My chest feels like it is about to fucking explode. I feel like I am about to completely break down. Oh God, all I want is for this to stop! I am so tired of this FUCKING CYCLE: I just want this to stop…. why does being alone have to hurt so much.
I want to cut. No. I need to cut. It has been 84 days since that blade tasted skin. Who was I to think that I could ever overcome depression, huh? Who was I to think that I could ever stop cutting permanently, hmm? Let’s face it the blade has always been there for me. It’s my only friend….how pathetic
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This is exactly how I feel. Holy fuck.
Im sorta curious about cutting, what do you use to cut and where on your body do you cut
Well I usually use a utility knife blade, they are really sharp and easy to handle. But I’ve used anything from a knife to the metal part of a pencil or a staple…. usually cut on my wrists or upper arms.
Don’t give in to temptation. The blade could very well be a friend to you but in reality a true friend doesn’t inflict pain. If you set your mind to stopping and I mean truly stopping than you can do it. The mind is an amazing tool and when you set your mind to something and stick to it, it really does work. Bad habits die hard but after 84 days, keep that bad habit dead. You’ve come this far, you’ve already done what you probably never thought you could do. You can do amazing things once you realize that you don’t need to cut. Don’t give in, you can do it. Believe in yourself!
I don’t know how else to put it, thank you SkyRider
Why do you swear I pretty much am on my last legs near committing to bankruptcy but no money to set it up access problems feeling alone living alone no work no prospects no idea how I am going to turn it around can’t face ringing creditors up just stuck in self pity but somehow I can’t commit the final act (on esa 71 pounds a week still running around if nothing the matter in my car !).reality is knocking but I can’t face any of it. Easy option but family values hold me back