he doesn’t want me anymore.. no one wants me.. I’m not kidding if I can’t have him no one will want me. he was the only one willing to accept my flaws in life.. to accept my physical flaws. in fact he loved them! he fucking loved them.. he loved me but I fucked him over. I didn’t even want to. and now because of that I chose to leave the only one who would accept me for who I was and actually find me attractive. I fucked myself so I guess I can’t complain. I couldn’t even get anyone else.. plus he was my […]
Was so down. Felt like everything I worked hard for all became just wastes. Never been so sad hearing something said bad about me, but coming from someone who you look up to but doesn’t really know who you are, just felt so horrible.
Simply put… I am tired of feeling like I don’t belong. In fact, wanting to belong felt like the only thing I could believe in.
Up till this present moment in time, I have been a poser. That may not be the right word to use but it is true. I have lied about my feelings, my personality, and in general, my life. Now I won’t go into details about how I hate my life and nothing is working out, so, here is a rant for you.
Optimism is a false belief which many people face. I, being a teenager and a homosexual, have learnt this the […]
there’s always been this feeling inside me where its like i want to crawl out of my skin. nobody knows what i’m truly thinking or how i feel about myself everyday; MY LIFE. i’m known for being a happy girl and i guess its just this front i put up, but deep down… i don’t want to be here anymore. i feel like its such a selfish thought but im thinking it..and I don’t even feel like i have good enough reasons to end my life when i hear about other people who have it much worse than me. i guess i’m just weak
WEAK.
UGLY.
STUPID.
LAZY.
FAT.
nothing will […]
For as long as I can remember I have thought of suicide, even back in elementary… I had no friends until the 4th grade. Things were okay until i shit my pants in the 5th grade therefore once again becoming an outcast. No friends in high school even though it was a fresh start I was still too awkward to make friends. Even when the thoughts are gone or I think everything is going good, it comes right back. Why cant I shake these thoughts? Im a loser and a weirdo, I have no friends and no one likes me. The only reasons I havent […]
How do you really tell someone you’re in pain without it bothering them? Without making them feel useless for not being to help you? Normal activities will only take you so far. Should I return to pointlessly opening my flesh? How many OD’s til I get it right? When will this spit stay in my mouth? When will my body stop aborting itself? I don’t want to kick and thrash anymore. I don’t want to freeze in one state for minutes on end. I want my old life back. When I was a humorous person to be around, when I would laugh at myself even. […]
Hello, I’m 17 and engaged to a guy who beats me and his whole family i luv him but idk </3 also he lets everyone talk trash bout me he says im ugly and im a nobody ): i just wanna dye already so when can i plz help me tell me what is the fastest plz <3
I would say I made my choice, but I don’t think it was ever really a choice for me. I would choose my career every time. I choose success – and simultaneously unparalleled loneliness – every time.
God, I’m fucking lonely.
Hope?
I tried to kill my self. I take some pills and cut my legs so much. i be inconsient for a hours on my bathroom. I don’t know how i survived. But, i still want to die.
Tonight I have thought about driving over a bridge, drowning in my bathtub or just slitting my wrists with broken glass. It’s a disease. Suicide is something that takes you over and makes you weaker and weaker.
Strange that today I am willing to take my life when I remember pulling through all the difficulties, I am still alive but it’s not that I have to just keep on going through and surviving through yet another hard time but that I have to remember and re-live the pain of when I first held a bottle of pills. It used to be that nobody knew, that behind […]
I can’t wait to finish high school and leave this hellhole for good, but why does it take so long???? It seems like I have suffered for years and years when actually it’s still December, have got 5 months of school left. I really hate it here… I want to leave… What should I do??
I’m a grade A student, but I hate school second to hating the woman who gave birth to me.
Sometimes I feel so depressed waiting for school to end that I am tempted to cut.
And trust me, when the time finally comes for me to leave here, I’ll never fucking come back. […]
I don’t know why but it just feels like the entire worlds against me. I’m so sick of it I’ve been depressed for so long and every day I contemplate suicide. I always feel like a psycho and I don’t care what happens to me hell my friends the few I have even call me psycho! I want to end it all so bad but every time I’m about to I think of my mom and family and how much it would hurt them. I need help someone anyone fucking help me….
I’ve been working really hard to get away from daily suicidal thoughts for nearly a year now. My therapist has been pleased, I’m a lot happier, I have no side effects from my medication and I’ve finally finished my postgrad degree. Then at a party on Sunday, a “friend” started talking to me about my future. I told her she already knew what I was aiming for: a job in my field within a year or something similar. If I can’t see a future for myself, then I will kill myself. So she starts on me “Do you think you are selfish in wanting to […]
I have 4 amazing wonderful people who I call my best friends, the thing is I don’t Think one of them likes me very much we’ll hang out always after me initiating something sometimes they’ll let me crash at their house when I’m lucky, but I can’t escape the feeling that I just get more out of their presence then they ever do get out of mine, I feel awful knowing I’m just a charity case, they all know I cut I don’t know the extent of what they know about my plan for suicide I don’t really want any of them to know, they probably […]
Here’s a scenario… imagine your life was nothing. Imagine waking up every morning scared of what will happen today….knowing nothing will happen because you aren’t good enough and some one in your head constantly reminds you of it. You promise yourself it’ll be different but that second person knows it wont and flaunts it. You get ready for school and if you don’t have time or your hair isn’t doing the right thing you freak out and hyperventilate. You think you’re having a heart attack and can not breathe but you still make your way out the door and to the bus for school. Once you […]
They were siting on my friend audry and me and im the one in the black jacked with stripes shes the one crying xD
I went out of my house for a change, to hang out with some of my old friends. I rarely do this now since i tend to lock myself in my room, when im not inclined to go to school.
I hung out with 15 of my friends and we watched “end of the world movies” since that was the theme of the party. I was cuddling with my gay friend […]
I am a 32 year old woman who still lives at home with her parents, been made bankrupt and had had two relationships (both under a year).
Up until 3 years ago I had my clinical depression under control, but then it all went to shit! Something happened at work and I hit lower than rock bottom.
I went from thinking I had lots of friends, good at my job, happy and in control, go being locked in a secure mental ward, leaving my job, losing all my friends and was left with no one or nothing!
People think committing suicide is so easy and its […]
there is a solution to everyone’s pain. after years and years if feeling like you, after allall my suicide attempts and failures, after many many hospitalizations and drugs and bad  living situations…I was forced to keep going, finally made it thru the other side. life isn’t always easy and j suffer from depression. but I have found a way to cope for the MOST part am happy. you can do it too. it takes work though. after realizing killing yourself isn’t so easy, I made the choice to live.
I lost the one thing that mattered the most in the world and i don’t want to live on this planet anymore. She is the most wonderful, beautiful, artistic, intelligent person in the world and now I’m lost. Every moment I spend with her is magical and a single second without her is agony. All I want is to hold her, to kiss her… but it will always be out of my reach. I love her more than life itself, I need her. I don’t want to live on this planet anymore.