“If only you understood. If only you could wipe away the veneer of complete disregard and detachment that has clung to me for these past few years. At times, it seems as if my hidden personality and the facade have become one, merging together after all this time of forced coexistence. It’s pathetic, really. I’ve waited so long for someone to notice the struggles behind the smiles, but it is becoming apparent that I put too much faith into those whom I surround myself with. It is at this point in time that the last remnants of smiles are fleeting. Yet the struggles are stronger […]
Are teenage years suppose to be the best years of your life?
My Grandad keeps telling me that they are suppose to be the best years, but they seem to be the worst. What do you think about it?
I feel so alone… thats all i can ever say. Even if im around people. I feel even more alone.
I got 3 boxes of nicotine patches for a total of 42 patches and each patch has 7mg for a total of 294mg before i attempt this suicide method will this kill me.I have no purpose in this world, I have no friends, Am so lonely, My depression is worst, Everything is decide for me, I don’t think my relationship with my girlfriend is going anywhere.Will this attempt work?
Does anyone have msn? and willing to talk?
This life is too much. It is useless and unwanted. It is nothing.
Yet, I am still alive at this moment, drowning myself in self-pity, too much of a coward to actually end it.\
HAH. whatajoke.
it starts
in the pit of my stomach
an ache
sort of
uneasiness
it crawls
up my spine
growing
spreading chills
across my body
then it finds my heart
makes itself at home
feeds on all warmth
and comfort
a parasite of the soul
draining me of will
leaving the emptiness
nothing but emptiness
Fell to black and stitches blue
These scars all tell a story of you
I wanna cut so bad, I’m not sure why I’m telling you.. I have to tell someone, im gonna cut tonight, something happened.. I have to.
I’m broken. I’m no longer in the procces of breaking or falling. I’ve fallen.
The person who meant the most to me has fucked me over.
My best friend fucked the one person who meant everything to me.
All i want is to take a knife and gab it deep into mine hand. All i want is not to feel fear everyday. I want to see blackness as i fall into deep sleep….forever. I dont want to be another survivor. I dont want to be another complete fail. I want to be the person who i always wanted to be. No more needs…just wants. I want to be able to shout out my problems to the world… not on paper. Paper won’t talk back to you. Paper is used to write what you need to write when you need to write. All i […]
sometimes i wonder how i see through my eyes or hear through my ears. i know they explain it all in science and stuff, but ever since i was a kid, like around 5, i would wonder how i can see through my eyes and how it would be for someone to see through my eyes.
i have had suicidal thoughts since i was around 12, when i started high school. hormones kicked in, and my eczema kicked in which was like a disease spreading all over me. Its been alright for the last […]
First of all I want to state that I’ve been posting here for a while and have been contemplating suicide for a little before I found this website. I’ve been sort of just going with the flow until something would finally just push me over the edge. I’ve been losing friends and I’m in a relationship that feels like is just falling apart. Somehow that hasn’t even pushed me a single bit. At least until today. I feel like I’ve been a crappy friend the few years that I started to rely on friends over the internet. In 8th grade I had a relationship that […]
I’m going to Germany for 2 weeks with my mom and stepdad I want to tell my mom about my plan but that would ruin the trip and i live with my dad and stepmom.I see my mom 1-2 a month. in all the hate and depression deep down there’s hope.but hope always gets destroyed and damaged dying would being new adventures with no worries.if I ever get the courage to jump from our house.suicide’s my answer to all the problems and worries.but life is something I want so bad
There are too many thoughts in my head, too much emotion encompassing my mind.
All I want is for this emotion to stop, to be drowned out, never to return.
All I want is for that simple pull to be done with, for the emotions to be released, forever relieving the pain.
but what I really need is something more than nothing–someone more than no one.
I have fucking had it.
I have ruined all my friendships and now I have no one. I am fucking sick of giving everyone my everything and them throwing it back in my face. Everyone would be better off if I wasn’t even here anymore. Fuck everything. All I want to be is dead.
“Suicide sometimes proceeds from cowardice, but not always; for cowardice sometimes prevents it; since as many live because they are afraid to die, as die because they are afraid to liveâ€
Charles Caleb
I’d like to share something with anyone here who is relatively young and healthy, but considering committing suicide.   30 yrs ago, I attempted to take my own life.  I took large doses of various painkillers, washed down with alcohol.  It almost killed me.  Had I not been found in time, I wouldn’t be here writing this now.
Since then, I’ve been married twice, had a child and served 20 yrs in the military, among many other things. Â Not all my life experiences since then were good ones, but I had more good ones than bad ones. Â It was worth it to me to stick […]
Okay, so here’s what’s been happening lately.
My best friend, Nicole, told my sister that I spend too much time with my other best friend, Alannah, she said that I apparently ditch everyone for her. And then, of course I should be mad at Nicole, but I tell her I’m not. But, for some stupid reason, instead, Nicole’s mad at me. Cool? Yeah, I know. And so, my friends, Alannah and Jess tell me they’re not taking sides, but on Thursday they were comforting Nicole while she was crying. It doesn’t sound that bad, but the reason Nicole was crying was because she told people I […]