nothing. nothing is ever good enough. im never good enough, my bf totally hurt me but im too stupid to get out of the relationship, nothing can make me happy, nothing. im useless and worthless, i cant win any battle so might as well give up maybe at least that can be good enough?
Hello like most of you I was also as well seriously close to committing suicide as I suffer from severe depression and being very lonely. One day I decided to take LSD. I do not know how or why it subdued my pain after taking it but it is extremely effective. I since take LSD every 2-2.5 months per dose and it significantly subdues my pain until the next cycle. To anyone who is close to committing suicide I recommend you give at least this a try if you have tried all the anti-anxiety meds and other various methods but it did not work. If […]
Hi I am Brittany, 23 year old female. I live in the great state of Arizona!
(isn’t it funny that even in the worst state of agony I have ever felt, I still try to put on a happy front.)
Well I could put my whole life story here, BUT thats alot of typing. :p So Ill just try to sum it up and make this short and bitter.
I attempted my first suicide when I was 12 years old, I nearly died. I started taking meds at this time. I have been thru so many things its hard to name them all. I was abandoned by my […]
I’ve planned it all out, you’re my only last hope.
You help me to understand, and help me to cope.
But if this doesn’t work out, I’ll tie a noose with a rope,
And show the whole world, my life was a joke.
Suicide isn’t really an option at this point in time, so then how do you make it all stop hurting?
I’ve been thinking about it for a while now. Years actually. Not just faking death, but just disappearing, to never be found. It’s not really to flee from anything. I’ve done nothing wrong. I just want to start over, new identity, new places. Just vanish overnight and no one will know where I went. I know there is going to be a lot of preparation and planning involved. But I think this is going to be the best means of successfully restarting life.
I’ve contemplated actual suicide and just leaving everything and everyone. But I can’t do it. I’ve never had the strength to end my life. I know some […]
I honestly don’t want to. But sometimes, I feel like I have to. It’s as if there’s a little voice in my head, taunting me, telling me I’m not strong enough and that all my problems will go away if I just give up now. The only way I’ve gotten that little bastard to shut up and let me sleep, yes I’m an insomniac, I’ve found is to just agree with it. And I’ve been able to lie to myself that this is the only reason why I admit such defeat, but recently I’ve begun to believe it. I’ve been dealt amazing cards in life, […]
This quote made me think that maybe that’s what it is,maybe get depressed and break down because the pool over flows. It kinda makes sense doesn’t it? Maybe depression is that moment when everything gets flooded and it’s hard to fix all that damage after you survive and suicide,suicide is when you just finally drown in everything. What do you people think?
now the girl realises the boy’s deepest love fr her & she also starts missing him!!!
I have many problems and always have. I was diagnosed with Manic Depression, Depression, Anorexia, and ADHD. I’m constantly fighting  myself for one normal happy day, although it’s hard it comes around every once in a while. But lately I’ve just felt so lost. I’m not like others, I scream and cry and tell my parents I hate them and I want to kill myself and then 30 minutes later I beg their forgiveness and tell them I’m sorry and I need help. I rarely go to therapists anymore because I never continue to take my medicine and my mom gets fed up with spending time and money on me […]
the boy expressing his deepest love fr his girl who is least interested in him very sad song :((((
Sit and think
Get your head on straight
Watch the world go by from behind
And take all the time you need
Learn your lessons
Cry away your temporary pain
Understand whatever confusion brought you to this
Strange insanity
(What was it again?)
But I can’t even remember
All thoughts seem to shy away
Like it’s just searching for a nonexistent answer
To all the why’s that I never can seem to place
Sit and think
And then be done
I should, shouldn’t I?
But that’s just a long list of “what ifâ€s …
I’ve always been the last to be pleased. I’m the least favorite. I get picked on, yet people still think I’m strong. I have an older sister ( Bekah ) who I’m always compared to. She’s graduating early, already being the youngest in her class. She’ll be 16 when she graduates. She’s on marching band, plays piano fantasticly, Jesus lover, looking for a job, favorite of my dad, liked by everyone, over-achieving boyfriend, & always has a smile on her face. I LIVE in the shadow of her success. And then I have family issues. My dad is abusive, bipolar, rude, horrible. My mom is […]
I want to die. I am a burden to all those around me. I was just told that I ruined my mothers life. And I don’t want my own life. I feel worthless and even more worthless that I have never gotten even close to succeeding in killing myself. Don’t have the courage.
i went to my friens hoouse today… they dont have the best hous its all small  and everything is crouded with clothes and things on the floorr and drawing s on the wall my friend is doubling and i guess thy dont have that much money… you know what i find interesting about that familly? they dont have everything but when i see them, they always have this big smile … everyones happy… Why am i not happy then?  why cant i be fucking happy?!
today, i came back from my friends house, wearing a tank top and short shorts that my friend gave me… my […]
its decided ive picked a date and theres ni turning back now im relived that it will soon be over since theres no use staying alive now im finally at peace
I just don’t understand why I’m like this, see i’ve been on this page for a while, i’ve read peoples stories. I just don’t understand why i’m like this, i let everything just pile up inside of me and it sucks, Â I don’t want to die but sometimes its just the only choice, I haven’t really honestly tried yet, but I honestly feel like I could someday if something bad enough were to happen it could go down, I don’t want other people to see me differently, but I am different. I’m socially awkward, I think negative of everything I do. everytime I lose a […]
My roomate the second time in the hospital. Her real name was Emma, but if she is reading this, i thought that would be a good way to get back in contact with her again. She was an alcoholic. I feel like I need to talk to her, I keep getting little reminders every time i see certain things. Â a post that said alcoholic. I need to talk to her. See a journal. The same one that she had in the hospital from when she was 13. We would read it every day, till they took it away… I saw the exact same one a […]
We broke up a a while ago. Why? He thinks it’s because I liked someone else. It’s not. But thats what my ex “best friend”, Sara, told him. fucking liar. He says she told him that she hates me. Oh well, she wasn’t a great friend anyways. But it hurts that he believes her. He was my best friend. He posted on here about this. But. the truth is, I broke up with him because I loved him, and I couldn’t deal with the distance, we were dating for months, yet saw each other TWICE. That and I was going to take him back until […]
I’m sixteen and i’m an alcoholic already at my age. My town isn’t exactly big on morals so getting a hold of it isn’t a problem
But… I think alcohol saved my life.
If i wasn’t drunk every evening, I believe I would not be here today. I firmly believe I would have killed myself long ago.
I am so disillusioned with the world and the only time I don’t care about who or what i hate and why or how much I hate it is when i feel so inebriated.
I guess i’m just wondering how healthy this is mentally? It’s obvious it isn’t good for my […]