Don’t u hate being lost not literally like when it seems like mostly everyone knows what they are doing. All the time I get ask what I’m i going to do when I grow up? I say the samething over and over I don’t know yet. But what I really want to say is ” Cant u see I’m not going to do shit with my life n if do decide to do something it won’t be now I just going to high school not college.” But as I get up today I thought maybe I should live to make camps all over the world […]
I will decide later.
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i didn’t get out of bed today. i have many days like this. my birthday is this weekend.
what is the point. i didn’t ever want to live this long. i was suicidal at age nine. i’m still suicidal. i’ve done everything i can think of to make things better.
the only reason im still here is for my family. when they are gone….thankfully i will be able to leave too.
for me, that’s not healthy, nor will i thrive psychologically, mentally, or otherwise, as an “alien”.
Yet there it is. It just is. Whether i like it or not. It doesn’t matter. It’s still there.
Nothing helps. Nothing. Nothing obliterates this curse. I need “my” people. “My” people are people with the same problem.
i have alot of memories the worst one is when i was turning 3 it is so vived like a dream i was walkin to my daddys house across the street from my moms and i asked the guys on the front porch where my daddy at the said that he left last nite. my bio mother dawn said that he didnt love me and that he left cause i was a bad girl as i grew up i was physically abused and sexually abused. i started to feel worthless and thought of suicide at age 11 i wanted to give up i […]
I’ve been told a lot that you can’t hold onto the past.
Maybe that’s true for a lot of people, but those people aren’t me. My life….it boils down to one point in time. I am thoroughly convinced that if this one thing hadn’t happened to me, then maybe things would’ve turned out differently.
The rape…..yes, you all know that’s what I was talking about. Somehow I don’t think it’s fair to blame all my problems on the rape, but I know for a fact that my depression started there, after the first time.
I haven’t talked about this much because it’s not something I like to talk about, […]
ok im so dead now im slittin my throat have fun world i may live tho…idk
I was just dumped tonite at 10:18 iv been crying this whole time as i write this too nd i dont no what to do witout him i wanna die now nd im tempted to take a razor blade nd slit my arms nd throat i dnt have neone else to love:'( some kill me NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am not sure why i am writing this. Not sure anyone will listen.
I have lost my whole world. My wife left me and took the kids a week ago. I cant take the pain of my daughter begging me to come home that she misses me. I have lost my apartment, my car. my wife and my kids.
There is nothing left for me.
This starts several years ago. I made the biggest mistake of my life. I cheated on my wife.
It was a one time thing with someone i didnt care about.
After it happened my wife caught a text message that i had sent her. […]
My story of survival from suicide after my break up.
I thought I could handle it, life I mean.
I thought that everything was going to go okay now that I had decided too live my life the way I want too.
But it isn’t.
I had a fight with my mom tonight. She doesn’t listen to be about everything, all she does is speak her own mind and tune mine out. I just feel like she can be so selfish and conceited, that she forgets that I’m even there, her oldest child, her flower, trying to tell her how much I’m hurting.
“You never listen!” I jumped out of the car at lightning speed and slammed the doors […]
ok so after all the fightin nd everything me nd my bf got bck together now were pretty much still upset bout this whole situation nd im really upset that i almost lost him due to the fact i no for a fact hes the one nd he was just bout to give up nd nvr come bck to me:'( now were still talkin bout this i keep questioning him bout y he was gonna give up nd he has yet to give me a true reason nd im affraid he dont love me:'( rite now i just feel like dieing/cuttin myself:'(
I’ve always had some amount of anxiety and depression, but they get worse when issues in my life set them off. I’m going through a lot of things right now, and it’s really bad. On top of that I’m going through withdrawals from alcohol and xanax, exacerbating my anxiety even more, it’s constant through every day. On monday I catch a plane ride home and commit myself. I just hope I can make it until then. Too anxious to eat or sleep, suicide seems like a very viable option to my messed up brain right now. When it hurts […]
Has anyone ever had to see the one they love.. love someone els. do u know the heartbreak an the tears that come with it. i think that everyone who has felt this dose one of two things
One: die inside but show the world that ur ok
or
Two go insane.
why dose this heart ripe apart and shatter into a million shards.
“I love you!” is a sick ass joke that asshole made up. there is no love there is no soul mate and there sure as hell no one that can protect you. so i say dont trust and so […]
Ppl will fall and ppl will rise. the good thing is there are then ppl who will not only help but lift you up with here own problems.the light of the world grows on that and if you are good and the angels are nice that day then you will grow with the world. but then if the angels never come around and the demons seem to pile up then the only thing to do is fight back. No mater what it is not right to surender and lay down. if by surendering you give up what make you you then your squewed.
So me nd my bf got into a fight this afternoon nd i thought to myself someone kill me nd i tell him in every fight nd break up my lifes shit without him but i can never seem to keep him happy i nvr no what the hell to do im always hurtin him or myself nd he told me bout this place so im givin it a try but im 101% sure this thing wont help me one bit! but its for the relationship….
Today was great and I know it will probably ne the last one of these for a long time Im debating going out with at least one good day
I’m new to this site. My name is Hannah. I’m a severe self-harmer. I cut, burn, hit, anything to feel pain. I’ve been hospitalized 3 times because of it. I’ve also been hospalized for Bulimia Nevosa, which I’ve been suffering from for 2 years. I have Bipolar-depression, GAD (generalized anxiety disorder), acrophobia, and PTSD. I’ve been having a hard time lately. Schools ou, which means nothing can distract me from my life. My addictions. My “drugs”. It seems like everything is spinning out of control. Emotions turning left and right and left again. I’m keeping secret after secret after secret. I’m lying about everything. My […]
Hi, I have never really been any good at expressing myself in writing so I am sorry if this passage does not make much sense.
When I was younger, around 12 years old, I was sexually abused by a man of the age of 22 at the time, I was young and naive, He was a friend of mine and sometimes I used to help out in his workplace, Due to family experiences in my childhood I had to grow up at a very very young age and look after myself, and also my body matured at a very young age, by the age of 11 my […]