so sad .. especially after what just happened.

I won’t lie though, after finding this site I feel so much less alone. I feel content here. Finally, something that makes me feel somewhat okay. I was going to make this post about how hurt I’m feeling and just how I hate this depression and how I’m just so sick of everything, but like I said, when I get on this site I feel safe.  I don’t need anyone to respond, but I just had to say this. All the people here and I may not have ever spoken on here, but I’d like to say Thank You. To everyone.

Everyone always says suicide isn’t the answer. Well I wanna know what’s the better answer? I have a good life: I’m in college, I have a job, no bills to pay, and I have a 4 month old niece who is the most awesome baby ever. Yet no matter what l am never happy and even worse I always feel empty inside. Nothing excites me, I always feel alone no matter where I am, and I can’t do anything to change it no matter how hard I try!! So you tell me, what’s the better answer to my problems? I don’t even care about being […]

I could drop off the edge of the Earth and would be able to count on one hand the people that would wonder where I went. I’m so alone, I don’t know why I’m here. I do have a few things I like to do, but doing them alone is almost not worth the effort or cost. I want to enjoy the things I like to do, but it is so hard when once I do those things there is no one to share with. I sometimes think I’m waisting my time, and my life, even bothering to do things I like any more. Why […]

Our race is self destructing

No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No! No!

If you were to ask me would I want to live If I knew I would fulfill my dream do you know what I would say?I quess you can quess,NO!!!

SP sucks without my SP buddy Distantroad!So It’s almost been a year since I’ve been on this site.I made a really qood friend on here.That person Is Teenqirl18.(Teenqirl I’m sorry for puttinq our stuff out there).We started talkinq In March.We […]

Hi. I’ve tried everything i can to shake myself out of this depression but now i am inclined to think that the only way out is death.

Compared to many of the stories i’ve read sofar, my problem might seem trivial but i can assure you that it is causing me a significant amount of distress. When i was a boy up till high school, i was just like any regular kid. I wasn’t the most popular guy but i had lots of friends and had a good well-balanced life. I was happy and the future seemed so bright and filled with potential.

However, when […]

I laugh a lot and turn things around

I change pain into laughter

I smile when I should cry

I lie to myself

I lie everyday

Tonight everyone is out partying

I was invited to a few

Boys are texting me

In all honesty

It disgusts me

They just want to fuck

What good is that?

I want a hug

I want someone to hold and someone to hold me

However many times I’ve lied

I might as well just light myself on fire

It’s terrible

Sometimes I wonder if I’ll allow myself to ever show pain again

I wonder if I’ll keep smiling and laughing

It’s a hopeless cause all over

I’ve lost that one person I trust it all to

No matter how many […]

if so e-mail me: hannahschelling.15@gmail.com no one will talk to me and im in a house full of people so im bored outa my mind..anyone thats bored? EMAIL MEEEEEEEE<3

i wish this was my last post and then im off to the unknown but look at my posts..im A FUCKING MAGNET..the world seems to want me here just to be tortured…so idk what im saying..ima try again but FOR ANYONE WHO CARES(which now doesnt seem like many) just wait cuz il still be here the world wont let me leave-_-

I feel as if this site is more of a blog for people rather than an actual project to share stories about suicide expieriences, when people post their feelings on how they want to die so bad and how they’re going to, it’s kind of nerve wrecking because you eagerly want to help them out but don’t want to say the wrong thing or maybe push them over the edge. I don’t really have an excact reason as to why I’m typing this post that is irrelevant to the actual point of the site but I’m going to post it anyways because it’s my current […]

Who am i?
All of you are thinking it.
“Who is that kid?
The one that killed himself,
I think I’ve seen him before,
But I’m not sure.”
Let me put your minds at ease.
You have all seen me.
Ive always been here.

I’m the kid in the back seat of the class.
I’m the kid that you see eating lunch alone in the hall.
I’m the kid you whisper about as you walk by.
The kid that teachers never punish.
Because they’re scared of me too.
I’ve always been there,

Watching, silently.
Its funny that after only one year,
I’ve already developed my final opinions of you.
There are those of you out there that can rest easy.
My death is not […]

Where do I begin…. I am so lost and I feel so let down with life.nothing excites me anymore. All I do is work and for what I have nothing to show. No saved up money or new car. Nothing. I just live to support daily habits. I had so many goals when I was young but now fresh out of high school I have not one. Nothing interests me and believe me I try so hard to find that one thing. I smile everyday but come home and just look at myself and see nothing. I thought that maybe if I surrounded myself with […]

Il be glad when i die, its the easy way and i can prove that i dont have to live and take this shit/stress.. im just having fun until… i have a few more weeks to live.

I cant wait for my next attempt, i just pray i dont fuck up my suicide again, this is how i will and have to die, and very soon, the stress on my body cant deal with anymore, i need to die now, i should have died last month but im a coward and cant hang on a rope until i blackout and die, i came close but next time i will take a bunch of mucel relaxers, and trazadone to fall asleep while hangging myself, i am looking forward to try again soon, the next frw weeks, i have my funeral arrangements planned and […]

So recently ive delveloped a habit of biting myself… i cant seem to stop doingit for anything. I think i actually about broke my finger doing it.

Does it matter if I die?  Take it as it is, death will come, no matter what, everyone will succumb.

I gave up a long time ago. I let death win. Now it’s my time to go.

Either way, the stuggle’s within. You can fight yourself, and let the devil win. That’s where I’m at, knocking on the floor, waiting for hell to open up and swallow me once more.  The pain can’t get worse, and it’s all I know. I guess we’ll see tonight, how far I can go.

Lord I’m lonely … wanna die.  If I ain’t dead already … girl you know the reason why

Everything is so chaotic right now.  I predict a very dark day in the US soon :/

Living hurts now- living in the way it’s not living. Being confined to a desk and ruled over by a group of people who don’t know or care. It’s just so meaningless. I’m just alone here- hopeless and scared. But I’ve always got on a happy mask and muddle through the day.

And then there’s the guy. The unattainable guy who you can’t shake. Love is awful. It’s always rewarded with nothing but rejection. Or it’s just never expressed and your just there- without the strength to say anything. You watch them love others, and you can’t help but feel awful. At least I do.
I used […]