Like, when is it my time to be that girl who was once the ugly duckling and turned into the beautiful swan? Because right now, im still the ugly duckling. It feels like no matter how old i get, or how much i try to change my look. I will always look like shit! it’s crazy. And everytime i think i look good, No one else does. Like no matter what i do, im always be that ugly ass girl. you know? and it gets annoying. Im tired of it. Im tired of being “the ugly one” when it comes to me hanging with my […]
theres nothing worth writing , just taking my time , then oh well get over and done with , im soooooo tired ,i cant even type , oh well whatever … made up mu mind already . the onely way to go when everything you have worked extra hard for , for 30 years goes down the drain and you husband actually thinks you are worth nothing …sucks
i feel like i bother you so much.
I can’t do this anymore, I can’t, I’m lost I don’t know what to do. I can’t do it anymore.
When I was a little girl, I knew nothing of the word ‘ hate ‘ . I knew no sadness, I was so carefree, I did what I could to make others pleased. I was blind to what my brother was doing to me , blind to see that it wasn’t my fault. After I walked in on my first brother shooting him self in the head , my sweet careless brother
. I noticed my second brother had changed toward me , I noticed he was more hostile. He beat me every night , he kicked my ribs till’ I heard them crack. He […]
About 3 year ago I fell in love with a girl that I had known for a few years. We started to talk through texting, instant messaging etc, but we would never talk in person, ever, I mean I felt just guilty looking at her. We became “best friends” (sounds almost laughable now, considering we never said one word to eachother), but I always got so angry whenever we talked after a few months of this, and we argued pretty much every day (still through texting), which caused me to harm myself – most notably I have several long scars across my torso, a burn […]
How could they not get this? Why don’t they know how I am feeling? For 4 and 1/2 months I have been crying every night all alone in my bed while teenagers at my school slowly eat away my insides. I have cut myself. I have starved myself. All due to things that these kids say and do to me. But no one knows. My family thinks that I love school. That I have a lot of friends. I have no friends. I hate school. For the past month I have been making up excuses like that all of my friends are busy or whatever. […]
anyone going to where we can get the “medicine”? i will buy from you if not go with you
anyone going to buy the medicine? i will buy from you or go with you.
Yesterday I went up in dosage on my Zoloft, and the side effects started all over again. I didnt even have side effects the first time I took it. Ugh..My stomach is killing me and I seriously hate it. Fml =P Im starting to think this medicine isnt worth it
Once upon a time, I fell in love with you.
An action that with all my heart I wish I could undo.
Looking back I was a fool.
And you used me like a tool.
I thought that we truly had a connection,
Because you washed away all my imperfection.
You were charming, cute and charsmatic.
When you were near I could feel the static
Running through the both of us.
Looking back, I see no reason for all the fuss.
I really thought that you were special.
Delicate as a summer petal.
But now I see that I was wrong
And all you did was string me along.
I wish […]
The only silver lining was my BFF laura who was there for me and knew all of my sufferings and pain, she was who i confidended in when nan left. It felt like she’d stabbed me in the back from the front and left a wound so big and so deep that it still bleeds today. For 7 year we were everything to each other and in a matter of days she tossed me aside like an old rag. We went from being inseperable to seperable, we use to be able to tell each other everything and now we sit side by side and don’t say a […]
Even though everyone knows what mood I’m usually in,no one cares;no one does anything to cheer me up.I wish someone cared about me, The  biggest coward  ever
My life isn’t full of rainbow and fairies, instead it’s full of depression and pain. Ever since i started school from day 1 i was bullied, i was the punch line of every joke, and the last to be picked for sports. It got to the point where i’d walk around alone at lunch and watch everyone but me have fun. When i was 7 my parents decided to get a divorce. My parents went to court to fight for custody … of my sister and not for me, they didn’t care. My mum re-married to an abusive man who sexually and physically assulted me […]
I barely slept. Maybe 4 hours. I should have waited one more so I could have woken up wide awake. I met some wonderful people. Emilio, Jamielyn, Alanis, Tosha and Allison. They are all awesome.Â
I was texting them all night long. I’ll be fine though, the tests, work, and videos require little brains to do. I remember everything when not being forced to go to school.
My dad, brother and stepmom are in long beach by now at a giant stadium, but instead f sports, it’s for their fuckng cult. Haha
We live in hell, earth is hell I’ve explained it well. In a past life I […]
Today i just fond out how verry crule someone you love can be when that love is no longer reiprocated.which is usualy the case.but this came from someone i never thought would say such things.i never thought a person could feel such a pain soooo bad that wasnt physical.actualy i dont think any physical pain could compair.i am sure i will die soon because i cant take this pain.i guess im a big *****.im not being a man.but i am crushed and not even my 4year old son can keep me hear any longer.words cant explain the anguish i feel inside.i know we all have […]
i have not felt like myself for a long time and at this point i have lost all the life in me. i pretend to be happy and carefree like he person i was, but i don;t think i can ever get that person back. i don’t know what happened to me. i don’t even know whats going on. none of my friends would ever understand and to be honest i guess im just blaming the minor flaws in my life for something else. i know theres some bigger problem going on, but how willl i ever know what that is. right when i have […]
Be yourself they say . No one will judge you they say . Bullying & suicide only exists in movies , it’s not real they say . Well they were wrong . Things that all of us as kids never thought were impossible to do are now becoming possible . Suicide. Rape . Bullying. Emotional. Physical . Relationships. Abuse. These are all things we have to face and deal with on a daily bases . Things that I have to deal with on a daily bases .
My name will remain unknown as well as all my personal information , but at least once a […]
i’m depressed from a break up .
i’ve listened to every piece of advice i ever got in to acting like i don’t care… acting like i’m moving on
but seriously? i’m literally ..torn. My heart has been stomped all over ripped out of my chest.
I honestly feel like such a piece of shit , how could i let someone do this to me?
Everyone says .. it’s going to go away give it time.
Maybe it will go away .. but i lost myself when i lost my love.
I’m fading. I’m turning into NOTHING.
my self esteem is missing , my confidence is gone.
I have no hope , my […]
What did i do?
I was friendly and being myself for you and in the end you hurt me, made me so angry that i am crying.Your a friend arent you suppose to support me ? Not tear me down to ruins or make me question our friendship. What did i do to deserve this pain. Havent i been through enough you know my story but stills you hurt me…..oh sigh i trusted you i told you everything and you are just like the rest i thought you were different….my mistake.
Why did i trust you? :'(