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Apologies

by candice smith 3/10/2016

written by candice smith

To my future husband, I haven’t met you yet, and I probably never will. I’m sorry, I’m sorry I couldn’t be strong enough to have waited in this world for you. I’m sorry I killed our great love affair before it was even conceived.

To my unborn child/children, I’m sorry I’ll never get to bring you into this world, I’m sorry I’ll never get the opportunity to leave a part of myself to the next generation. Oh my dear babies I’m sorry I was too much of a mess that meant motherhood would always elude me.

To my future, I’m sorry the present destroyed my desire to […]

3/10/2016 3 comments

Apologies if I offended anyone.

by whiskered-fish 2/17/2016

written by whiskered-fish

I just realized that the title of my last post looks like it couldn’t been a play on “twix this rainbow.” Well, it ISN’T, and I’m sorry if anyone might’ve thought that at all. I’d never mock someone like that, sorry if it looked like I had.

2/17/2016 5 comments

Apologies and Things Left Unsaid

by Black_Heart2001 6/21/2015

written by Black_Heart2001

To everybody that I’ve hurt in my life, and all the lives that I’ve touched, I’m sorry. I am sorry for bringing myself into your life and bringing trouble along with me.

Anna –

You were the friend that was always there for me even though you were the one who betrayed me in the end. During our friendship, you threw me under the bus over and over again, but I forgave you each time, because I trust people too much and I forgive too easily. There were times when you were the best friend I could ever think of, and there were times when I thought […]

6/21/2015 0 comment

Apologies

by Harrison 12/19/2014

written by Harrison

They all seem to know who
I am supposed to be, not
So clear is it to me

How easily I fell, grasping
On to rancid ideals, leaving
Just whisps of my self. Believing

Their foolish words, imposed, freakish tones
Opened me up to the bones that bore Truth,
And that All, allowing me to be

So grim. Were the lessons learned?
Nothing left but to give thanks
For a life I could not live with
My self in their world, or any.

I’m sorry.

12/19/2014 0 comment

Out of 0-10: How suicidal are you?

by Sabi 12/17/2014

written by Sabi

Interesting self-assessment at the link below. (Apologies if it was posted before.) I would say most days I’m between 6 and 7, but I have spent quite a bit of time at a higher levels than that of course (including all points right up to 10). How about you?

http://natashatracy.com/mental-illness-issues/suicide/scale-suicide-suicidal-you/

And on that note, happy holidays everyone… yeah…

12/17/2014 33 comments

Apologies Syria

by RealTalk30 8/28/2013

written by RealTalk30

So sorry Syria,
It’s your turn now to suffer the relentless war machine we have created. This was never the “dream” of the people, but some one pressed the bottom and now the machine is unstoppable.
Our collective hands are in the air and our perspective noses are back to the floor, our febel eyes rolled back with our stubborn feet kicking pebbles in our absence of helpful words for reasoning.

“I guess..I guess..well idk!”

If we had control over ourselves..idk!
If we really believed in a better world for…idk!
And if we could change things for tomorrow […]

8/28/2013 25 comments

Apologies

by onlylonely 3/19/2013

written by onlylonely

I’m sorry I don’t meet their expectations for me.

I’m sorry I can’t find the motivation to work hard anymore.

I’m sorry I thought they would always be there for me.

I’m sorry I can’t stand the sight of my own reflection.

I’m sorry that I always sleep too much or not enough.

I’m sorry that I feel the need to lie to everyone about my feelings.

I’m sorry for wanting to kill myself,

and I’m sorry for not offing myself already.

3/19/2013 1 comment

The Boy With The Lies

by fallenangel48 3/3/2013

written by fallenangel48

We are gathered here today, brought together by sadness and a young girlâ€™s demise

A conclusion reached because of the boy with the lies

Her told her things each day, no one should have to hear

So often in fact, she lived in constant fear

She no longer looked forward, always looking back

Building up her defenses for the boy’s next attack

Day in and day out she heard the boy with the lies

Make fun of everything- from her feet to her eyes

Even the way that she walked was absurd

She remembered every mean thing she heard

Even when she was alone, […]

3/3/2013 8 comments

I’ll try

by bailey25 2/15/2013

written by bailey25

I’ll hold out for 2 more years. But if things don’t change by my 30th birthday, then I’m going to do it on that day at midnight. I’m tired of being stepped on, cast aside, lied to and generally fucked over, but I’m willing to try to make things better. This is the only promise I can keep in regards to taking my life. I’ve already written most of my letters to loved ones, letters of apologies and I’ll make sure I put them in a place where they can be found. I just hope that I won’t have to use them.

2/15/2013 3 comments

a rant from a struggling introvert

by alteisen99 10/22/2012

written by alteisen99

since i’m already here might as well vent out a little bit. maybe some input may give me a bit more perspective instead of using the option of death to calm me down.

turned 24 last month, introverted, depressed for the past 10 years or so, finding it difficult fitting in the modern world and i find it difficult to connect with people and a deeper level. i feel so detached from everything and everyone. i’m more often than not, isolated from the “real” world and watching other people live their lives to the fullest is making me wonder why i can’t do the same thing. […]

10/22/2012 6 comments

another apology letter…

by sleepxdeath 8/23/2012

written by sleepxdeath

I do not tend to be awful and immature.

Just a lot of changes becoming forth

A challenge, I may presume

I had let past and emotion get the best of me

This time, I have thought it over, now until forward into the future

I shall just focus to control my lifestyle

Apologies to your family, friends and mostly towards you

This time, I shall not let you down.

I shall try to fix what is left

but if on your behalf; if you chose, I shall stay away.

My apologies.

A friend.

P.S. If you want, I shall return some stuff back

8/23/2012 0 comment

Reassurance

by Good_Guy_KC 5/16/2012

written by Good_Guy_KC

I feel really abandoned. This is related to events occurring months ago, but I feel a resurgence of the emotional pain. All my friends from college save two stopped talking to me about a month or so after I graduated in December. When friends leave I usually let that happen because I know friends come and go; however, I’m twenty-three with no current future plans, so these friends were my only social network. And they just stopped communicating with me. They moved on, so I can’t blame them specifically, yet it still doesn’t change the fact that I’m upset and alone. I’m really well-meaning, and […]

5/16/2012 1 comment

Something to Make You Laugh (maybe)

by notinteresting1 4/5/2012

written by notinteresting1

Although I am very depressed at the moment, most of my previous posts are just long rants about that so I decided that, for Easter, I would post a true, Easter-related, funny story. Perhaps it will make you laugh, perhaps it won’t, either way it’s just a silly story from a girl desperate to *cough* check out early.

PS (I am not religious, this may offend those that are for my ignorance within the story).

When I was a child most Primary schools in Britain were somehow religious, even my school, which was not stated as religious, was run by a Christian headmaster who encouraged us to […]

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4/5/2012 10 comments

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Do You Believe in Signs

by QuixoticNomad 2/27/2012

written by QuixoticNomad

Do you believe in signs?

The most important relationship of my life ended a while ago. The relationship with the love of my life; the only person with whom I’ve felt such a strong connection. Stronger than that between my mother, my sister, all of my family. Stronger than anything I’ve felt with my friends(whom I consider to be my true family).

Both of us are mentally ill, suffering from similar maladies. Yet, one year ago(pretty much to the date) I was going through what I then considered to be the most trying time of my life. I was going on trial for a DUI with the […]

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2/27/2012 6 comments

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What a surprise.

by LilBear 1/29/2012

written by LilBear

This is going to be more of a rant really. Knowing me, a long(-ish?) post. My apologiesÂ (If anyone even goes on to read this) for probably many clichÃ©s and awful English. Apparently I’m a fairly good writer. Pah, I wonder who’d still think that after reading my journals? No, I think that people on here and around me are just kinder than I deserve. My friends deserve so much more than me (I’m sorry…).

But yeah, ‘what a surprise’. Choose to die. Fail. Find more reliable ways to die. Fail. Set a date: 101252. Ooh, what a shocker – fail. What’s my freaking problem this time? […]

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1/29/2012 10 comments

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Apologies.

by CJ 7/9/2009

written by CJ

I’m sorry to all of you whoÂ feel obligedÂ to answer to me because I’m a little whiny ***** who thinks she has problems when in reality other people who have had horrible things happen to them wish they could be in my position. I’m pathetic, and it’s about time you all realized that.

You know what is the most horrible facet to my personality, besides the billion other things? That I look for problems in my life so I can gripe about them. I will randomly be arrogant toward someone in my family just so I an hear them call me names. I love it when they […]

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7/9/2009 5 comments

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