Hello Friends, here’s a positive story

I’ve never posted here, but I’ve been a lurker for the past 3 or 4 months. I’m currently 18 and two months ago I was put into an intensive outpatient program for depression/anxiety. I was prescribed Wellbutrin and was discharged after 6 weeks. The week after I got discharged I began to have grim thoughts, thoughts that are so grim that I actually made a noose and hung it in my house and made a suicide notes. For 3 nights, I would go and put the noose on and decide whether I would jump off the table and kill myself or not. Obviously I chose not to. 🙂 For the weeks to follow things began to slowly get better, my mind just began to clean itself.  As for the medication I was taking (Wellbutrin) it didn’t really help me break out of my depression, rather, it made me realize a few things about life. First and foremost, negative thoughts have the HUGEST impact on how you live, work, and think. I noticed when I would think negatively, all that followed was more negativity, and more. But when I thought positive, everything was nice and perfect. So I think the biggest thing I’m trying to say here is THINK POSITIVE, positive thoughts will ultimately make you happy, and make your perceive life in a different. Secondly, I have a very inspiring quote I found. I was walking around the mall with my brother and I went into an art store. In this art store, was a painting. On this painting read the words “Life begins at the end of your comfort zone”, I just blew it off and didn’t think about it until I was laying in bed, and I thought, what an absolutely true quote. After I read this quote, I began to do things that I normally would not do. Such as talking to people I normally wouldn’t talk to. Or even just general compliments to people. And to be honest, it all payed off. I now just met this wonderful girl in my school who likes me alot and I am extremely happy. So what I am trying to get at is, thinking positive and remembering to get out of my comfort led me to my happiness. Last night I burned my suicide note that I stashed away. It felt pretty good, like a closure to my sadness. I am at peace now (or so I think 🙂 ), and I just wanted to share my story to say to all these people on here, that yes, there is chance for change, and yes things can become better, just start thinking positive, that is all it takes! I hope you all liked my story and I hope that it can make anyone out there happy.