i want to run so bad,but im scared to jump a train,i want to go somewere warm,what if the train takes me to a different country,i herd someone say once that you have to becarefull cause the train driver takes tops every once in a while to check an make sure noone jumpt the train,and they will beat you if they find you,,,i can only hope it will bring me somewere warm,my friend hitched hiked and jumpt trains all the way from california,she told me the rush she got from running,i want it so bad,but the only thing thats stoping me is my dad,i love […]

My days are never good, and never bad; at least not in and of themselves, as objective events. They’re only good or bad based on how I’m feeling, and how I perceive things at a given moment. What is bad can become good, granted a certain outlook.

But emotions are absurd. It’s like flying a plane without any detailed instrumentation — you never know when you’re going to hit turbulence because you can’t always see the wind.

I live in a paradox of being disgusted by my face and body most days and then feeling like the most gorgeous woman in the world other days. I will go for weeks avoiding mirrors and making snide mental remarks about being “fucking disgusting” then for a few days take a bunch of pictures of myself. I wish it weren’t like that. I don’t know if I’ve ever maintained a healthy self image though.

I’m brazilian and this is the only site I can read now.
It’s comfortable to know that are more people thinking like me.
Everyday I enter here and that gives me force to continue, day by day…
But today… today I don’t feel it. Today I’m weak.
I want to take my pills and never woke up.
I’m so, so lonely.
🙁

(sorry my english =\)

7 days…

i haven’t reached for my blade, not even once.

today, that’s all I been thinking about. :/

i just wanna feel it on my arm, it’s soothing to me.

what should I do?…

We never get away from them. It’s near impossible. Same with getting the things that frustrate us to go completely away. Reading a book does no good. There are people(perhaps not human, but still people) in them, and they do and say things that frustrate us. Computer games, or games of any sort, don’t work. They’re either online games with people who degrade and hate on others, or are so nice you want to throw up. Or they have characters. Or they don’t interest you, have shitty graphics, and are extremely cliche/cheesy. Being by yourself doesn’t […]

I think I’m going to end it soon.

oversensitive. over-dramatic. annoying. clingy. fat. stupid. ignorant. immature. Me. I’m leaving the site, leaving the internet. getting rid of all my accounts on everything and I’m not coming back. No one needs to know where I’m going or what I’m doing or if I’m alive or not. I love those of you who were there for me and I’m sorry for putting you through the shit that comes with knowing me. 😛 Goodbye my support group. I’ll miss you all so much. <3

why do i stay here if nothing is here for me,my dad is in prison and he is the only reason why i havnt ran away yet,cause i know he needs me to write him,i love him,and i said i wouldnt quit talking to him,he doesnt get out for another ten years,hes all i have,but he was never there for me,so why do i even bother beingthere for him,i dont know if i should leave or not,every night i hear the train go by,and i always think about jumping it,and seeing were it takes me,i dont care about the consequences,i already have ran 15 thousand […]

We feel so alone. We feel like everyone hates us. We feel like everyone would be better off without us. Am I right?

We have suicide thoughts. We hurt ourselves. We push everyone out. We won’t admit anything is wrong. We pretend we are fine when we aren’t. We want to die. Am I right?

Well that is how I feel anyway. I feel like I just want to die. I feel like finally I know I won’t be okay. I know I am not fine. I know that I need to die soon to amke all this pain inside me go away.

The only thing keeping me […]

Today I woke up screaming, I have nightmares most of the time, I have seen things I will never forget. Things no one could forget. Either way I had the dream again, where I was standing in the doorway and I slowly pushed it in, then I saw her face. Lifeless eyes that I loved so much. lost forever.

I could not Meditate today, every time I closed my eyes there she was, I tried deep breathing, still the thought lingers, the feeling never leaves. The schools are on a term break at the moment so I don’t have much to-do  My days are long and full of my […]

I’m 13 year old girl and in 7th grade. I’m a loner and I’m very depressed. Everyday I have to go and come from school. When I come home from school all I do is yell at my parents and cuss. I have never been thankful for what they bought me and did for me… All I do is make them sad and angry. When I don’t get the things I want I yell at them and then we quarrel. After that I go in my room, shut the door and cry. I realize how childish and greedy I am but it’s not just because […]