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by 1298 8/26/2014

written by 1298

went to my first therapist session today. …

yeah i really can’t do this. i thought so seriously about killing myself afterwards. i mean, not more seriously than i have before. it’s just… i can never explain to anyone how this feels. i hate everything, and i try so fucking hard all the time to just get along
but i’m stupid, and i make mistakes, and everything is just so goddamn pointless and i never get any joy out of anything and i know people want me here now but i still don’t care, and i guess i hate myself for that, too, but what am […]

8/26/2014 5 comments

What’s the use

by Worthless_afterthought 8/25/2014

written by Worthless_afterthought

Death has been on my mind for quite some time now. a few years ago I never would have utter the words wanting to die, just let me be able to kill myself. now the words just come so easy and i just feel like I am getting so close to the edge. I think it is a possibility that I will have the strength to do it. Everyday is something new that just keeps adding to the pile of shit that is already on top of me. I feel so worthless like nothing I do matters. Nobody has time for me when I need […]

8/25/2014 3 comments

coward

by worthless012 8/25/2014

written by worthless012

people always say that if you say you want to kill yourself you never truly will, i keep playing the words over and over in my head like a dare issued by a bully. i wouldn’t say its hope that stops me every time, its just fear. i’m a coward and i will always be. i know without a shadow of doubt that my life has no purpose. i used to belief that my family meant everything to me but ever since my mother become ill i have felt loneliness swallow me whole.

8/25/2014 2 comments

depression.

by dolliexbabes 8/24/2014

written by dolliexbabes

Maybe no one cares, and i really wouldn’t blame you.

its not like i have some sad story, a problem people can pitty me with. no.. i have never seen some of the troubles alot of other people have.

but its not pitty that i want either. more of a understanding from the people around. an explanation for why i always wear long sleeves, even in 100 degree weather.

why i NEVER want to hang out, because i dont have the motivation, and would rather be in my room sleeping all day.

I want to tell my mom so bad, but every time i bring up the subjects she […]

8/24/2014 7 comments

I don’t know what’s happening

by lolzmay 8/24/2014

written by lolzmay

Well, i was diagnosed with endogenous depression a couple months ago and i haven’t really been getting any better. Lately I’ve been struggling to eat; I feel like i’m going to puke at the thought of food, and having to force myself to eat makes me cry. I can’t handle more than a couple spoonfuls of food before I feel sick, and I just can’t understand why. Has anyone else ever gone through this?

8/24/2014 8 comments

I want to be a girl.

by MakeupMaciee 8/24/2014

written by MakeupMaciee

my real name is Mark, but I prefer to be called Maciee. I came on here to find advice and possibly a way past this time.

it started when I was 7 or 8, wanting to be dressed up as a girl and to wear makeup, to be beautiful and comfortable in the pink and frills instead of the disgusting monster truck t-shirts and baseball caps. my mom died before i turned 5, but i know if she was still here she would have supported me now. i’m 12 years old, (soon to be 13 in a week counting today!). I live with my dad and […]

8/24/2014 32 comments

I’m Sorry

by splitting 8/21/2014

written by splitting

I walked away so long ago
left my heart and soul buried somewhere in the snow.
Frozen forever, as cold as ice
what is left of me is not so nice.
Try to warm me up
I will swallow you whole
trying to fill this empty hole.
Heartless is what I am
so I have locked me away
I dont want to destroy you
like they destroyed me.
I want you to fly
and to be as free as a bird
to sing your beautiful song
soaring high above the earth.
I want you to laugh and smile
to feel the warmth of the sun

8/21/2014 0 comment

my story

by midobarca 8/20/2014

written by midobarca

One day i was thinking to kill myself because i was feeling so bad.

I had a failure love story ,she is engaged now.One day was attending her sister’s wedding then i saw her dancing with her fiance .. i felt so sad 🙁 when i saw them.these days my father was facing problems in his work and his financial situation wasn’t good.I’m a student and i don’t have a job to help him.I felt like a loser in this life i lost my girl and i can’t help my father.I was feeling i’m useless so i had an idea to stop my suffering it was […]

8/20/2014 0 comment

Thinking to Die

by Drdie 8/20/2014

written by Drdie

Thinking to die? Ask me and i will give you a simple solution to die .

8/20/2014 4 comments

the world is not beautiful, not right now

by trapped_taco 8/20/2014

written by trapped_taco

hi, first post. Suicide’s been in the news for the first time in a while, it seems..

I’ve been thinking about suicide and how the idea that it is bad, conflicts with several messages society sends. the idea that it is acceptable conflicts with other societal messages, and the idea it’s good obviously conflicts with many messages.

but just sort of thinking about life, society, humanity as a whole…. for anyone who tends to think logically on a macro (to the point where it’s difficult to form emotional attachments to real people in your close surroundings), why do people send out black-and-white messages to people? Whether it’s […]

8/20/2014 3 comments

I’m damaged goods

by heartshapedpapercuts 8/20/2014

written by heartshapedpapercuts

It’s too late for me I’m already damaged goods. I’m nothing but a concoction of regrets and despair. My insides are full of darkness. Wallowing in despair plotting my own demise smiling is my best disguise. People keep telling me to “keep pushing it gets better” and when it doesn’t they say it again but they never really mean. I ask them “what for?” and they tell me “because that’s just how life is. Well I don’t enjoy “life” and I never really have. Disappointment after disappointment embarrassing moments always feeling uncomfortable. I guess thats just how it is when you’re a foster child, constantly […]

8/20/2014 3 comments

How much have I changed

by Namelessqueer 8/19/2014

written by Namelessqueer

I was watching a video I made when I was 12 years old. I had similar feelings to the ones I feels now; “if my friend doesn’t want to make time to come to visit me and i’m doing all the work in visiting them, they’re aren’t my friend”

It kinda shocked me because I didn’t realized how deep and how far back these feelings go. Who knew.

Anyway, I moved to a new place recently, and though it lightens the load, I still feel heavy. Hopefully the excitement of change will distract me for a good time before I spiral again.

8/19/2014 3 comments

Broken

by noir 8/19/2014

written by noir

I know what you are thinking, you are depresed cause you broke up.

Well yes i am, i started dating my couple on 13/4/2013, as you can guess for me it was quite hard to get a couple i had to decide if i needed a guy or a girl (that was actually realy realy hard to me cause in the inside i want to be loved and protected and cared, but in the outside im still male so i have to wear that mascarade of strongness and self security, so yeah for me it was a riddle, and still, anyway…) i met many people in […]

8/19/2014 6 comments

the everyday struggle

by orien124 8/18/2014

written by orien124

get me thru this night

i am a single mother have been even tho i am married. the man has never been there, he was always off drinking while i was at home taking care of things. not saying i dont mind it….i love my son so much and i would do anyting for him. now my son is two, and im filing for divorce since my life with my husband became physically and mentially abusive…sorry if i have spelling errors…so i left him a year and a half ago. […]

8/18/2014 3 comments

just when I was starting to have fun:(:(:(

by misanthrope 8/18/2014

written by misanthrope

Errr-sorry about the unsupportive manner in which I was attempting to “help” the poor upstanding father to cope,just then…It was Tough Love..and I think it can be very effective if applied the right way….I really do love this site and honestly it helps me quite a bit. I dont want to get 86’d out of here,guys.

For some reason,that seems to happen to me wherever I go and fairly frequently.(???WHY???)I feel so persecuted sometimes.Prob because im so pretty..Yes,I think that must be it.Jealous and Unattractive people are behind this campaign of persecution:):);) (JK)

Seriously though,I cant stand homophobic people. Makes me get […]

8/18/2014 44 comments

obssession with death

by DeadGirlNotFound 8/18/2014

written by DeadGirlNotFound

really, its real and it never goes, the addiction to think about ways to kill yourself is so strong, i even dream of it, how peacefully my body will lay, how i will leave everything here and how.. all i have done, all people have done to me will disappear. there will be nothingness and i will sink in the ocean of infinite security. i need this place, i need to feel safe from all the fight, all the hatred, all the people.

8/18/2014 4 comments

Tired

by DeadGirlNotFound 8/18/2014

written by DeadGirlNotFound

who else ?????? so tired … i slept in the afternoon, i washed a lot of clothes today, im not depressed, im good right now, but i want to kill myself, but i have everyone around me, and i live on the third floor, so cannot jump. im safe.

8/18/2014 2 comments

just to introduce myself

by fading star 8/18/2014

written by fading star

hello, my name is fading star… obviously not my real name but lets just call me this for now. ever since i could remember all i have wanted to do is help people…. right so while my entire life I’ve helped people I’ve never really looked after myself, helped myself. I’m 16 years old and feel like my life is no where. I’m not the complaining type but i’m falling apart with everything bursting inside me unable to handle by myself.

when i was a child i lived in poverty now most people live in poverty right?? well when i was a child my family did […]

8/18/2014 6 comments

HUMANITY IS FUCKED

by JadedGuy 8/18/2014

written by JadedGuy

My life went to shit in my early 20’s after my mom had turned my dad into a psycho and i thought he was the bad guy until i realized what an evil human being my mother is. now i am almost 30 and Her being evil has ruined my life in so many ways i cannot even descibe the anger i feel thinking about it. I had a great childhood and never had any extreme hatred towards my mom until after they divorced and my dad kicked me out of his place for not having a job and stealing a bit of money which […]

8/18/2014 2 comments

My Immortal

by DeadGirlNotFound 8/17/2014

written by DeadGirlNotFound

Listening to my immortal right now by amy lee, it looks like my past has come back to haunt me, like death is silently calling me, someone is calling me in this wind, someone wants me, loves me, and i need to commit suicide to see that person. the years i have lived are nothing, im empty as my soul, i have nothing to live for, like.. my parents mean nothing to me, nobody means anything to me. do you understand how i feel ?

8/17/2014 1 comment

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