Spend all your time waiting for that second chance 

For the break that will make it OK 

There’s always some reason to feel not good enough 

And it’s hard at the end of the day 

I need some distraction or a beautiful release 

Memories seep from my veins 

Let me be empty and weightless and maybe 

I’ll find some peace tonight 

In the arms of the Angel far away from here 

From this dark, cold hotel room, and the endlessness that you fear 

You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie 

You’re in the arms of the Angel; may you find some comfort here 

So tired of the straight line, and everywhere you turn 

There’s vultures […]

Some things we can’t comprehend,

There are wounds that will never mend,

Tender to the touch, pus filled and laced with need,

Silver nitrate to cauterize yet still we bleed,

White coats, sharp metal and cold objectivity,

Subjective amputation, no room for sensitivity,

Our entire being defined and mapped by charts,

Digits in flowing valleys with no hearts,

Things we can’t see, so small but all consuming,

Encourage a suffocating fear forever looming,

This relentless decay, driving a hypnotizing fatigue,

A glimpse of the black waltz, a secret intrigue.

When you’ve been unappy for your entire life, you get a bit sick of people telling you things will get better or that you should have hope in the future.  Why? I don’t even desire to suceed and have a sick hell bent wish on suffering and dying.  How can i get better if ii dont have the motivation or desire too?  I know that some people never make it, and what if i’m one of those people?  I will never be anything good enough for society.  I haven’t working in over two years, dropped out of college, can’t get out of an abusive relationship.  I’d be […]

The first one is Myers Briggs (MBTI) Personality Type here: http://sminds.com/mbti/
In short, this is a Personality test continuation from Jung’s system that measure someone’s way of thinking, and how he/she perceives an information, which results in generally 16 Personality Types.

The second one is the Highly Sensitive Person (HSP) test here:
http://www.hsperson.com/pages/test.htm
to see if you could probably belong to this Type of person.

Surely, “each individual is unique”, it’s true,
but what’s probably the best thing about following these tests is:
1. To find like-minded, similar people who thinks like you,
and thus perhaps most importantly,
2. To know that you’re not alone in this planet, ie: […]

goodbye

i love u all

If I kill myself today, everyone will be at peace for the rest of their weekend. No one will stop by until the festivities are over. I will finally be free.

Well at least that’s my hypothesis.

I’ve read pretty much everything on here and this is where I’m at, and I guess what I’m searching for, but failing to find;  Out of everyone I have ever known, met, or out of everything I have ever read on various forums, I can say that I am either more, or at least as philosophical or spiritual as they are. I could go right now and probably turn someone’s thinking from despair to hope and joy, I’ve done that all my life with everyone I meet and also myself over and over again. I am tired of ‘deep thinking’ and seeing the bright side […]

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I feel so alone, even though I’m surrounded by a lot of people. Nobody understands me. I just want to get this over with and end my life. I don’t see the point of living anymore. I’ve been depressed all my life, and nobody even notices. Nobody listens and I’m tired of pretending. So please, tell me easiest and painless way to kill oneself. I can’t take it anymore. I just can’t.

It would seem that this place is popular. I guess this would be a good place to explain my story, and in truth, my confessions. We will begin with the problem:

My problem is that I will never really amount to anything. I don’t know if anyone understands what my situation is, but I will explain as best I can. For years I have struggled to become something great. I want to be an actor and have my face everywhere. I mean it sounds childish, but I was accepted to a college for acting. I was going to go, but something held me back. I can’t […]

the truth to why I act this way. They can’t see that I’m just a robot saying and doing everything they say. Why I don’t see the details, just the outlines and why I look unresponsive and cold. Nobody knows because nobody cares.

I posted a few days ago about my situation. To keep it brief I won’t go into all that again, but basically I’m considering suicide and if it comes to that, it’s likely to occur within the next 2 weeks or so; or when my money runs out, whichever comes quickest.

A few things occured today that I find, ironic for lack of a better word. My mom picked me up and we’re driving to pick up my sister. She turns down the stereo to tell me a story. An old friend of hers, Gloria, called her last weekend and had some sad news. A very close […]

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If you put 20 mice in a cage, and each day shake the cage and jab the mice with sharp pins as they run past. Around 3 of the mice will refuse to eat, and prefer to die instead of putting up with being tortured, aren’t they the smart ones?

Thanks, Stragers, Comrades in arm!

What are you reasons to go on living?

Have you attempted suicide?
Did you choose life?

I am posting this on behalf of the team behind The Reasons to go on Living Project. We are collecting the stories of people who have attempted or seriously contemplated suicide but now want to go on living. The Project will study and share these anonymous stories for research, education and inspiration.

Please visit the website (http://thereasons.ca) for […]

i started to believe him.. now i don’t want to eat anymore.

Hi Jenttar, I noticed your reply to niki on another post, I responded to you but it is waiting in moderation, so I thought I would post my reply just for you 🙂

Being suicidal doesn’t always have anything to do with your circumstances, many wealthy people kill themselves. I think it depends on how realistic you are about life, weather you’re poor or rich, if you are smart enough to to have a realistic view of what your future holds, and you don’t like it, that can make you suicidal. Whilst I agree to a certain degree that we never really know what our future […]

She walks up to me, a cold white dust on her coat. She looks me squarely in the eye, a tear falls from her cheek to the blade she holds. The snow crunches beneath her feet as she imparts upon me a final embrace. “Good bye” she says “I’m sorry”. She holds her dagger over her left breast. Unimaginable grief adorns her face. The dagger plunges into her chest, into her heart. A brief cry of anguish escapes her lips. She falls to the ground blood flowing freely from her wound, turning the snow a deep red. […]