If life is all about prosperity…!! others would suffer from worthlessness. i dont want prosperity and all the glamorous things. and also now this world is depends on things, materialistic things  &  materialists are every where. so, i have no hopes, things, dreams to live………..
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So I’m sitting here reading all this stuff about adolescence and antidepressants & I can’t help hysterically crying. I’m so scared these horrible things will happen when I start taking them.
Someone please assure me my last chance at living a normal life won’t take my life… )’:
So it’s been a while since I’ve posted… Hope everyone’s surviving. Overall, I’ve been ok. Since my last post, I’ve been in therapy to attempt to put an end to my cutting. I had been clean for 3 months. A few days ago I cut for no reason, absolutely none. I just made up my mind and did it. Since then, I decided to ask for an antidepressant and my therapist was all for it.
She said it will be easier to listen to the rational voice in my head, I really hope she’s right. Living has been an absolute struggle. I want to be ok, […]
Alright so, I may be young but I feel like I’ve gone through a lot. I feel tired of life. I’ve thought about commiting suicide so many times but I look into my future. I have a lot to go through. But anywho, the reason why I feel like this is because of my family, especially my mother. For a long time now, its turned into an everyday thing to argue. My mother makes me feel like im nothing. Wishing for me to not be her daughter, and regreting to have me. Im not good enough, I don’t do anything right. All I do is […]
GCSE’S ARE CRAP, LIFE’S ‘CRAP’…
falling asleep a lot recently in school, when i get home from school because i dont eat during the day & as i always say;Â no food = no energy.
Started counselling, which i thought was helping me but i dont see any improvement:/ i have started to cut up my arm, they call it the suicidal cut…
Guess you could say i am mildly suicidal. I have been for the past month? Never attempting, but i guess the thought of how i would end my life is bad enough!
Came out of a relationship couple months ago and recently in a new one… he doesn’t understand my illness, […]
Everything I do I end up quitting or giving up on. I have nothing to live for. I mean what is the point. I see a lot of people happy and I see great potential in them to have an amazing life. As much as I wish I could be like them I’m just not and I never will be anything. Other than my family a few close friends I don’t even think people wold care if I died. And I really want to die, but I’m not going to kill myself for two reasons. One, I don’t know how/too scared to do it/don’t want […]
Family does not understand what manic depressive bi-polar is like.
I feel dead inside. My soul has been devoured by a pit of darkness pulling me in.
Every day… I see no hope… no future. Just darkness, pain, lonely… can’t fight the pain much longer.
I am a surviver of lortabs & Xanax overdose. 5 day coma… brain damage. have a shotgun now.
I’m ready….
If you choose one night to watch the stars this year, make it April 21st
by anonalabama
written by anonalabama
Don’t take it from me, take it from NASA!
at twilight
you came to me
with glistening cheecks
& red eyes
gasping
trying not to cry
you hid new scars
under long hair
as you tilted your head down
because you don’t want
them to see you
you’re crying too hard
i think you don’t realize
how much i love you
you’re a train wreck, miss
but you try so hard
to fix your messed up life
but i want you to know
that it’s not your fault
you didn’t do this to yourself
sweetheart;
at twilight you came to me
with thin hair
& an empty stomach
ribs sticking over
and a spine sinking low
-e.m.
Wow, the last time I was here was a year ago..
& haven’t things got rough!
I was doing so well, I moved to London, started university and fell ridiculously depressed.
I relapsed again and again
I don’t think in control with myself anymore, my head is all over the place and my body is suffering. My bones are becoming weaker and weaker and I can’t cope. I almost broke my ankle recently and because of this my University won’t pass me for my first year because of the time off. I’ve been having tests upon tests to see whether I have a serious illness, they want to […]
Able to do less & less.  Was dx with SCA type 6 in 2002.  Can not take care of myself anymore.  Tired of the struggle.  My  last attempt was very very close.  Obviously not close  enough.
Hello everyone ! I’m doing this project i call ‘Tell me your story’. I did a facebook page & a blogspot. But I need YOUR help to make this work.I want to provide a way for everyone to interact with each other. This is how it works. You tell me your story, I tell everyone else. You could be known or stay on anon. It’s all up to you. What matters is that your story will be heard. People will know that you exist. You will leave a trace that you once existed. You will help other not do the same mistakes you did or […]
I wish I have the courage to suicide.
I don’t have any purpose to live.
I want to exchange my life to someone less fortunate than me.
I believe they will be very happy and would cherish all the things I have.
They will use my life to the fullest and give back to the society.
I will be living in their life, rotting by the streets & waiting to die.
That’s one wish of mine.
Hi, I suffer from Manic Depression . Not many in my school know that. They think i’m happy, maybe even normal teenage girl. I’m 14. But this is were it all started.
When I was little, I was always the “troubled” child. My parents would curse at me , call me a “retard” , “slut” “whore” all different types of names when I just was two years of age. It wasn’t only the names… my mom was a drunk and my dad wasn’t so much of a help either, she would hit me, with all sorts of things, whatever she could get her hands on. […]
Youtube song:
Click here -> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iS8sqgBgzG8&feature=endscreen&NR=1
Get Well by Icon For Hire http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iS8sqgBgzG8&feature=endscreen&NR=1
It’s got a good sound, please listen!
“Get Well”
We throw tantrums like parties
We’re not happy ’til everyone knows we’re sick
And that’s just how we like it
We’ve hurt bad enough, right, we’ve earned itDon’t tell the others but it’s all getting old I mean how many more times must our stories be told?
And being lonely’s only fun in a group It sort of loses it’s charm when it’s true
I meant it when I said I wanna get well, I wanna get well
Are the rest of you so content
Stay […]
We carry the scars on our bodies everywhere we go. We carry the scars on our hearts. We carry the fear someone will see them, we carry the shame when people do. We carry pins, knives, razors. We carry bandaids & disinfectant. We carry a little kernel of hope that we will get out of this. We carry hearts so heavy they drag on the ground. We carry our bloodstained clothes. Sometimes we carry hospital bills for stiches. Othertimes we carry them for therapists. We are the burdens on our families, we are the misunderstood. We are the ones who people stay away from when […]
Am I jinxed? I recently found some good decent honest guys to hang out with like every other weekend, or once a month to just play D&D for about 4 hours. But when I fucking finally am able to go, my wife (who refuses to go out of her own way to find her own friends) has a fit and keeps me stuck at home. I say stuck because I don’t have people whom I can shake hands with and spend time with other than my wife. I love her, but damn it, I need to enjoy the company of FRIENDS, too! This is the […]
I am mistreated horribly by so many of my friends. I do everything for them & they barely acknowledge my existence.
I’m so sick of being under appreciated, therefor I am making no efforts to see anyone. If people want to be with me, they can tell me.. I will not be walked all over anymore. I put everyone before myself and that’s what got me into the situation I’m currently in.
Cutting was pretty much the only thing I did for myself, and now it’s being taken away.
I feel numb right now, Â maybe of the anti depressants im taking, they make me feel weird. I cant sleep even though ive taken enough sleeping tablets to knock me out 3 times. I dont have anyone to talk to. I dont have the energy to write details, but here is my basic story.
My life for as long as I can remember has been unhappy, Ive been physically & mentally abused all my life. It made me insecure, I developed an eating disorder, self harmed and was suicidal a long time, I told myself when i’m older I wont feel like this and it will […]
I’m not even sure how to do all this, I haven’t taken the time to read through everything. I just need to get this out. Now.
I think too much, way too much. I’m a 40 year old female who has thought about dieing since I was a teenager. I guess I’ve always been scared to live. I was bullied horribly in school. I never felt like I was good enough for my parents… But all of that is more than 2 decades in the past. Maybe that is what started my depression. I can’t even remember not being depressed. Now though, I’m on medication that […]