After physical death, the consciousness leaves the body and the earth-plane (the lowest of the seven realms) and will naturally gravitate upward on to the plane and level of awareness that that consciousness has evolved to. Your purgatory (the Etheric Plane), referenced in your biblical text, is the first and lowest of these nonphysical realms. It is here where consciousness waits for its next incarnation or some kind of understanding to come into its being, so it can progress upward to the next higher plane or back downward into the physical system. The realm just above the Etheric Plane is the Astral Plane, and it […]
Sitting alone deep within your darkness.
Unable to see. No hope in your heart.
Comfortable, detached and cold.
No one can reach you. No one can see you.
Safe within your despair.
Darkness envelops your soul.
Coldness freezes your heart.
Until you become nothing more than a living corpse.
A voice whispers in the darkness.
Is it your voice? Is it my voice? Whose voice is it?
It really doesn’t matter. All that matters is its there.
A voice whispers in the darkness.
Whispering sweet nothings about life nonexistent.
Some fantasy about love, joy and light.
The voice urges you to follow it
Knowing it might […]
Let’s leave aside the arguments about the existence of Heaven and Hell, God and Satan for a minute. I’m not religious, but a religious person could as easily make this cultural observation. Virtually every religion with a belief in reward and punishment zones in the afterlife places Heaven far above Earth, and Hell deep within it. That says that the quintessential human idea of suffering is to stay near this world, and the quintessential idea of reward is escape from it. Is this cultures across the globe and across time way of saying that this world sucks and we should want to leave it? Is […]
I remember exactly where I was on this day.Â
Sitting in my first grade classroom thinking about how nice it would be to be a butterfly.
We were learning about butterflies for science and my teacher wanted us to all picture what it would be like if we could be a butterfly and change from a small creature to a beautiful, natural masterpiece with wings that let us fly away to wherever we wanted to go.
That was when the phone rang.
“Hello, Mrs. Myers room, first grade”.
I remember seeing the horror stricken look on her face, the terror in her eyes. She didn’t make a sound, only grabbed […]
God sometimes you just don’t come through
God sometimes you just don’t come through
Do you need a woman to look after you?
God sometimes you just don’t come through
You make pretty daisies pretty daisies
Love I gotta find what you’re doing about things
Here a few witches burningÂ
Gets a little toasty here
I gotta find why you always go when the wind blows
Tell me you’re crazy maybe then I’ll understand
You got your 9 ironin the back seat
Just in case
Heard you’re gone south well
Babe you love your new 4 wheel
I gotta find why you always go when the wind blows
Hey, baby, I dig your scars
I think you’re smart, but they think you’re kind of stupid
You don’t say much, I don’t care
They think you’re strange, but I think it’s kinda sexy
You’re kind of lovely in an ugly way
Your feet scratch together, in my two-time waltz
I think you have a lot to say
I think it’s strange but I think it’s kind of fun
And I can’t believe you’re still stuck to me
Can’t believe you’re still stuck to this world
And I can’t believe you’re still stuck to me
Can’t believe you’re still stuck to this world
Hey baby, I dig your scars
They think you’re smart, but I think you’re kinda […]
I don’t want to finish with the toughest degree so that I can get the highest paying job that will pay for my great car. Then marry some yuppie and live in the richest suburb’s most expensive white picket-fence house filled with crap that I don’t need. Pop out two and a half overachieving kids who’ll go to the best private schools and universities that money can buy, living a lifestyle that they can’t appreciate. Until I die an appropriate death due to old age after building up a nice inheritance for my overfed underloved children.
Nothing makes me more anxious that […]
 I fall in love with you so easily. Yes, you. As you read these words; as they drip so easily through your mind. I am falling in love with you. Not only you, but your emotions. And your life. And your beauty.
I am falling in love with you falling in love with others. I am falling in love with the music that pulses through both our bodies: the idea that our hearts are beating to the same drum rhythm. I am falling in love with the tears that cascade down your cheeks: that stinging feeling in your soul and the aching at the back of […]
okay so im only twenty and feel like i have had a life from hell and im not sure what to do so here i go. ever since i was little my mother used to manipuate me and my brother she is a compsive lair and to tell you the truth a complete ***** i dont even know who she is a person still to this day so from being a pon on her chess board and being raped by her boyfriend used to rape me and he did it for years and i never told a soul my dad met my step mom and […]
LETS ALL JUST FUCKIN DIE!!!
I Want to die next to a suicidal stranger so it´ll be less painful
I recently realized that I was depressed from a very early age. Probably from around the age of 5. I used to watch my dad beat my mom. Finally she left him. I was the youngest of six so after the seperation I was raised by my sister and was basically neglected by both of my parents since my dad was never around. In Junior High was the first time I tried to commit suicide. I just took a bunch of OTC pills and made myself very sick for a few days. Then I started to cut and burn myself with lighters and act out […]
I’m only 15. I have job at my moms store, I’m a freshman in high school.
My mom never lets me out anymore. All I ever do is work and go to school. And at school I am made fun of. I never act like I care. But once i get home from work I open a pack of razors and tear my flesh.
The other day, I thought I had had enough. So I applied more pressure to the razor. I bled for only two hours
I viewed this site 6 months ago shortly after trying to kill myself. I couldn’t find the strength to actually go through with it when the time came. I wanted to die. I wanted to die more than I wanted to live, but for some reason I just couldn’t do it. I hated myself for a little while, thought of myself as a coward.
Since then I have been seriously working through things in my head and exploring every possible reason for me to stay alive. Suddenly, last week, the darkness lifted from me for no apparent reason. I felt lighter, happier and could see things crystal […]
i have charcoal method and h2s-struggling 2 decide which one is best 4 me-can sum1 with intelligence tell me the better of the 2 methods-thanku
I love reading things from you, I feel your pain and I share the same views. All of you, to me, came across as such beautiful and honest people, ones I would really love to know. It makes me so very sad that I don’t see comments from you anymore.Â
Alluvion commented a couple of days ago but it was not his/her usual style, I feel something is wrong. I know JennyA is terminally ill and I pray that she is okay. This site is a sadder place without words from you guys.
Beautiful souls, that I fear don’t belong here.
x
It seems the largest and most popular posts on this site have been ones about capitalism being the fundamental cause of upset and depressions, and also whether or not society as a whole is ‘evil’. Â It made me think very deeply about these topics, as I too am very depressed about how the world is, and I spoke to the people in my life about these topics also. It seems that most people (except on here) are unwilling to go deep into these concerns, the conversation always stops when it becomes to horrid for the listener. So, I thought of these things this way; Â What […]
It’s true. I live in London, and whenever I am out and about now all I see and hear are the kids bossing the parents about and taking charge. Is this the new freedom? Or is this what the book 1984 predicted? It’s got so bad that I only leave the house when I am about to die from lack of fresh air. I used to love to visit parks, galleries and cafes but now they are teaming with loud obnoxious families, or single mums with prams that are bigger than cars, that carry around around their offspring that are shouting their constant demands.Â
I know […]
I’m standin’ on the bridge
I’m waitin’ in the dark
I thought that you’d be here by now
There’s nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I’m listening but there’s no sound
Isn’t anyone tryin’ to find me?
Won’t somebody come take me home?
It’s a damn cold night
I’m tryin’ to figure out this life
Won’t you take me by the hand?
Take me somewhere new
I don’t know who you are
But I’m, I’m with you
I’m with you
I’m looking for a place
I’m searching for a face
Is anybody here I know?
‘Cause nothing’s going right
And everything’s a mess
And […]
People are very jealous when someone posts a popular piece. I have noticed that someone, at least one individual will join that thread with an ‘alternative viewpoint’. The ‘viewpoint’ is not the real motive, it is designed to cause upset amongst the agreeing majority – because they are jealous and despite having posted many times, they have never been quite so popular and it pisses them off, understandably so. Sometimes they even create a new profile and attack (in an innocent way of course, with their ‘alternative viewpoint’) as a new person.Â
Oh how I love watching our species play up!