i just need somebody who wont judge me to please just listen to me….every since i was 13 ive attempted to hurt myself a multitude of times…it made all the pain just go away…the depression was killing me and still does till this day…and people say they understand but they truly will […]
Hes the one guy ive loved unconditionaly, stupid sying that since in merely 16. we nerve kissed or talked much. but he fixed me, i could trut him. Then he left, just vanished without saying good bye. i started breaking again, everything went wrong but i was on my own, found that cutting helped ( yes stupid old lovesick naive idiot that i was) a year later he emailed me, we talked and he said he still loved me… i let my guard down, i wanted to feel again, i believed it. then he vanished again, a month letter i found out he’d been engaged. […]
ive learnt how to block everything up now, not to say how you really feel… people honestly dont care. but im just writing here because i need to get it out, as soon as i speak about stuff i close up and change the subject but writing it, i can cry as much as i want and still its all comprehensible.ok my life is great, my parents care about me, im a scholar with a grade 8 for LAMDA and % for theory of music. I have a passion; horses, everything to do with being outside, nature, science, english lit and lang.
But i hate […]
I am so lost. I dont know what to do. I cant do anythign right, and everyone around me knows it. I fail a everything I do. I thought college would make me happier but honestly it has made things worse. I am even closer to the family i hate, and all my friends that i loved are now gone. One of the only people that i am stuck here with is the girl that broke my heart. We are friends but deep down I care a lot about her when we never even kissed, went out or talk that much. It is something that […]
I haven’t written for awhile. Im doing this from my iPad something’s happened. Someones told me again that I mean nothing. I mean he made me get very upset, he wanted to come see me, I wasn’t sure, i told him I wasn’t, because I’m so messed up right now, and he got angry, Â cold, stone cold. But I was crying and looking at the kitchen knives and he practically laughed, and said he was busy, basically that He has a life. I know how pathetic this sounds, but noe Iwant to, I’m thinking of really doing this.
people told me he is a psychopath, that […]
Eleven years. It’s been eleven years since I’ve had control over my emotions. Since I have felt any sense of normalcy or joy.
Medication after medication. None of them have worked.
Electro shock therapy. Gave me six months of relief before I relapsed, and my psychiatrist is convinced that the habits and anxiety and addictions that I never used to have before the ECT would have happened anyway. When I went through the treatment, I had no memory of anything for months straight. I forgot how to drive, where I was half the time, and each session was nightmarish.
Speaking of my psychiatrist, since I’ve started seeing him, […]
It’s hard to say what I feel now(like always) but,I want to tell somebody cause I can’t keep it inside anymore…It kills me,I’m destroying everything.I want to scream and let that thing get out from me forever.I think about suicide every time,but I don’t wanna hurt my parents,they made for me much! In my school I’m just another “Looser”…It don’t wanna feel this way …..I don’t want to live,I have no reasons to live for…..I feel empty inside,that intolerable pain….I’m broken,broken is what I am………
a little bit about me.. Well im 16, my life includes smoking pot, listening to music, video games, and partying. I’m not a bad person i really try to be a good person considering how i get treated. I’m bisexual and proud. my music includes reggae, escape the fate, BMTH, BVB, Tech nine *really all of strange music*, ICP, and mostly all music. I am a Juggalette. I’v been depressed since i was about 10 and started cutting around 11, my sister pasted away when i was 13. I have chronic migraines so it makes it hard for me to do a lot of things. […]
I know it’s my fault. I took the pill today. I shouldn’t have forgotten to take it for the past couple days but I did. Now I’m fucked up. If anyone notices, I must be unbearable to be around.
I have such an amazing life but I don’t feel it. I know there is potential in me but I don’t feel it. I feel tired and sad and careless. I feel deep guilt for causing stress to my husband with my anxiety attacks and thoughts of suicide. I don’t want to get up anymore. I don’t want to do school. I have short moments when I’m soaring and feel like I’m on top of the world but then all of a sudden feel like I can’t handle life anymore. I don’t want to do this anymore. I find myself wishing I never existed far […]
I keep having the worst anxiety attacks. I’ve told my parents numerous times but they think I’m being a little *****.
My mother is one of the biggest problems in my life. I haven’t been a christian
for a long time now. She did the usual things good parents try to do, but
also tried to smother me in christian values. It screwed me up because
between her and my dad, I was never good enough..
The biggest problem was not knowing if God was even real. So I had her
trying to brainwashing me(and she succeeded to a certain extent) while
I tried(unsuccessfully) to find myself.. yes, I realize other people are lost
I’m sure everyone’s heard the story I’m about to tell before; the girl who loses the boy she loves. I keep a journal on my computer and write everytime I’m sad, as if I have an audience reading along as I type. I’ve decided to write for people to see this time. I’ve been dating y boyfriend for about a year, we’ll call him Scott. Scott and I have been through much more than a usual teenage relationship. He moved here in the fall of 2010 to start tenth grade with a whole highschool he didn’t know. He had the looks though, and he eventually […]
to the self centred guy that stupid me likes to rely on,
you walk in and out of my life like im a 24 hour service that you always have access to. mind games are as fun as swallowing glass, try it sometime and walk in my shoes- im not an object im a fucking human being with feelings and my respect drops for you like the temperature drops that night. this “friendship” is a one way track of bullshit and IM DONE.
Everytime I eat something, I feel like puking. I want to but I know it’s not healthy. I feel so pathetic. I really wish I was dead.
So, anyone have any great epiphanies while I wasn’t looking? No? Okay. I have not had a great epiphany either so I know that feels.
Anyway, I would just like to say how tired I am of sleeping, how tired I am of regretting decisions that involved you. Ha. I can not even say miss you because in no way shape or form did I even come close to knowing you. Anyway, I am just so fucking tired of regrets. I am so tired of thinking about you. So tired of living, so tired of lying, so tired of pretending and […]