I love my life.
The thought has crossed my mind way more than once. Its sad how I have no one to talk to about this. Even my own family. They would judge me. I have gotten close to killing my self but in the end I don’t have enough strength to pull through. And I am not sure if that is a sign or just me being scared. I feel alone, unwanted, forgotten. I was a mistake. Sometimes I wish I wasn’t born. My life is a living hell. With school and family I don’t know how to pull through. My family is falling apart by the second. And it seems like anything I do is just making it worse.
You wouldn’t think this of me. I was the straight A student, star athlete, and loved making people laugh. I put every one  before me, and when my world came crashing down I had no one. Abandoned. I just wish someone would be there to know what I am going through. The thought of suicide still crosses my mind but so does the consequence of me being dead forever and not knowing what my future may hold……. Life is to much to handle!
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When I think about suiside I also remind myself of the cold dark reality…what use are we cold and dead in the ground we have to fight it and try and make the most of the smallest windows of happiness.i myself am struggling at the moment but it all isn’t bad I can still see a bit of joy in the world it’s a struggle to find but if you look hard they are there.my dogs keep me grounded I love them sooo much who would look after them if I didn’t?they give me love and lick my years off my face.all we need is love start small my friend