People on tumblr and in life around me keep telling me to “Continue On” or “Stay Strong”. What’s the point in either of these expressions if one has already made the decision to just stop being here?
I’ve given it a lot of thought; am I actually continuing on with living or continuing on dying daily? Lately, I haven’t had the motivation to get out of bed. Two nights ago, I almost attempted suicide. Yet, instead of trying to listen to me and understand my situation, people tell me to be strong and to be happy. You can’t tell me to stop throwing up everything I eat (I have bulimia). You can’t tell me to be happy, even though you know I have depression. You can’t tell me to stop cutting, even though you know it’s the only thing bringing me relief. Â You can’t tell me these things without making me feel like an idiot and a pathetic fool. I understand it when people tell me I’m ugly, stupid, fat, worthless, pathetic, etc., I get it. I completely agree with you. But don’t try to tell me these stupid little motivational phrases, thinking you’re helping. I don’t WANT help. If I wanted help, I would have gotten it by now; I don’t want any help. I deserve every amount of pain, every cut, every attempt I’ve caused myself. I don’t know where to go.
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Because people want to help. That’s all. I dont know if it’s more egoism in stead of altruism but they see that you’re still here, so they sort of think it can be prolonged. If cutting helps you, well I see as a way to cope.
And also, I could say you’re fat, stupid, arrogant, selfish, worthless and pathetic but truth is that I dont know you so well it would make me a liar. Besides no one can be all of those.
And dont go anywhere if you don’t want to. Go if you want to.
Well, i believe that people feel a responsibility when someone is cutting/bulimic etc. They feel like they should say something so they cannot be blamed for your death or any misfortune ahead, so they tell you generic lines like “Chin up, it will get better” or “Be strong and think of your future”.
They don’t truly know pain, they are just afraid to NOT comment and ‘help’ in some way.
These topics make them feel uncomfortable and that is the reason they are saying these things.
i tend to ignore people like this, they don’t understand so how could they fully comprehend my pain and suffering?
Although they can Sympathise, they can’t Empathise.