The Syndrome of the age

I don’t know from where to start,so I’ll tell you about my whole life with a few sentences.My name is Lyubo(16 years old boy)and I used to be a very happy person.I was waking up with a smile,and was going to bed the same way.I have had allot of friends and all of them loved me for who I am and everything was perfect:friends,games,doing sports,girlfriends, laughing all  day long…When I entered high school I met some new people who were different in a cool way.First everything was going normal,but one day I saw one of them training with my soccer team,so I went there and said “hello”. After this day he made everything possible to become friends and in the end he succeded.Michael(that”s his name)become my best friend and changed me entirely.I wasn’t laughing,but I was making such a good jokes that everybody else was.All the girls liked me,all the boys wanted to be my friends.I didn’t forget my old fellows,but I wasn’t the same.One day before 2 years,while I was sitting I felt something horrible inside me.Feeling that I’ll never forget.I became nervous and started to think what must I say,so the others can like me.With the waking up in the morning I was starting to think what must I do,so someone can like me,I knew what it was like to be perfect and after that feeling I thought that I was just a stupid and boring guy.I had forgotten who I was and I had no idea who I am.First I lost my self-confidence than my fake friends and in the end my real friends.I was alone.After a year of sadness I decided to do something.This took me 4-5 months  of thinking and in the end  I finally realized who I am.When I thought everything was over,the depression started again.Now when I know who I am,I also know what I really have and that’s nothing.I am writing this because there is still a little part of my body which wants to fight.I hope that there is someone else like me,who needs help or just someone to talk with.     Thanks for your attention,it means allot!