This is my result of the depression test

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Why is it that when anything bad happens to me the first thought that comes to my head is killing myself. No matter what I do I feel useless and in the way. Or that I’m putting some weight on someone to help me. I just want to close the door to that past, but everytime I try to do that I end up cutting off from everyone in my life. I don’t know if I do it so if I break down they don’t see what I’m going through and try to help me. Which in turn would cause me to open that door […]

I don’t know what’s wrong with me.  I’m a 15 year old boy, a straight A student who just finished freshman year at a relatively good school.  I am a decent track and cross country athlete, and my family loves me very much.  Yet, I still constantly feel alone and useless.

I don’t quite understand people.  I see people I know having fun, hanging out, and I don’t know, I can’t seem to find myself normal friends.  There are plenty of people I talk to (about once a week each, about serious shit usually).  I don’t know how “suicide attempt” is defined on this site, but […]

I’m the problem and I am fucking permanent unless i kill myself!

Do you ever watch shows where the police try to solve murders, but instead of wanting to be the police you imagine yourself as the murder victim

Welp, I “finally” start working on Monday, which is quite frankly an unmitigated disaster. Not only I’ll be alone and hopeless as usual but robbed of about 80 % of my time for the sake of stupefying grinding slavery.

Because life always does get better doesn’t it? Can’t even do anything “drastic” for a quite while, honor bound to certain parameters and whatnot. So the trap is truly and well closed.

Let’s have a toast to a life of ever increasing resignation and small everyday horrors.

Dear office dweller,
Perhaps you like your job? Or even love it?
Perhaps you don’t mind doing it for forty or fifty […]

I honestly haven’t post on this website in months. o 3o Hi old and new people and if any case i am still suicidal and it has increase to the point where i have thoughts about me hanging myself. Sounds amazing right. c:

I, am a suicide survivor. I know not everyone will believe my story, like I know, but I do ask you to listen to me. I was there.

On a late winter night (seven years ago) I found myself homeless. After SEVERAL suicide “attempts’ (not too too serious ones) I made up my mind, that this was it.  I was Agnostic/Atheist. I wasn’t sure what I believed, yet. I later that night found myself living with a group of drug addicts, not very pleasant. So, I took my razor from my wallet and sliced into my arm, repeatedly. I ate only handfuls of aspirin, and one […]

So many times i’ve felt like giving up on life, im only 14 and already i guess i’ve been through alot more then any other 14 year old.I was a victim of severe bullying and having that happen straight after i was cheated on was to much for me.  Its the fact that anything sharp was the first thing i’d turn to scares me, i’ve atempted suicide twice now but everytime i try i just stop, i can’t do it knowing now that i actually have friends that care about me also my parents. What would they think? I have scars all up my arm and some […]

yeah thanks mom and dad for screwing my dream of being a model. yeah i knew it was unlikely anyway but u criticize me for taking pictures of myself thinking im doing all of it for attention FUCK NO! yes i know i may be beautiful but im no size 4 u still have no right to flat out say “honey, your just not skinny enough they will destroy u put u on a diet to lose weight i dont want u to become obsessed with size look at me dear im fat and can careless u should do the same” u have gotta […]

I am over 50 years old. I’ve thought about suicide since I was 13. I have made attempts to end my life more than a couple times. The thoughts, planning, and so on have been so much a part of my mentality, I believe it has become a bad habit, habitual though process. The last stint of actively engaging in therapy my goal was to get new thoughts. I’ve tried. Truly I have tried to get along in the land of the living. When I make an attempt to interact / communicate with my loved ones, I continue to fall short – and immediately go […]

I am not the only one. There are others, multiple hordes, some of whom are people I know, people I even see regularly. Though I am slowly emerging into admitting my illness, they must do so too. Until this happens we are all alone here and we are dead.

There are no similes and there are no metaphors; everything can only be explained and delineated in exact terms. There are continual pressures applied from other people, wherever I turn. I try to escape, yet someone inevitably & invariably lurks around the next mental vista. There is truly nowhere to go when the thoughts inside your head […]