Why live a life where people mock you?
All,their,ridicules and rudeness drives,me insane
A person can only stand so much
They say its just a phase
Trust me its not
They say time will heal allthings but
It really doesnt……
im having a hard time keeping together one part of me wants to jump off a bridge another part of me wants to slit my wrist or starve and dehydrate myself. To bad you cant do all three. Im in a lot of pain and i dont know why just know something inside of me hurts real bad. My life is good but this feeling is not good. I just got out of the er i actually went twice one the first day then the next. They threatened to kick me out of the er the second time if i kept acting up so i […]
I wish you’d stop acting like this. I wish you’d stop breaking my heart and making me feel like the last thing left in this world I had to hold on to is slipping away. I wish that there was some way for me to get through to you, to make you see that you’re breaking my heart and destroying my spirit.
But you know, even if there were ways to accomplish these things… you still wouldn’t listen. You pick up things about me that even I miss, yet the most obvious emotions and damages you’re causing to me you rationalize away […]
I’m so tired of life. My dad is abusive he treats me like shit. No one is there for me not even my family…they think.its wrong for me to also be bisexual. I lost everything no friends.. they taunt me saying its wrong and its sinning I cry every night. Is it wrong? Shouldnt it just be people loving another regardless of gender. I failed a grade my parents call me stupid. I have no friends or anyone to turn to. I’ve been beaten and yelled at. I want to end life now. No one ever cared… I just need help. My plea is stupid. […]
Laying in the pure darkness
Paralyzed with pain
Screaming yet unable to breath
No one waits for you
No one wants for you
Enduring the days
With measured tolerance
Blocking out the pain
But the night comes
And there is no end in sight
Watching others’ joy in one another
No one thinks of you
No one cares for you
The bitter loneliness
Cuts deeper than any machete you inflict upon yourself
Not understanding how you are worth so little
The ones you love
Don’t even see you
When you hand them your heart on a silver platter
Not caring, they crush it underfoot
No one stops for you
No one knows […]
yes im gay or as you like to say fag.. queer… fuity… lesbo… sick…. twisted… freak…… it’s who I am! im sick of everyone tellking jokes bashing me behind my back! im sick off crying and hiding from you sick people! you have ruind my life I havent gone a week without crying and cutting because of the things you say. Iv even swiched schools to get away from it all but it still all follows me. I’m reddy to end it all i’m running out of options…. I’m just going to end it i have nothing to live for anymore the only person i […]
Everyone always assumes my life is so perfect. No one really know how it is, not even my best friend. Everyone always tells me how smart I am and how they like how cheerful I am and how perfect my life must be and how great my family is, its true I have a good family, not perfect at all, but good. Why would anyone want to kill them self when they have such a good life. What these people don’t see is that its not like that, I’m not smart, I’m not happy and cheerful, I’m not pleased with myself at all. Its all […]
This is the final video. All questions will be answered in this video. No more postings or videos will be made.
one_day – you were 98% right but the 2% should never be discounted as its a big part of the picture. The 2% you will never know.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X3bFpkZr1-Y
If you missed the last two videos then here they are:
suicideproject.org/2012/03/a-video-message-for-one_day/
suicideproject.org/2012/03/video-message-to-lucy4/
I see drawings, pictures, trinkets, clothes and I just want to get rid of them like that will make memories from before just disappear and stop haunting me. I wish it were true. I wish I had amnesia and would never remember who is was and still am.
I am Envious of the River
The River is free
I am trapped
The River knows it purpose
I am lost
The River is full of Life
I am Dead Inside
The River is eternal
I am Mortal
The River wants Nothing
I cant be satisfied
The River Feels Nothing
I feel only Pain
The River See’s Nothing
I see only sadness
I wonder if the River is envious of me
I wrote this back in my very dark days, I just i would share it, I am fighting my depression everyday and am happy again.
It can seem pretty bleak sometimes, But remember to win you have to fight.
So never Give up SP brothers and sisters
Im born
I play
I learn
I cry
Im grown up
I love
I dream
I hate
Im old
I regret
I remanis
I die
I am Human
im such a slut, i invited this random guy i met on craigslist to come over and have sex, then i will probrobly kill myself. I’ll deserve it
I’m speaking about suicide. When should I throw in the towel? Delusions of grandeur kept me alive all these years. I thought that life would turn around for me and make the past thirty years worth living. But I see it for what it is, a coping mechanism. It’s becoming increasingly apparent that some people get dealt a raw deal and life and that it’s just the way it is. There is no happy ending for everyone, no matter how *positive* you think.
At what point should I just give up? I feel like I have exhausted all avenues, and can barely get through each day. […]
this incident occurred about a week ago i actually thought about killing myself but lately i am actually thinking that i am glad i didn’t now people are starting to care about me since i started talking to my friend about some things that have been happening and i realize no matter the situation no one should kill themselves even if you have those thoughts sometimes i know i will probably always have those thoughts it is better to know that no matter who you are and no matter what the situation someone will always care about you they may say “i wish you would […]
Suicide has been very much on my mind for a long time. For as long as I remember, the thought of putting an end to my life would come up whenever I experienced pain, confusion, unhappiness. Pouf! Jump off the window and put an end to all that! That urge to jump into the air remains with me. I do consider other ways of killing myself from time to time, sleeping pills, hanging…hanging particularly appeals to me despite the gruesome sight of someone hanging from a rope. I don’t think I will act on those feelings. I have a child for whom I am responsible. […]
Today I found out that my Great Grandmother died of pneumonia last night in hospital. And I felt nothing. We were fairly close and I liked her far more than my Grandma. But when I heard she’d died… nothing. Nothing at all. I felt nothing for her death.
What makes me sad is the impact it has on the rest of my family. I nearly cry when I think about my Great Grandad having to hear his wife’s passed away and my Grandad hearing he’s lost his mother. It makes me really sad to see my mum so not herself. I can’t help but comfort my relentlessly […]
I don’t know about everyone else, but I love to sleep. It the best way to escape life, if only for a little while.
When I sleep, I have really vivid dreams. Some of them are horrible nightmares but others are good dreams.
The problem with dreaming is I wake up eventually. If I’ve had a nightmare, then I wake up panicky and scared, but I calm myself down eventually.
But if I’ve had a good dream, I wake up and realize that it was all a dream, that perfect reality was a dream. And life seems so unbearable. So disgusting. I realize just how empty I am. […]
Dear Whoever Is Reading This,
Hi, i’m Maya. I’m 13 years old now, & turning 14 in a couple months. I’m very short for my age (4’11), I have long black hair, I’m Japanese, I’m a dancer, & I believe that God made me beautiful. Seems great, right?
Lets start from the beginning of my life. From when i was first born to about age 8, i was the happiest kid you could ever meet. I was an angel child, too. I never cried when my family was trying to sleep, I was nice to everyone & everyone was the same toward me, teachers loved me, I […]
I made a mistake — the biggest of my life — and I hurt the love of my life. I hurt her more so than anyone has ever hurt her. It’s been over a year since I initially hurt her; over a year since I’ve seen her; over a year since our last departing hug. But, she won’t forgive me; she won’t see me; she won’t talk to me.
I tried to kill myself to get her attention when she was going through her own problems. I emotionally raped her.
The only thing I want in life is to have a life with her. But, […]
i am lost. i feel like i have no home. im 13 years old and i dont want to be here anymore. ive lived in north america all my life, and 6 months ago i moved here, to europe. since then, i feel like i havent made any friends, while my pretty and skinny and sporty sisters have. im never included, and i feel like i have no place in this world. my sister that ive always been able to talk to has tured away, because she has gotten a boyfriend. he drinks . alot and gets drunk very often. shes turned away from me, […]