Everythings so over whelming now that everyone knows my secrets i dont want to be here , i dont want to have to put up with the pain , My parents are disoppinted , My parents make me feel overwhelmed and scared and alone , i hate that i feel like this , i hate that i wanna be dead , I hate that im putting everyone through this shit ., i want to be dead
I was one of those people that were always like killing yourself is stupid. I realize now that was because I had it pretty close to I prefect life. But I worked hard to do that too. I had all As and great friend. And I was so pretty. In my freshman year of high my mom told me we were moving. I didn’t want too. But would any teenager want to move 1,000 miles away from their life, friends, everything. I throw I fit but I knew I was making it harder on myself so I told her I would be good and go. […]
After giving up on Helium because I cant get a replacement flow gauge that I need for my bag setup and my local supplier of ******** was out of the cylinder size that I needed, (I have a regulator and flow gauge for N2 but my tank is almost empty) I have had to put my plans on hold for a few more days until I can get an exchange cylinder of N2.
After doing some serious research on inhaled inert gasses, I can see why so many attempts fail. It is not nearly as simple as books and internet pages make it sound. It is […]
Sometimes i question why i’m still alive , theres days where i love my life , but then theres days i dont want to be alive , I have been abused ,. i’m a drug abuser , i smoke ans pop pills , trying to forget the pain of the moment , i know it wont make it any better , i got hospitalized monday for attepmted suicde , the hospital was the worst place for me , I didnt want to be there or ever be alive , but i was forced ., Help me ..
Why do I have to be depressed? Am I not aloud to enjoy life? Instead of being sad all the time, always wanting to cut when I can’t handle it, and thinking about killing myself. Maybe if I kill myself the pain will go away! Please I hate this!
I go to sleep every night hoping that whn I wake up I’ll be better. Or that I won’t wake up at all… I usually cry myself to sleep and wake up with puffy eyes….. Why did I have to get depression? Why does it even existe?
Make it go away…that’s all I want…. I want […]
Well i found this site like 6 months ago and found it really helpful cause i could see people going through the same thing as me. Am a 13 year old girl….who has a family who loves her a lot but am really depressed. I have been depressed for a year now and i cut myself. i cut myself because it makes me feel alive again. I have gone through the death of my grandpa moved 3 times in 2 years and have found out that my two siblings are adopted. And the biological mother of my sister is going to court against my parents. […]
Well, im still alive … i thought about it …. i can’t do it .. people depend on me and proud of my self .. i can’t do that to my mother .. she loves me soo much and she wont stop crying if i left. but i really cant help it but i said some things that i shouldnt have .. there is this girl in my school and she is just the biggest ***** … Taylor is her name … she has made my life a living hell .. she can’t ever leave me alone . she always  knows that she is bulling me […]
I lost the control that I’d maintained for so long…trauma…attempted suicide one day and the next…”saved” by my best friend…the loss of my best friend…I am collapsing into myself as I have destroyed my life and continue to destroy this moment and the next.
I look to people to talk with but all I see are names…all I can tell them is a story of self-pity.
I wish I didn’t tell me best friend I took 60 pills…
I wish I hadn’t told her anything…
I wish I had used a blade…
I wish I had the courage I did a year ago when I brought the handful of pills […]
i feel him crawling inside, crawling inside my mind and body
what is he trying to find, i feel so ugly
screaming inside no words leave my lips
no! no never! my body he grips
it doesn’t count if you don’t say it
im crying now, it hurts
i want to tell him “go eat shit”
but my mouth still speaks no words
he keeps trying to give me something,
but its something i dont want
he says that it dont mean a thing
and makes me taste my ****.
oh Jesus, God where is it now? wheres the blessed light?
im sure that i could maybe,so why dont i put up a fight?
so high, so drunk, so […]
This life style cannot continue, I cannot sit any longer and waste my time away. What is the point in being alive, if I am not living. I wish I could be with a real female, one that cares, one that isn’t completely twacked in her mind. I just want to experiance something real for once.
I cut again…. Its so hard to not to stop….. My leg hurt and my heart….
-Morgan……RawrIamTurtle
i know that i need to be back in the hospital but i just dont want to go but these thoughts that i am having are just not right .i just dont understand i just got out the hgospital and im still extremly suicidal.i cant keep going on like this it hurts so bad every since i got out the hospital all i can do is cry, cry because of my pain cry because i dont understand, and cry begging god to just end it all an i know these thoughts are highly dangerous and any day now i could act upon them.i just need […]
NO MORE BULLYING! I GAINED SELF CONFIDENCE AND THATS IT! IM NO LONGER UGLY OR A SLUT OR ANYTHING. IM MYSELF! THATS IS IT! MYSELF. I’m sick of crying everyday because of the insicure people. I am now MYSELF! I’m done with believing people who are rude. LOVE MYSELF. In my description of the pic i say im ugly. ITs cuz I’m confused.
P.S. I guess im not that prettty. What do you think.? 
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16 and on the verge of suicide, I’ve tried hanging myself before and that would of been the most exciting/scariest time of my life. I just wanted my life to be over, not only that it was scaring knowing I’d never be here again, but who wants to live life in constant misery. I just wish I could die, I feel like jumping in front of a train every time I sit and wait for the train every morning, I think one day I will actually do it, as I can no longer go on feeling the way I do. I’m done with everyone, and […]
I’m close to suicide…
I don’t want to talk to a national crisis therapist or counselor…
Last time I did that I was put on hold because my counselor received another caller… I felt a that point that my life didn’t have real value and I was almost worthless…
I don’t know what thrive I have left to live.
This is my last resort and I’m extremely certain no one is kind enough to help. This will just be conformation that I’m just about pathetic…
Hey I am 22 (just turned) male from UK. Basically I am stuck in life. I never leave the house because I have nowhere to go, I have no friends and nobody to talk to every single day, including weekends. I am currently looking for work and have never had a job yet (been looking 2 & 1/2 years). I am done with education as its neve rgot me anywhere and I can not receive funding to do what I even want to do.
I am stuck in life, I have no future and no friends, no girlfriend, no place of my own, no transport, […]
I’ve never posted here, but I’ve been a lurker for the past 3 or 4 months. I’m currently 18 and two months ago I was put into an intensive outpatient program for depression/anxiety. I was prescribed Wellbutrin and was discharged after 6 weeks. The week after I got discharged I began to have grim thoughts, thoughts that are so grim that I actually made a noose and hung it in my house and made a suicide notes. For 3 nights, I would go and put the noose on and decide whether I would jump off the table and kill myself or not. Obviously I chose […]
its so sad to see that there are so many people like me
I’m 34 and have been suffering from depression for at least 17 years and ADHD since I was a child. My mother didn’t like how I reacted to Ritalin as a child so the ADHD was left untreated until I was prescribed Adderall about 5 years ago. The difference in output and energy was night and day but the depression continued to lurk under the covers despite having tried many medications over the years (Effexor, Prozac, Paxil, Welbutrin, and finally Citilopram). I racked up enormous student loans over the years and other debts that I realize are attributed to Bipolar manic phases. A major life […]
I don’t know what to do anymore. My home life is terrible. Therapy isn’t helping. I’m never happy. I’m always alone. All of my friends leave when I need them the most. I don’t want to die. I just don’t want to be here anymore.