I don’t know from where to start,so I’ll tell you about my whole life with a few sentences.My name is Lyubo(16 years old boy)and I used to be a very happy person.I was waking up with a smile,and was going to bed the same way.I have had allot of friends and all of them loved me for who I am and everything was perfect:friends,games,doing sports,girlfriends, laughing all day long…When I entered high school I met some new people who were different in a cool way.First everything was going normal,but one day I saw one of them training with my soccer team,so I went there and […]
I am tired of stupid useless attempts. To many over to many years. I am recovering from a back injury and was given Hydrocodone-Acetaminophen 7.5 – 750 (quantity: 30). Also I an taking lunesta as a sleep aid. Can I use a combo of these two to overdose and die? And if so, please tell me how much? I am so tired…….Please !!!!
Sometimes you try so hard to save yourself but really all you need is a pat on the back. When the time comes that I don’t even have that I really ask what I ever meant to so many people. The stereotype of what it is to be depressed is something that I try to steer away from all the time, but unfortunately I can’t escape it. I’m writing this because I need someone to see it even if no one ever said anything to me about it, even if it somehow didn’t get posted while I thought it did. I’m 18 years old and […]
you feel bad in the pit of your stomach when you think that you might hate your family…
it makes you feel like a bad person.
but really, why should you feel bad?
anyone who makes you feel horrible almost everyday, dismisses you unless they notice you for a negative, for being in the wrong; people like that don’t deserve your respect or love. weather they be related to you or not, it shouldn’t matter. a person who is painful to be around, who makes you want to bang your head against a wall again and again and again… isn’t a person you need in your […]
I love my life.
The thought has crossed my mind way more than once. Its sad how I have no one to talk to about this. Even my own family. They would judge me. I have gotten close to killing my self but in the end I don’t have enough strength to pull through. And I am not sure if that is a sign or just me being scared. I feel alone, unwanted, forgotten. I was a mistake. Sometimes I wish I wasn’t born. My life is a living hell. With school and family I don’t know how to pull through. My family is falling apart […]
I think it’s really nice how some people on this site just wish others good luck, for there suicide to be quick and peaceful rather than trying to convince them otherwise and probably just make them feel more pathetic. It’s also very cute reading through the comments and seeing that someone out there has made a difference to somebody and helped them through. It’s also great to see people finding others out there who feel exactly the same as they do and others offering there contact details so they can talk things through. 🙂
On another subject I wonder how young some people are when […]
i was a very happy guy i used to live ma life without any depression though i was not having any girl friend nor i do have now bt then to i was satisfied with ma life i also completed my MBA this year i am quite a good looking guy & was expecting a good looking & sexy girlfriend in future but besides that i was having a little gap in my front teeth so i decided to remove those gap by doing composite bonding but that fucking female dentist did not tell me its disadvantages of composites nor she even told me that […]
I feel useless, I can’t make a difference in my life… everything about my life is painful there is nothing positive to me anymore. As much as I preach to myself all the good things I can do and become…I can’t wait that long. I’m tired of waiting for something good or to be fixed. The only thing stopping me is how ? how do I end it all and rest permanently without a thousands things in my head, walking around with a fake smile but in my head it’s all sadness and loneliness…. I can’t take anything anymore and I’m tired of hearing it’ll […]
i was away for a very long time. so messed up right now. cant deal with this life anymore. i want to end everything tonight but i don’t have the strength to take my life aswell. i just wish i don’t wake up tomorrow.
I’m really confused this month, I feel like shit. I haven’t felt this sort of way in a while, usually I’d just shrug it off as me being a little ***** (and maybe it is), but it feels different this time.
About a year and a half ago I fell in love with this girl who I sort of dated for about a week, and by that I mean we live a city apart so we didn’t hang out physically very often, it was mostly over Skype and Facebook. But I really really liked her, she meant the world to me. Up until then I hadn’t […]
i lost my best friend. Im losing more and more, i dont what happened, i dOnt how it happened but i just got in to a fight with another close friend. Its things like what she said to me tha makes me turn around and cut or burn. She knows how i think and how i view myself. I hate how i live and i want out. Im sick of the harrassment at school that gos on behind my back, im sick of crying every night know that my day isnt gonna be good. I make myself sick apmost every night! Im sick of evedything […]
I miss you so much, you have no idea how much I need you, I think about you all the time… I want you to be here with me, I want to hear you laughing again.
Te amo
My sad and sweet soulmate <3
We all make choices
Some are easier than others
Like what to wear and what to eat
Others are harder
Like how to schedule our day and who to meet
But it seems like my choices are harder still
Something abnormal from all the rest
While my friends are deciding which movie is the best
I’m deciding if myself I’m going to kill
I feel so jealous of all those other kids
They seem to have all their shit together
While I sit here in the corner
Trying to keep my wrists together
While the rest smile I wear a frown
While some look up to the […]
This is my first non poem post in a long time. If you haven’t seen them, please look them up and tell me what you think. Anyway, on to the post.
I did it. I managed to get myself discharged from all psychiatric treatment. No more therapists, no more psychologists, no more meds or anything. It’s bittersweet. I knew they weren’t helping, but I don’t know what else to do. Everything they did wasnt working, so im back to my own methods of coping. So what if they’re unhealthy? They work. One joint makes me feel better for longer than a weeks worth of SSRIs. […]
Of myself mostly, all I can ever do is fuck up. I say ‘some day I’ll fix it, i’ll improve my life’ and it never happens. It probably won’t happen. I’m going to be broke, sad, and lonely. All because of me. I wish I was never born.
My best friend is moving to a different state in 13 days. It makes me so happy to see her in school, and next year she won’t be here to make me happy. I have other friends, but she is the most special of them all. She has the same personality as me, and we get everything the other says/does. Everyone else thinks we’re crazy and weird, but we understand each other. Next year, I will have no one to hug when I’m having a bad day, I won’t be able to walk down the hallway holding her hand (we are really affectionate xD) And […]
nobody does about me, they dont show it. no one would even notice my non existance.
starting to think about it that thought makes me sick. too bad its true:/
I hate it when you like someone so much, but their in love with someone that repeatedly hurts them but their to loyal just like you. you just want to be like dump her ass and date me goddammit. why can’t people sees what they have when its right in front of them. I hate feeling they make me feel weak.
I’ve hit rock bottom. Depression has been biting me my whole life, and I let it influence me so much, my grades dropped so much I’m getting kicked out of school. Don’t know if I would cry or laugh about it, cause I’m so pathetic.
Anyways, anyone feel they relate? If only this decision to end this bullshit won’t affect my mom, dad, and sister, I would be easily and freely slipping into non existence right now.
I just don’t know what to say anymore, or what to think. I can’t get off from my head all the thoughts, the flashes keep coming as if there’s nothing more. Why, i tell myself, but no answer is found. And now I’m not sure if I want one. but it’s the guilt inside my head, and my hole body.
Is just another day, another hour, minute, and breath, but I can’t breathe anymore; the air is not getting inside of me. As I close my eyes every memorie is haunting me, I want to forget. I want to be able to look at me […]