Am I becoming a failure to myself and everyone around me, do I disappoint my every friend and my family. I can’t even be a good boyfriend to any girl. Every thing is the same routine every day every year every time. I can’t express enough how much I want out of Virginia, or at least my hometown. I hate it here, my school is filled with judgmental assholes. I’m useless, so useless, all I want right now is to watch my blood drip an drip and drip and drip. Watch it all drain out forever and save me from this life of nothing.
Thank you for making this decision for me.
I’ll be dead by friday.
bye.
“Staring at the sea, will she come? Is there hope for me, after all is said and done? Anything at any price, all of this for you. All the spoils of a wasted life, all of this for you.”
“I’ll take my place, In The Great Below.”
“Ocean pulls me close, and whispers in my ear, The destiny I’ve chose is all becoming clear.”
-Trent Reznor
FUCK MY LIFE
“Don’t ever let life pass you by.”
Nice lyrics from Incubus. I’m not the type that always says shit like, “Stay strong, things will get better”, or completely stupid shit like, “Trust in God, he helps everything.”
All That is bullshit. Do whatever the fuck makes you happy/comfortable, whatever. That’s what I TRY to do, but my mother gets in the way of that alot. I don’t have a real good depressing story to tell you, I’ve already told my life story many times on this website. I’ve had at least 4 different accounts under 4 different names. I’ve told everything about myself on here. EVERYTHING. It […]
I have two places where I can go to escape my pain, or face it when I’ve become too naive. Wasteland is reality. Dreamland is my own little world that I made up. I’m in Wasteland right now, and it isn’t fun and it isn’t fulfilling in any way like I thought it would be. I used to be able to go to Dreamland whenever I wanted, but for some reason I can’t now. I want my mind to block out most of the hurt like it used to, but the pain’s coming on full force. I don’t want to live in Wasteland. I don’t […]
Thanks Jonathan Davis, for letting me know that I’m not alone, and that I wont suffer alone. Thanks Trent Reznor, for giving my pain a name and taking it away very slowly. Thanks Drake, for explaining why I feel this way. Thanks Lil Wayne for giving me the courage to rebel against those that hurt me. Thanks Trey Songz, for telling me exactly what I want and how to get it.
“Please, take this, and run far away, far away, from me. I am tainted, and happiness and peace of mind were never meant for me.”
-Trent Reznor
“Now I see the times they’ve changed, leaving doesn’t seem […]
I am proof that no God of any kind exists. I’m not knocking anyone’s religion, so don’t get all protective over your religion on me. Just hear me out. A God loves his creations and would do anything to help them if they need it. I haven’t got any kind of help, from mortal or immortal beings. I’ve loved and cared for tons of people, gave them advice, and sometimes gave them a place to stay when their Mother was abusive or their Father was going ape shit. I help them with their pain, but what do I get? Absolutely fucking nothing. They just want […]
I cant take it! I’m going to kill him. I swear to god I’m going to decapitate his stupid fucked up face from his body and stab it untill you can’t even tell what the hell it was. He’s an animal and he deserves to be where he belongs. I don’t give a shit if I go to juvi, prision, or get the death sentence. That person needs to know he doesn’t get to go around being an ass. I lost control and I don’t care. I’m not going back untill it kills me.
baby don’t lie to me
i can see it in your eyes
the way you wont look at me
theres something youre trying to hide
is there truth in what she said (she said)
were you sleeping in his bed?
so baby don’t lie to me
so obviously!
and baby dont cry on me
i dont wanna see
just look me in the eyes
tell me, have you thrown away our years?
i’m feeling tonight, like i never knew you
(at all)
like i’ve lost my best friend
so what were you thinking (what were you thinking)
so what were you thinking (what were you thinking)
You hurt me bad.
I don’t know if I can look at you ever again.
Burned your hoodies.
Burned your photos.
Burned you out of my life.
I hope you break your fucking neck.
& I mean it.
You’ve actually destroyed me.
14 months and a virginity wasted.
Thank you very fucking much.
love you too…
I don’t know what to do anymore. I’ve struggled with severe depression and insomnia for about ten years now. I’ve given up on medication as it makes me more zombie than human – which is fine. I deal with bouts of insomnia and the odd night of sleep.
But, I’ve been in a constant state of heartbreak for over a year now. I’ve been with my Partner for (the best part of) three and a half years. However, in March last year, he completely blind-sighted me and broke up with me because he wasn’t sure he wanted a future with me. He completely broke my heart, […]
I feel horrible. I feel tortured by those around me. They call me names, they accuse me of so many things. And then later on they expect me to be ‘cool’ with them. How can I say I’m not without them accusing me of fueling a fight? They’ve got me trapped. Just like they always do. And anyway, why would they make me see myself as such a horrific person and then want to be friends with me? Who would want to be friends with someone like me? With someone they’ve told me I am?
I feel like I’m not even with myself, I feel like […]
I have enough words to say
im sorry.
I have enough
to say im ready.
There i have nothing
there….
i seem to be losing everything.
I deserve punishment…
burn mine hands
and stab mine chest repeatly.
Im just saying…
im so alone.
Empty…
if thats enough.
Let mine mind
be taking over.
As for now…
let mine soon to be dead body
be decay underground.
Every moment of every day I want to end my life. I want to just stop.
Every moment of every day I feel everything. I feel of no importance.
Every moment of every day I think about who I am–or rather what I am not. I think of who I want to be.
Every moment of every day I am alone. I am no one.
I can no longer function without thinking about the end.
The end is promising.
The end is easy.
I can no longer look at myself in the mirror.
I can no longer socialize.
I can no longer live the life I dreamed of living.
I can no longer be
because […]
I just feel like Ive tried so hard for 1 year to land a good job and been so close (literally within inches) of landing that job only to lose the job at the last minute. Its discouraging and makes me want to suicide.
22years old, worked my ass of in school, worked my ass of at 4 different jobs (Ive worked at some good companies already and have good experience) in the past 2 or 3 years to gain experience. I have good experience. Im goodlooking, have many friends. Its not about that. Being unable to land work is just killing my life.
Been to […]
the woman i was with for 5 years and my first love left me for drugs. i was forced back to living with my mother and her crazy boyfriend that mentally tortured me know that he could kick me out anytime i said anything. finally we fought and i was kicked out to be homeless for 4 months. i sucked up my pride and came to live with my ex at her house. she pretty much just tells me how much better her new boyfriend is and i was exiled to one room of the house. one good thing is i work 20 hours a week […]
The reason I live is because somebody I know or don’t know in the future needs me to. I think about suicide because death is easy. Giving up and just failing are also easy. But I think about the people who are worse off than me, and I want to do everything I can to help them. Honestly, I think the world and life are stupid. A stupid, unfair, nonsense game I don’t really want to play. It’s not important to me. But what is important to me is being there for someone in their darkest hour of need.Â
I’m sad I can’t make friends that well, […]
you were ment to be here at noon
but you never turned up
no you never turned up
Again my mind wanders
“should i cut you off? should i cut you off?”
Well this is de ja vu so many times i’m chasing you
i don’t know where you are
where you’ve been
or who you’re with
this feelings got me trapped
and theres nothing i can do
Except miss you!
Except miss you.
Except miss you!
except miss you.
Speaking down the telephone
they said you never came home, you never came home
Again my mind wanders
“with whome did you end up? with whome did you end up?”
Well this is de ja vu so many times i’m chasing you
i don’t know […]
Anyone who’s suicidal on Skype?
I wanna talk with like-minded people. Not those who try and preach religion or other ways of life..
So here I am in GA. First week here, never been down to the south before. Everything is so fucking new. I don’t know anyone, no one to eat with in the school cafeteria, always sitting alone, always being stared at. I miss my dog in Korea, miss my old college.
My story from birth to now basically goes like this. Born in Chicago, IL, moved to Korea when 5. At 9 years old moved to Hong Kong because of dad’s job. 14 yrs old, moved back to korea because dad lost his job. 17 yrs old moved to Malaysia to go to boarding school because […]