“Love breeds sacrifice, which breeds hatred. Then you can know pain”
Hesitate; left behind. Â A step back is a step outside. Â Goodnight, wherever you are.
i may be abused. but all i wanna do know is hurt myself more and more. for the past week my best friend and i have been fighting constantly. over stupid issues really..thing is now were kinda sorta talking nicer but i cant trust him now. im fucked over now thinking were ganna get in another argument..weve been best friends for 7 months now and this is the first time ever we have argued (or at least this much) now when were having fun and laughing i feel guilty. cuz we shouldnt fight. hes been there since day one and has never left me..hes the […]
People on tumblr and in life around me keep telling me to “Continue On” or “Stay Strong”. What’s the point in either of these expressions if one has already made the decision to just stop being here?
I’ve given it a lot of thought; am I actually continuing on with living or continuing on dying daily? Lately, I haven’t had the motivation to get out of bed. Two nights ago, I almost attempted suicide. Yet, instead of trying to listen to me and understand my situation, people tell me to be strong and to be happy. You can’t tell me to stop throwing up everything I […]
Recently I have been eating just like everyone else but making myself vomit after I have been doing this for the past week. I am developing bulimia… I can’t eat  now with out wanting or needing too throw up. I noticed tonight at dinner that I was starting off lightly on the food and towards the end I was stuffing my face and then going to the bathroom right after. This afternoon before lunch I stuffed my face with food and then throwing up shortly after. I haven’t been cutting but instead throwing up. I do not like how every time I eat all I […]
Suicide Poem
I don’t want to live, I’m ready to die, I reach for the blade and  let out a sigh. I’m sick of this world, I’m sick of it all, what would happen if I had a ‘Fall’ from a building or off a train track, would anyone actually want me back? If i Swallow these pills or fall down the stairs, I wonder if anyone actually cares. Don’t blame my family, it wasn’t their fault, my life was just ready to come to a hault. I know that I’m young, but I really don’t care, I sit on my bed with a lifeless stare. […]
It feels like I don’t even have a family. My parents argue and then end up ignoring each other for months. I’m so tired of it.. its been going on since I was about 11 and now I’m 19! If I had the money to move out, I would. But I have school to pay for and by living with them, I don’t have to worry about rent,food, and other stuff like that. My life sucks!!!! I hate it. I feel bad saying that because others have it way worse than me but that’s how I truly feel. This house is not even a home.. […]
I thought it would all be better by now. But it’s not.
I thought things would change. But now I’m afraid they never will.
I’m alone and I think its ment to be this way. So I can disappear and no one will miss me.
I dont wan’t anyone anymore. I used to be afraid of being alone and feeling numb.
But it’s ment to be.
Just a little deeper and I’m finally gone.
well my life sucks .. ive drinken ALOT of pills but it never seems to kill me not even do anything to me .. i have to much problems & surpisingly i am only 14 .. i have pressure at school at home everywere i ust want to die & get it over with .. how can i kill my self ?
Hello, I am a 16 heats old boy from norway. I have during the past year been wondering on wether or not my life is worth living. I have all my life been interested and engaged in looks and beauty stuff (I am 100% straight). i just care how i look. lately, the last year i have been bothered with my looks. i wont go into specifics because that is not relevant. I simply cant imagine myself living a life as the person I am. when i look around i can hardly find anyone id rather not be. im not extremely ugly, many or some might find […]
I am so done with being here my life is in a constant state of a downward spiral. I’m alone and I can’t take it anymore. Love will never be in my reach I am unlovable and my heart seeks what it shall never have
6 or 7 Melatonin should help me fall asleep tonight.. maybe a few more..
(Not trying to kill myself)
I’m not coming back to log in anymore… I’m done reading about pain and ridiculous ways to die that iv’e already ruled out… I this to be painless… and comforting… coming back here is making everything worse… bye.
Death right now, just seems to make things easier. If i just died tonight then NO MORE anything. (obviously) Just seriosuly wish i could die so that i didnt have to deal with anyyyyythinggggggggg.
Doesnt matter what happened or what happens.
Annoyed.
Pissed.
Done.
Today, i cut for the first time. The funny thing is, there wasnt a big traumatic event to trigger it. I just felt really stressed out and helpless so i decided to cut. I dont know how i feel about it. All i know is that it felt good afterwards, like a weight was lifted up from my shoulders. I know its bad to cut but i guess i felt like there was no other options for me.
i really dont know where to start. ive been depressed again for last 2 days and counting …
ive been listening the same song since this morning until now (1.30AM)
dislike most of the ppl here i dont have family issues or break ups. i love my family and they love me. there is this thing that no one can really understand it. i know its kinda useless to say that but “I am Iranian”.
i hate almost everything. i start my day by saying fu** words every day. im pretty sure i have no future. maybe thats what bothers me the most. i hate my culture , […]
Hey, I am Kriss (Short for Kristina). I am 15, going on 16, and I live in Ohio. I am German, and British with a little bit of Native American and Irish in me.
I just thought I would be neighborly and introduce myself. I am here because, like most everyone, I at one time have tried to kill myself. I was only 11 the first time, 13 and then 15. I have always had PSTD. For those who don’t know that is Post Tramatic Stress Disorder. What happened, though, that would have caused me this terrible thing? Well, here is my story.
I went to […]
I have no real reason to kill myself. I guess I’m being really selfish and unreasonable. My boyfriend left me oh..about month and a half ago. I really loved him..no..I was obsessed with him. I still am. After he left me I threatened to kill myself and his mother found out. He still really cares about me, he only left in the first place because he thought I could do better. It really destroyed me inside. I’ve done awful things. I’ve cut, I’ve lied, I’ve threatened to kill myself, I’ve tried to blackmail him and I’ve used other people. I feel worthless, unattractive, unable to […]
I woke up very anxious and stressed this morning. It’s midnight here now. And I’m thinking of suicide again. And murder. My parents’ arguing woke me up. It always bothers me when they fight. Why? Because I have a crazy mother. Yes, crazy. Clinically diagnosed with bipolar disorder or manic-depressive illness. I have seen her at a low level to the highest peak of her craziness. And when she gets nuts, really nuts, I shake like hell. I hate how much I am unable to control it. I always tell myself to toughen up but my body and mind defies me. I put […]