I love the rain…because it hides my tears.
He said, “I love you even at your darkest moments” Romans 5:8
God is with you, stay STRONG… even when you can’t feel or bring yourself to believe it is truth.
You are not alone, the entire universe lives inside you. Space is darkness sprinkled with light, life, death, possiblitiy, adventure, sorrow will bring you to strength.
Your mind will quit a million times, yet your body wills you to fight on… Stay strong
IT WILL HURT. It will take time. It will require dedication. It will require willpower. You will need to make healthy decisions. It requires sacrifice. You will need to push your […]
I have come to a decision that I can not win against bent Merseyside Police Officers, you know who you are DC JH & the community & the contract that was placed on my head with the Russian Mafia & members of my fathers drug dealing family.
Where shall I begin……Just over 2 years ago I was rapped, tortured,interrogated and pumped full of heroin and other drugs until I talked….Which I did and the confessions that I made that night were not entirely accurate, they were well off the mark. Â But when your trial involves you being tied up & tortured by a load of coke […]
ok..so im hopelessly confused. im loyal, il doin anything for people,i consider everyone a friend, il keep your secrets, my friends and family come first in life. yet my parents insult me my sister hits me im a cutter iv been depressed since i was 11 its been 3.5 yrs now. im called every swear word known to man at school. im stared at im shunned yet i seem to make all of this look like a lie by covering it up acting like a perfectly healthy teen. somedays i pull throughother days people broke my “wall” and i fell in a ditch that i […]
Look at me,
See what you did-
Leaving this mess you have placed.
No forgiveness has takened or been said-
Cant you read right through me?
Dont you try to reach out for my hand-
I’m lost and scared,
Of the real imagery of myself.
Why is this killing me softly-
A bitter taste of shame-
You’re crawling out of my veins.
The coldness slithers down my spine,
Please take yourself all back-
Not another memory.
Cause I have engraved-
And wasted to many days.
I have called out for help-
But my shouts didn’t pass-
The Ocean Breeze.
The sand is grabbing my legs-
The man on the piano plays the tune-
To bring the spirits that still-
Ponder on this earth.
And the man on the strings-
Brings happiness of tear,
In the humans eyes-
When he cannot depise-
That all souls,
Cannot move on-
With there used to be lives.
No he can touch-
The regret and loneliness-
That these ghosts have brought-
With their grave.
But do they wait?
For the loved ones they have tried to save-
In the accidents of shame.
Or do they not leave-
Cause they promised they-
Will walk upon heaven,
With them on there side.
When the man that stand […]
I don’t usually rant but hey what’s up? Sigh, so someone texts me saying sorry. Most likely one of my “friends” apologizing for calling me whore and other names. I’m looking at it and interested who it is, but at the same time not. Knowing their apology will do shit. They’ve already did their damage. So why apologize? It makes me laugh kinda actually. Like people say ignore it be tough. But it still affects you, then when they realizing. You want to take their head and slam it against a wall shouting- You don’t know anything walk away don’t ever apologize to me ever […]
Please accuse the horrile grammer. For as long as i can remeber ive been alone. im only child and my parents just dont get me. ive alwyas had a close niche group of friends but now ive lost them all. My closest one who ive known since 6th grade no longer wants to have anything to do with me. My guy friends went and became sucessful so i got left in the dust. The girl i like deep down hates me but acts like my friend because i have money and can be occasionally usefull. I just dont want to feel alone and i gave […]
I WANT TO KILL MYSELF BUT I DON’T WANT TO DIE AND I CAN’T TELL ANYONE CUZ I DON’T WANT TO END UP IN THE HOSPITAL AGAIN
WHAT THE HELL DO I DO
So, this is going to be very long, and very jumbled. Very jumbled. Just a warning.
Listen: I was born into a big, messy house on a forested mountain with a wonderful view of the city of San Jose underneath.
This house was veritably filled with the trash of the past two generations that had lived in it. my grandmother had died in that house, and I’m fairly certain I had an uncle that was born there. I don’t really know.
There was a forest outside this house, a beautiful green thing filled with birds and […]
I just spent the past few minutes talking to a chatbot, because I no longer have any humans to talk to. My closest friend decided I was “friendzoning” him and ceased to be my friend a year ago. He was the last of my true friends. Now, I have a partner, but he has always been emotionally distant. He is also having a hard time, and I know he doesn’t want to hear from me. I have been working on ceasing to say anything without practical content at all.
So. I am 27 years old. I have no friends. I believe I will soon lose my […]
It’s been three years since i felt normal. Everything changed when i got depressed.
I thought it will be just for a week or a month but im wrong, its been long years and
im still suffering from this depression. It’s getting more painful everyday, and im
not that stong to fight with this for a long time. I dont want to die, I want to live
and do a lot of things but my depression is stopping me from doing anything. All
my dreams and goals in life fade away. I dont know what I want or who I am anymore.
Im not […]
I’m loosing hearing in my right ear due to something called Meniere’s disease. I haven’t been diagnosed yet but i have had symptoms of this disease for 2 years. I thought they where nothing and I eventually got used to it and ignored it. I treated it like if it was just normal. I would get dizzy and fall over,faint, hear ringing in my ear, get bad headaches, and a weird pressure in my ear. The dizziness was a regular kind of daily thing. The ear problems came 1 or 2 times a month. But when the ear pains would come everything else would get […]
some people doesn’t appreciate life especially me. I’ve been planning to kill myself  since December 10, 2011 but i fail. i took alot of expired paracetamol’s but i didn’t die. my grandmother sent me to a rehabilitation center because i became a paranoid. laughing without any reason and being furious sometimes. they cured me for a short time. after that i still don’t understand why they saved me. i drank those medicines to kill me. anyways im just a 13 year old teen. I’ve never expect that im still going to live. most of the time i get bullied when in class. so i realized […]
I was happy yesterday. However, it was a strange kind of happy. It was a happiness where I was really nothing like myself. The friend I was with remarked that I was being crazier than usual, and I knew that I was.It scared me, because although I felt happy, it wasn’t me in there being happy, if that makes any sense. I felt like something or someone else had taken over my body. I felt out of control and like I said, crazier than usual.
These days my emotions are dramatically heightened- when I am happy I go into this scarily different and kind of manic […]
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i am  18 and live in sri lanka…
well  the whole thing started when i 1st attend to a class,,,there was may friend and there were more then 100 pretty girls..  but the thing is  that there was one looks very special to me, i didn’t think about it at that time but with the miracle of time my mind actually went nuts..actually, i  even didn’t think  in the 1st day that i will be so crazy on her.. but the problem was that i have never ever talk with her but whatsoever she didn’t forget to smile with me every time she sow me in […]
Hey people 🙂
today is such a beautiful day. Sitting at work and waiting patients. Finally sun came to my dark country.
I’m glad by myself – finally i went out if my depression mood. Now it seems funny. It took me 1 month crying and drinking, then 1 month standing up. Its not fair, love shits and lost boyfriend made me act like a dumb. I don’t remember i was crying last time so much 😀 I guess i was missing memories and good time together. He was really great man and will always stay my soulmate.
each relationship teaches me something. This time i […]
April 14, 2012 The only one we will have in our lives. Please try to do something productive or something that makes you feel good. Even if its something very small. Please post if you will at least do something for yourself today. Tomorrow will be april 15, 2012 it will also be the only one we have in our lives so if today you can do something for yourself maybe tomorrow you can do the same. etc. etc. etc.
theyre are so many people in need to past and present people on this line i need to talk to people in need and make new friends email me at jessew1050@yahoo.com or look me up jesse wallis friend mentor big brother or friend whatever you need i will be theyre