First let me say I practice remaining silent regarding my problem with suicide.
I have a psychiatrist and a psychologist. Both of them know why I attempted
suicide last year. The thing that I hate is I still feel suicidal. It doesn’t go
away. My suicide attempt last year was an overdose of Flurazapam and Tylenol. I
woke up two days later with a tube in my throat. The ICU report says I was in
critical condition. I’m 57 tears old. I have 5 children and 7 grandchildren. I’m
recently divorced. My credit is ruined and I’m hopelessly in debt. I’m a
teacher. I make […]
Hello.
I left for a while thinking it would make me feel better. It didn’t. I managed to lose all of my (few) friends recently. All completely my fault. Nights are extremely hard. I can’t get away from myself, I have no one to confide in, and I figured out a few depressing things about myself. Enough to keep me up at night.
On the bright side, I lost forty pounds in something like 7 weeks. Probably a bit unhealthy, but I really don’t give a shit.
I’m fully prepared for suicide, and will do so without fail when the time comes. I guess I’m just […]
somebody please talk me out of killing myself tonight. im sitting in front of my pills ready to o.d for the second time, only this time i know exactly how much i need to take to die. please nobody say “oh the world needs you, youre beautiful and unique and special”. because no im not. not at all. im caucassian. there are billions. i can sing. so can thousands. i have nothing to offer the world. everyone who knows me knows that. so without the cliches, PLEASE somebody talk me out of this…..
Have a good one,
Danny
im going to kill myself tonight. im just finished. i cant cope anymore. too much has gone wrong for too long and my body and mind are so tired. i cant deal with being sad and cutting all the time anymore. i need relief. i need to feel at peace again, and the only way to get that release is death. nobody can convince me otherwise. and i dont want people saying im selfish either, because guess what i dont have anyone that loves me anymore and i certainly wont be missed. i dont want that “youre special and unique” BULLSHIT either. cuuuuuz guess what, no im not! billions […]
I am a person who has destoyed so many people throughout my adult life. I met my husband and he was married at the time, I got pregnant. He did not have a good marriage, or so I was told. He left his family for me, and we had our baby.  He still had his family, and his children came around at first, but that ended rather quickly. So we had another baby a year and a half later, and we had our family. His parents did not want anything to do with us, which I completely understood. I was hurt, because I was lied […]
My son ,my only son decided he was just too tired and left me and his father in a very dark abyss.
This is all very fresh and I fear it will be that way for the re,mainder of our days.He left us in April of this year
and I haven’t once stopped trying to find answers or insight as to what now? I have managed to get my hands on some very good reading material but I really wish I could get a grip on this.I recently found this web site and I have to say It has helped me not to be afraid of life. […]
Well, this migh be a long read, but I’ve got to put this somewhere.
I’m 19. All this started as recently as 4 months ago, when my girlfriend of 4 1/4 years left me. She’s at university this year, I’m taking a gap year- but we were in the same year at school etc, and there’s only 3 months separating us in age. She is the single most perfect human being in the world- beautiful, funny, really intelligent. You name it, she’s got it. Everything was going so well for us, or so I thought- I’m going to the same uni as her starting in September, […]
I just… don’t have any reason to be alive anymore. I can’t take being this lonely another year, and my situation won’t change unless i change, but I haven’t changed in 32 years, so it’s clearly not going to happen. I can’t even fake it anymore. My one friend came over for my birthday and I just shut down mid-afternoon. I don’t have anything left to say to anyone, or anything to contribute. I’m not a very good person, at heart, so I don’t give anything. back to anyone, just take, take, take. I tried to say I am really depressed, but I’ve had cyclical […]
I feel so paranoid lately. I dont know why. I feel like something bad is going to happen. The other day i was freakign out because i thought i was on a boat and we were all going to drown. then the day of the colorado shooting i went to the movies and i was so scared and paranoid that the theater was going to fill up with water and that we would all drown. I was so nervouse the whole movie. I dont know how i didnt run out of the theater and outside and start hyperventilating. I am so paranoid lately. I feel […]
I am writing again here since some weeks off, it seems so far away those thoughts I used to have as I read them again. There are so many things I can´t comprehend about the world and myself, but one thing I do know for sure is that those thoughts, even though they seem distant, they are so much closer, they are in my mind to stay for the rest of my life, it doesn’t matter what happens.
As far as I know those thoughts are the real me.
wells, idk what to call today, good or bad? its a cross. yeah but more lows then highs unfortunately. i have a weird feeling to cut, i cant, gotta be strong. its been 3 weeks why break? idk i thought i was doing so well. i was wrong. i fake it too well. now here i am falling apart. im becoming me. and its showing. my wall is tearing down. im becoming uncovered. idk what i want, god im crazy. im so messed up. im losin it. ugh why? me? ugh. sad? lonely? happy? together? mad? slow? fast? nice? a *****? idk what i am. […]
i used to hang on his every word …. he was there for me when i need someone to talk to..when i just needed to have fun and forget get out and leave reality behind even if it wasnt forever … he called me his girl and i thought he was the onky who did want to hurt me….but he did and when i asked why he said “it wasnt the riight words but i didnt care to fix it” that shattered me and that night i fell apart i locked my bedroom door and cried myself to sleep trasing the fresh cuts..
i’ve had so many troubles throghout my life. loved ones dying, friendship brake ups, cheating, agressions, sexual harsments, lies, broken promises. yeah it may seem like they are little reasons but they sure were powerful enough to weaken me little by little. though i haven’t lost it all. i still have faith, hope, & love. even if i have hate, grudges, and disappointments as well. & even if i want to die, i still have hope to have desire to live. i have my lovely family that truthfully love me, few friends that love me and appriciate me. i have that idea to live for […]
ugh, why? i have noticed i can talk and become friends with anyone online two of my best friends i met on SP. no they live to far to hang out but still. if i could meet everyone from online i wouldnt have many social issues, online i seem to know a lot and say things i probably wouldnt say to their face probably just “ok sorry” or “yeah uh huh” i wish life was hidden behind a screen im finding a lot easier to talk and meet people this way. i hate meeting face-to-face. probably in fear of rejection.
anyone else like me?
People die all the time. Lot’s of beings (human, animal, plant) are dying now.
Yet if I choose to die now, others act as though it matters.
Some die when they are old and their body gives up, others die from a disease. Some die in accidents, others in murders. Some die even before they were born. Me, I’m going to die by my own hand.
I’ve tried to kill myself 6 times in the past and I just wont die. Always somebody ends up ‘saving’ me and Im soppose to be happy for that. I’ve been to psychiatric hospitals the same number of times and it doesnt help me at all. When I come out I want to die even more !
As far as everyone knows Im the crazy, suicidal guy. It is hard to understand that I hate my life and every second in my life is misery ?
Anyway… There’s ways I havent try ! Maybe next time I’ll try to hang myself !
soive been tryin to die and i think i did it this time slipped on glass not a complete fail im layin in a boold pool
These past few days I’ve been talking to this young woman I will not say any names out of respect for her. But she’s had a really tough week, I texted her yesterday, I said “Hey, just checking in on you. I hope you haven’t ended your life. I hope your reading this.” I thought about her all day, she finally texted me back last night, she had taken the pills hours earlier. She said her liver was already shot, but I didn’t give up hope for her life to go on. I talked her into calling 911, I was so proud of her, and proud of myself for […]
Lonely and wanna help. I’m gonna be honest I can’t focus long enough to read long posts… SO if ANYONE wants to talk, email me. PLEASE… I’ve thrown my problems out at people enough and I’m going to listen to everyone else’s now. I wanna see how much I can handle, gonna be dead soon anyways. Here to listen… as long as I *am* here…