achal qweshion iv cant talk to no one thinking of ending it agen need a way out im giving in to shit im week worthless nothing and no one cares
When you listen to the old philosophers they all agree that the human mind is a thing of beauty and interest. For some people on the earth that still rings true, but for people like me and im guessing people like you this is bullshit. The human mind is terrifying. Yeah sure it can let some people work out a complex maths equation but show it a hint of weakness and it will exploit it and tear you to shreds, leaving you sitting in pitch blackness in the corner of a room dripping blood onto the floor.
That is what happens to me.
“Suicide is not […]
Why did he ask me for a kiss? Why did he have to tell me he loved me? How come my heart told me over and over again he meant it? I felt like I was floating even though he was wrapping his arms around me, telling me to never go. His laugh made me smile. His touch was felt everywhere and the way he kissed me tugged on my heart. Why did he have to fill my head with all these lies? Why couldn’t he just tell me he wanted one thing? It would have been easier. Why did he make me feel higher […]
it seems that my life revolvs rownd cuting drinking and wining im sick of it
two shots of wiskey in the morning folowd by wining bout my own pettey self pittey then carving a a name in to my skin over and over wining some more then oblitrating my self when im sober im like this haling my self not life my self and whant iv don to my self the why iv liyd in an atempt to make frends then drinking to forget keeping my self alive is a dayly strugun that reqires three pills and 26 drinks and all i think of this is […]
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I have two pets and am thinking of how to deal with them in the scenario. The pets already have a place to go to.  But the people they’ll be going to, don’t know about my plans of course. Now, how do I do this best. I cannot part from my animals right now yet, because they’re dear to me. I’ve been thinking of sending a delayed email to someone, asking them if they want to take care of bringing the animals to their new home.  Pls. don’t call me selfish, I’m not hurting anyone this way, since no one gives a crap about me […]
I can’t cut like I use to, so I find other ways to feed my addiction. Tonight my dog head butted me and I used it to my advantage by being able to cause glorious pain to myself. This is peaceful beauty.Â
Here is my rant.. Best night of my life.. not.. you want to sit there and lie to me about who your with and what your doing? And you think i should of had respect for her? Uhmm no, what girl goes around with a guy who she KNOWS has a fucking girlfriend?.. I should of beat her ass. I don’t give a fuck anymore. Then we figure it all out and you turn back around and go to her house. HELL NO! I’m not playing anymore. I’m done.. I don’t want to be here.. I’m tired of the lieing of tonight..
I really don’t know what I’m doing. I’m extremely suicidal, I have no fear of death and I welcome it’s emptiness. However, I have this insane little happy part of myself that won’t shut up about all of my hopes and dreams and how they could still happen. I really feel like two people at once sometimes. I don’t know whether to feel good or bad that they both agree I’m ugly and look nothing like they do in my head. (I have a lot of self-hate.)
I think it might be worse because I don’t feel like I have the right to feel this way. […]
I would like to make myself as unattractive to the opposite (or same) sex as possible. Because it annoys me so goddamn much when people use appearance as a basis for liking someone. I want to gouge one eye out, file my teeth down into stubs, and grow a dreadlock-beard while allowing my hair to get all matted and nasty. #$%!#$%^!^
I’m going more crazy than normal and trying to avoid shoving my head in the oven or something.
i dont want to do this anymore. i want to call someone so maybe they could convince me not to do it, but i have no one. thinking about the future makes me feel so sick and i just dont want to be here for it.
i remember when life was fun, it was exciting and adventurous. i remember as a little girl, sitting in class dreaming of growing up and travelling the world. i remember dreaming of the places i would go, and the things i would do. i remember dreaming of my career, and the love of my life. but now, i sit here in year 11. life seems to have gone so quickly, i walk through the hallways at school as a  nobody. invisible and unseen. bad thoughts running through my head, constantly. life seems to be a burden now, a task, something i must endure. yet no […]
My head is pounding i cant take the screams..i turned 18 today why aint i happy? Why does she keep banging on the door?? Cant she leave me already?? I dont even know why im writing here right now but i just need to talk without being yelled at or judged..why wont she understand im nlt crazy!! All i want is quiet..i want to rest..im in my bathroom sitting on the floor..my wrists are bleeding and it wont stop..im scared..i want to sleep..just sleep and stay like that..my hands are getting numb its getting hard to type..theres blood on my shirt and the […]
Do you know that moment when you don’t know what to do anymore. When your world is crashing down but you still have a stupid smile on your face. This is all happening to me,& I’m losing it. Yeah people out there have it worse than me & I shouldn’t be complaining but it’s just to much to handle. I just want to end it & leave it all behind. I have nothing to much to lose. The people who once gave a damn  about me just gave up on me. Now a couple days ago I lost the person I love thanks to my […]
How exactly does one commit suicide with a belt and a doorknob? Maybe this is a naive question but where does the other end go once you fasten the makeshift noose part?
I’m lonely. So much that I’m wondering if it’s possible to die of loneliness like starvation.
Why did you have to die, James? You were the only one who cared about me. I just want to be with you wherever you are.
But who’s gonna listen? You? You, the one who comes up to me with a sickly sweet voice saying “What’s wrong?”, and when I tell you, all you have to say is “You need some help, go talk to someone!” before walking the fuck away. That’s the sort of shit that makes people like me NOT talk, you inconsiderate son of a *****.
Everyday, every night, I’m looking. Looking all around me, at my Facebook account, at my Skype, at my phone contacts book, at my god damn life. And always wondering, “Who’s ever gonna listen to me?”.
No-one, that’s who. And the ironic thing is […]
Depression and Anxiety http://youtu.be/F1Q7PWN1jE0 This video really helps for all that are suffering, it really does
What road did i turn down that lead to this?
i wonder what had truly happened
the years that past, that left us behind
if i had the hands of time i would rewind
i cant change who you are
i cant erase all those scars
but did you have to mark me to?
the past of pasts it runs through and through
to break the cycle, break who you are
before your sense have ran to far
there worn out and stretched thin
so where do we truly begin?
they say to help, help yourself
you dont want it, u like the hand thats dealt
one mans pain is another mans pleasure
you hold it close like its […]
Last year I had a bf for 4 months. Not exactly the longest relationship, but it was still pretty long. We had 4 classes together and lunch. His name was John. He was my everything and I was his. We were the couple that everyone thought was cute and would last forever you know? Of course it didn’t. We ended really bad. I tried to be friends with him but I miss him, and I think I still like him. He doesn’t want anything to do with me. He’s embarrassed to talk to me. Why does it hurt so much?