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hello blog.

this is my first post.

i struggle with anxiety and major depression.

i’m not sure how to cope with anything. my parents misraised me and i have no friends.

everyone hates me and bullies me and thinks i should just kill myself, so why the fuck shouldn’t i..

all of my ex boyfriends said i was worthless and should.. so.. yeah..

nothing’s alright. i constantly feel the need to cut myself.

i constantly feel the need to tie a noose and hang myself.

i constantly feel the need to die. i’ve lost everything.

i don’t have a family, i don’t have friends.

my parents gave me up 7 months ago and made it […]

To everyone who is thinking about killing them self tonight.

To everyone who is thinking about cutting them self tonight

To everyone who is thinking about throwing up tonight.

To everyone who is thinking about not eating tonight.

Please. Listen to me. I’m where you are. I’m young. I’m lost. I have no hope. No desire to keep going on.

But your reading this now aren’t you?

Please I know you see a light at the end of the tunnel, I’ve seen it my self for many years. I’m hear on this site because I’m trying to get closer to the light. I want to, deep down in side.

Live.

So please, fight […]

Is not that i hate life , or that I hate living, not that I want to kill myself.
I mean I’ve thought of it and I’ve tried it, but I just can’t.
There’s something I just can’t take out of my mind, I really don’t understand the meaning of all that. I just don’t know what to do sometimes, I am lost, but not sure why. I mean, I’m good at school, I love my career. I have friends, but to be honest, I don’t share thoughts or feelings about this, ‘how I feel’ with them, not even with my family, not even with […]

WHAT THE FUCK ONE DIRECTION FANGIRLS? WHAT THE FUCK?

Cut for Zerrie? Really? Have you gone mad? He is getting married to someone he loves. He is HAPPY.

And it insults me that you DARE call yourselves cutters. You have NOTHING to cry over. Sorry to burst your bubble, but YOU NEVER HAD A CHANCE WITH HIM BEFORE.

I’m insulted to be quite honest. I cut because I actually have problems. YOU don’t. It pisses me off.

Justin Bieber smoked pot, you cut.

Zayn Malik wins the girl, you cut.

Mitch Lucker DIES, I stay sane, and you still call me an emo dyke who’s pathetic.

Fuck you. Just FUCK YOU ALL.

Don’t […]

I wonder where I would really go if were to commit suicide today…I guess I fear the unknown , I might’ve killed myself a long time ago if I knew where I was going…I don’t have enough “faith” to be atheist or christian.But I do believe in ghosts , Once I  heard something whisper call my name or I feel like something’s watching me (especially when I’m alone) . And once I had this dream that I was in a dark place and I felt something reach for my stomach and then I woke up my stomach felt weird…

Anyway I think I should become atheist or christian but I don’t […]

I know sometimes we just want to give up and be in the eternal sleep. But we have to keep going. God knows what he is doing. Maybe today was not your day or anyother day but we need to keep going I know its hard somtiemes I want to give up and die I have a very suicide mind I know how to end life with anyobject, I cant be touched by anyone because im scaerd they heat me or do something to me, im verry sencetive, I am realy anxious, and I get insain wen im sad I beging to pull my hair […]

Beautiful angel R.I.P,your pain is no more

R.I.P depression is real,this young man killed himself,he was only 29.He appeared to have everything money+friends+good looks.But wasn’t happy for reasons only he knew.Your pain is no more

What if it was an obligation of your country’s government to do whatever it takes to prevent suicide. I mean in the scenario that the government would simply ask you “what would it take to keep you from killing yourself?” And they would do anything possible to give you what you need. Money, medical attention, a home, counseling…etc.. Anything logical you could think of.

My question is “would it work?” To keep you or other people from killing themselves.

And what would you tell your government you need to stay content with your life?

New here, and I don’t know why, I just thought I’d share my last thoughts. I’m a 33 year old male with serious mental health problems. I am a husband and a father, but that doesn’t factor into my decision somehow. I’m going to kill myself. I have all the equipment to hand for a quiet death. Fuck it! I can’t be bothered to say anything else apart from FUCK THE WORLD! And if you have anything negative or “oh that’s so selfish” to say don’t bother. I repeat DON’T BOTHER! I’ll be dead in an hour.

I wish i could just disappear. I am not wanted here no more. Everyone ignores me. I feel like shit and I just cut. I don’t know what the meaning of life is anymore so I guess its time for me to be gone.

Ill wind up dead sooner or later so this’ll be my goodbye to those who have known me on here, to be honest, I don’t know when I’ll die but at this rate, not very long. This will be the last post I make here so bye.

I made another mistake. Again another mistake. All the stress, disappointment, failure, wasted finances I dont have, problems at work, added to my already deterioratking career, empty  savings account, disappointed family and friends, car and motorcycle thay need to be rebuilt, jeez the list goes on. Just when you thought it was piled high or you feel youc’re making baby steps toward improvement THEN you get kicked all the way back into a crawl.

I dont get itk? All these other people are so successful, almost with out even trying. While I try my ass off s succeed  then FALL! I fall twice as far as […]

Look,

You should be thankful, you got a chance to live. And everyone must know, nobody ever said that life is easy. I know the feeling of pain and not being loved, or teased by the one you love, problems at home or just a feeling you get out of the blue, that really hurts, that you just want to be in a dark room, nodody knowing where you’re at, no food, or social connection, or lights.. just slowly languishing. To be honest, I’ve thought about suicide a lot. And yes, I’ve hurted myself, with just scratches on my hand, I was just so angry, and […]

Im out eating at resyraunt,please understand that this is a big deal tp me i havnt done this ina while then when i mormally wpuld like 6 years ago

I promised myself I would kill myself before I finish high school (I’m in 9th grade) but I keep on postponing it…sometimes I wish I had enough courage to do it but I don’t want to die alone…I hate it when someone asks me why I want to kill myself… I can’t describe my feelings with words someone would have to feel what I feel to understand…everyday is a struggle to keep myself together , sometimes I feel so alone and unwanted…everyday I wake up I just want to crawl in a hole and die…

I also feel so stressed out when I go to school and it doesn’t make […]