Warning: This is extremely long, wordy, and unimportant.
I was just thinking.. Where did my anxiety come from? I used to be extremely outgoing. What happened?
Well, hello everyone..
I haven’t written on a site like this before but tonight I needed to tell someone, anyone before I explode. Just as an over view I’m an 18 year old in the grey as hell country of England on the south coast somewhere..
I have always been treated for one kind of mental health issue or another. My mom had me put through Dragonflies which is a kind of bereavement councillor when I was in year six so around 10 / 11 years old, I think she was hoping I was just sad when my grandad passed. Don’t get me wrong I was but […]
I have been struggling with anxiety for around five years now, and I thought I was getting better. And then Thursday rolled around. I took the ACT this weekend, and I was studying for it. It really didn’t seem that bad, until my heart started racing. My head started to hurt, my knees buckled, I started to cry. The normal panic symptoms. The worst part: I was home alone. You think a panic attack is bad. Going through it without anyone there makes you feel so alone and desperate. I hadn’t thought about suicide in two months, and all the sudden, all the thoughts came […]
Something I drew in the past.
My idea of depression and anxiety is a black goop with eyes and mouth. Enveloping me with its huge, heavy body. Weighing me down that I can’t even leave my bed. Telling me things that will hurt me. It’ll leave me all weary. No matter how I wash it away, it’s still there. Laughing triumphantly. This little shit. XD
Hello. I am a college student in Chicago. I’ve been assigned an open topic/open medium project so I’ve decided to take this opportunity to bring some attention to depression and anxiety. If you would like to be part of this project please send me an audio file with your thoughts on the subject (you can also send me a video file if that would be easier for you and I can extract the audio from it). You can say whatever you’d like on the subject but if you need a jumping off point here are a few questions to think about:
– Do you have an […]
Lately, my anxiety has been so bad that even seeing someone else do something that I would find uncomfortable doing gives me an anxiety attack.
So I haven’t been updating recently and a lot has happened in my life, so I decided that I needed to somehow let it all out and share with you guys. DISCLAIMER: It will be long …
So idk if I told you but my cousin moved back to my city (he used to live in Chicago) and he’s currently training to be a police man, but something that has been bothering me since he got here.. First of all, he doesn’t live with us, he lives with his other grandma. Second of all, my mom and grandma spend every single night during the week making […]
I’ve suffered from awful anxiety for the majority of my life, and I’ve withdrawn socially. I’m using Facebook in an attempt to check up on those people who made my life more enjoyable, and hopefully be able to call them and communicate more personally. It sucks waiting for a friend request to be accepted or even denied. My emotional state cycles to a state of hope to a state of resentment and tears. Life gets better? I sure hope so, but until I can talk to them, I feel such great regret and intense curiosity about the wellbeing of those people. Too bad medication can’t […]
I really just want to die… nobody cares any more… not my friends… not my family… nobody… I bet if I killed myself, no one would grieve…
I’m tired of anxiety constantly running my life. Bought concert tickets for tonight but am having a nervous break down and don’t beleive I’ll be going anymore. I’m to scared. I hate this I just wish I could enjoy myself for once.
I guess i could either give it a fancy title or just get to the point. Depression. Anxiety. Abuse.
I have actually not came out about it (abuse) and please do not think i am doing this so you feel sorry for me or anything! Yes at the age of 5 i was abused a lot till the age of 11. It wasn’t just by one person though. Since then i’ve always been scared and try my best to reduce attracting attention. i always blamed myself.
Last year, December, i realised i had depression and was diagnosed of it. Went to several people but none helped. Just […]
I made a promise to myself (for my family and friends) a long time ago that I wouldn’t kill myself unless I have tried everything I know of to make myself better. I’m surrounded by too many wonderful people that I know would be devastated if I committed suicide. (I know, poor me. I can’t help that the only thing fucked about my life is my own head.)
About 7 weeks ago I had decided to go through with it. I went to grab my car keys and Ayahausca jumped into my head. Fuck! Stupid promise. A few weeks before that my old boss told me […]
I really hate the word reality. I hate when my mom storms in to my room
and tells me that lying in bed and taking naps all the time isn’t reality. She tells me I have to get up and sometimes I feel like I can’t. I don’t want to and it would be heaven if I could stay in my bedroom forever. It’s my safe place and I feel like no one can hurt me here. Today my mom came in to my room and she told me I had to start […]
Call me an attention seeker. Call me what you will. But I know my intentions.
My anxiety makes me feel ugly. I can never do anything different and I want to so desperately. When I finally get the courage to do something different, my anxiety tells me I look so stupid. I see strangers look at me and I feel like they know it’s not how I usually look and they think I look stupid and shouldn’t do anything with myself.
I never wear makeup. But I look like a boy bum when I don’t and I feel so ugly. Tonight I put on makeup and did […]
I dont know what this is. My heart is beating out of my chest. I’m having a fucking PANIC attack like you wouldnt believe. Someone talk to me. I’ve not felt this since I was 15. This is scary as fuck. Like all my worst realities are going to come to pass because I’m thinking them into existence type deal. That’s not the reality but definitely how i feel.
I’m sorry I’m about to be all wordy, jumbled, and redundant and you probably don’t care about my life story, but I need an outlet.
I grew up with an ideal life. Friends–two best friends who all did everything together. Family–mom, dad, brother, sister. We always did all the family-esque things together.
We must have looked great from the outside.
Anxiety and depression is ruling my life and ruining it. I wish I could just snap out of it. The worst part is that I don’t even seem to want to change it. Everyday I seem to make choices which just allow it to get worse. I don’t go back to the doctors, which I know I should do. I should be taking medication, but I don’t. That would involve going back to the doctors to get a prescription. Going to the doctors makes me anxious. Getting help makes me anxious. I’ve tried before. It starts ok, but then I feel pressure to get better […]
My story starts in 2010. After a picture of me in underwear ends on internet and all my small city call me a whore all my “friends” started to stay away from me, because “no one wants do be friends with such a slut”, they said. The people I know started to ignore everything I was, all my qualities, and started to judge me just because that stupid pic. I was only 14. I suffered bullying, I had no friend. I couldn’t talk about this with my parents because I was afraid to let them down and ashamed for what I’ve done. So, I don’t […]
My name is jon im 15 and i guess i have social anxiety. i’ve always been very shy when I was younger and never really had any close friends. I went to school knowing I had no friends but I didn’t care because I really loved learning and that was the motivation I had for going. In the beginning of 4th grade I was diagnosed with leukemia (which is a type of cancer) and had to be taken out of school for 2 months. when I returned everyone acted so nice towards me for the rest of 4th and 5th grade and I still really […]
the main thing that holds me back from suicide is that my close family an friends have already experience 2 in the space of 5 months. its because i know the pain. i will never agree with my sister when she says its selfish. it is not selfish.
i will never agree with anyone when they say a singular person does not have the balls to do it, we do
i want to overdose every single day of my life
i dont understand the world
generations have changed things and we are moving for the better and also slowly for the worse, we dont know […]