So I haven’t really wrote in a while . A lot of things have happened since than. Me the boy is fightin . I wish my parents didn’t try to make me perfect I’m just me can’t you see. I ain’t perfect and I’m not trying to be so why should I walk around acting perfect that’s not me

What my parents what me to be(perfect):
A prep
Good grades
Good looking boyfriend
Well known
Liked by many
Finish school
Get a job
Have kids

What I am now(unprefect):
Hangs out with the drugies
Okay grades
My boyfriends is cute
Well known for being a whore
Everyone […]

My tears are gone,

I have spent so much time filling the ocean,

So that the seven seas,

Become eight.

Who can answer me better than me,

I don’t know how to shout,

So instead I love myself,

Because who else would do it?

I have this infatuation,

And it whispers salvation,

Because I can’t save myself unless I am saving others,

So when my job is done,

Saving becomes a distant plan,

My brain has had time to breathe,

But how did I know that it would be snuffed in the fumes of carbon monoxide and failure,

I am high on disappointment,

Have you ever felt like Peter Pan?

I once flew to Netherland,

And it was there where I learned the […]

So along the years I’ve been dealing with dysthymic depression, avoidant personality disorder and probably some type of anxiety. It’s been hard to overcome these things without meds or counseling but i’ve kind of done it…

Well I found out I was pregnant about two to three months ago, just as my relationship with my parents was starting to be okay again. Mu boyfriend who I’ve been dating on and off for three years broke up with me the same day I found out I was…but in the morning. I found out I was pregnant in the evening. He and I had been broken up for a couple […]

Hello all. I’ve finally found a place where I won’t be judged, ridiculed, harassed, or viewed as a freak. I’m 17 years old, my name is Zach. I come from an affluent family, I live in a nice house in suburbia. Any other details are unimportant, so I’ll leave them out. All of my life, I’ve gotten everything that I’ve ever wanted. Toys, games, gadgets, you name it I could have it. I’m sure that some of you resent me already, but you know that were all here for the same reason. I can’t stand to look at myself in the mirror anymore, the only […]

I texted one my of my “friends” this morning, even though I was mad at him because he can’t seem to ever find time for me.  He doesn’t respond to texts, never calls me even when he says he will, and those rare times he does manage to call me he can never seem to stay on the phone long, always something like “oh my friend is here” or “my ride is here.”  I was hoping that maybe he could somehow find time to call me today.  After I text him he tries to call me but since I’m in class I can’t answer it, […]

I told my friend, lydia about my ‘troubles’ earlier this year… and she showed me this poem. I thought it was amazing, so naturally I wanted to share it…. she will probably have a strong dislike towards me considering she told me  I was the only one to read it….
“Hands shaking violently I open my soul.
I let my spirit pour out onto the carpet
And watch as it takes form.
It’s me, A little piece of me.

Every night I stand in front of the mirror
And see what I am.
What I hate.
What I have to change.
So I carve away to […]

I talk to people everyday who say things like i must be strong, i musnt cry and i must not be scared or worried. They try so hard to fight there feelings it leaves them exausted and in an even worse position.

If you feel like crying, then cry. When there are no more tears you can move forward.

If you feel like Screaming, then scream. When your throat is sore or your lungs give out, you can reflect.

Those feelings that we get, thats our body and mind trying to heal its self, dont resist it, just let yourself feel.

Feeling is healing…

I hope everyone is doing ok. […]

hi
i’m 15 and feeling suicidal. i have felt like this for the last 2 years, things have being getting worse every day and this is wrecking my head. i’m so sad and i no there is teenagers and adults in the world that have much worse lives than i have. i hate going to school going anywhere in public, i’ve lost so many friends in school over this because i guess i’ve changed, i just want to die but the only thing is stopping me is my family especially my mum i don’t want to hurt her. Life is really not easy especially feeling […]

I dont really see another way out. Everythings fucked up in my head- Im constantly paranoid and whether im depressed or not that day, I usually will end up being by thinking and thinking. I dont see how medication will really help, its not going to stop the irrational shit going round in my head, and talking to someone is just going to make me seem crazy to whoever else is listening.
I’ve started cutting again too, I swore I wouldnt do it again, but everythings just getting on top of me, and It’s just carrying me closer to ending it all. I never used […]

At work….can’t stop crying between patients.  My wife left me about 7 months ago. I finally got to talk to her and she acted like a total stranger with me. There was apathy on her side. She hates me …even thought i didn’t do anything to her…cheating…hitting…nothing. She just stop loving me. I am taking med now..but they are helping just a little bit. I still want too take sleeping pill and never wake up. My wife wouldn’t give a shit anyway….i am death to her….why not be dead in real life then

right im 22, i live in england and this is my story.

i met the girl of my dreams and we fell in love and after 8 years she is leaving me

i just dont know what todo anymore i feel like my whole life has just been flushed away and im losing everything. iv gave so much up for her and now im having to start all over again. originally i lived in newcastle then i had to move to london with my parents and i had to start over again and there i made friends and stuff then a few years later i met this girl […]

I put my mask on when I go out, I put my mask on when I leave my room, when someone enters my room and when I have any form of human contact.

It’s when I’m alone when everything comes at once. The failures, the lack of prospects. The undeserved pain. When I’m alone I’m a different person.

Hello everyone,

My name is Chris and I am 21 years old. You most likely won’t read this. Like most of you, I’ve been entertaining thoughts of death to myself very highly lately. I’ll post my story in which most of you will probably call me ungrateful, selfish or something and I’ll take it. Honestly, I’ve had a pretty good life even as a kid but I knew there was always something wrong in my head or something. I remember at the age of 7, my window guard falling out and looking out that window and just thinking to myself as a little kid,” I should […]

I’d forgotten what it felt like – to be happy. I can’t even remember the last time I felt like this. Let me explain…

It was a normal day and I, as usual, was feeling my normal self ie. not so good. I was crying – pleading with the powers that be to help me – somehow. And that’s when I got the idea. I came up with a method that I think will work. I won’t go into details, obviously, but that’s when I felt happy. I found myself smiling – an actual genuine smile. Not a false one – not because it’s expected of me – but […]

When I sit and think about my life, there is only a few good memories and few times when I can remember being genuinely happy. I feel that I am just going through repetitive motions everyday. I am taking 5 classes and working 36 hours a week. I have a good job and make good money. I am always so busy trying to keep up with school and work but I rather it be that way than to have time for my mind to travel.

From other people’s perspective, I have it all. But it is a very different story from my point of view. I honestly don’t […]

remember me– I said
to myself, yesterday.
remember today’s happiness
to carry yourself through
the sorrows of tomorrow.
by this, you may keep yourself
alive.

so I tried.

but we are creatures of the moment.
we live for seconds
so we may live through days;
and days are all
we shall remember
when we look back upon
years.

My family can’t seem to grasp the fact that I have a problem. They all think that I am making myself sad and basically faking everything. For what? I have no idea. Maybe they think I’m trying to get attention or to be rebellious. I am, however, 100% clinically depressed and in no way “faking” this or making myself sad. If I liked being sad, why would I be constantly thinking about suicide? I would try to stay here as long as possible to wallow in my own self pity, but I want to leave as soon as possible. I went to see a therapist, and […]

For too long i have kept up this charade. Pretending to be happy when im not. Im probably like alot of people…for a long time, everything seemed to be going ok, and i had dreams and aspirations and a plan for my life.

But, somewhere along the way, i failed. And i dont have any resentments about it, i know most of the reason as to why i failed rests with me. Im not perfect, im sure if i worked harder, i couldve accomplished more, made something of myself. But, i didnt. I understand that, and thats not what really bothers me anyway.

For too long, my […]

Does anyone have any advice on how to get the inner strength to wear a t-shirt in public and let my self-harming scars show? They are all over my arm, on the inside and out. All up and down. They stick out so much. It’s obvious they are from cutting. I’m able to wear shorts and I have cuts on my leg but not as bad as my arm. I just don’t want to wear long sleeves when it’s 90 degrees outside anymore. But I don’t want people to stare. I know it’ll happen though. I just want to be normal…but I am not. And […]

I have a feeling I won’t live much longer and the pain of having to sit and watch the delusions and hallucinatins and the bad dreams all telling me that something bad is going to happen and that I’m going to die.. I can’t stand it anymore I just want to end it to stop the constant torture of the voices and just end it sooner then they expect..