Hi, my name is Liz. I don’t know how to start talking about my feelings, it seems like they haven’t been around for a while, The thing is, I turned 20 and realised that a whole moment in my life was skipped. Now, everything is basically wake up, go to college, go to work and sleep. It’s like the world no longer exist and I’m a machine. I’ve tried to get into society, to be around other people, but I just didn’t fit. It seems like everything is controlled by a biological rule, you need to have a good appearance so you will have the […]
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I don’t think I can do this anymore. I thought this would be a fresh start but the same things hit me over and over again. I’m on medication but it doesn’t seem to help and I’m broke, so broke I can’t afford to continue. I can’t focus or concentrate on what needs to get done. Right now, that’s my assignments. My lecturers have extended deadlines but I still can’t go through the hurdles.
My friends are frustrated with me. They just want me to get the work over and done with. But I can’t. I don’t understand the things I read anymore and soon I […]
I Have posted atleast twice on this website and I have told complete internet strangers my my deepest darkest thoughts  that I havent even told my friends and I feel comfortable  posting even when I am rarely happy
Today I was excited for the walking dead Tv show to come back on the zombies calm me for some weird reason but anyway I watch my baby nephew for 12 hours 6 days a week and i get paid 150 every two weeks for watching him on top of that since i have no job I am expected to cook and clean the home at the end of the day there […]
Why should you feel bad about your weight? I really have anxiety over my body and I really want to do the same procedure as last year, just stop eating and exercising. Why should people around you comment and judge you because out of your weight. Just because you look a little different, so people will often bully and push you down mentally sometimes physically. I have tried, or rather trying to lose weight but it does not help. Today’s young people they only see chicks with slender bodies and large breasts, they never see the inside of a person … I feel crappy about […]
Hi my name is Kim and I am 15. You’re probably going to think I’m just another overly dramatic high school girl. Im not I have been through more shit than people should have to go through by the time they are 15. My dad died when I was 11 but my suffering started earlier in life. My dad drank a lot and when he did he would physically abuse me but when I turned 9 he didn’t drink as often but I’m left with mental scarring and get scared if someone raises a hand near me. He got leukemia when I was 10 and […]
Im really scared… Im going to camp today for a week… Wat if i cant make friends cause I’m to shy … Wat if no one likes me… Wat if people see my cuts and scars …. Wat if people judge my appearance? All these things keep swirling around in my head.. I’ve been to this camp every year since i was 7 but i wasn’t depressed or cutting b4 i was 12.. The staff know me quite well but theres always new kids… Idk wat to do -.- Â /:
Does anyone else feel disgusted with themselves? I feel embarrassed  just being myself sometimes. Today I was with a friend, just talking and walking around the neighborhood and the whole time all I did was fidget and think about how I hate my appearance and hope that nobody is looking at me. It’s so hard to be happy.
My mom just gave birth to a baby girl which means i now have 4 sisters. I’m afraid that she’ll end up to hate the world,to feel unwanted and to feel like she needs to be perfect like the other 3. I want this baby to be positive about everything,to believe,to hope,to think that everything isn’t based on appearance and that everyone should be excepted. I want her to be open minded and open hearted like i am. Me as the first born watched as my mother attempted to raise us all in hate but i was the only one able to wake up and […]
I wouldn’t have pictured myself here 3 years ago, let alone a week ago. I have failed so many. I have caused stresses for family and nearly every person’s life I have touched. My family chooses to love me because they are good people. They are not the type of people who deserve pain. Thank you for your effort. I had good intentions with my life 7-8 years ago but I came across one too many closed doors. I stayed strong. Believing, good is repaid with good and hard work leads to better futures. This was not the case for me. I am not in denial, this is […]
I said: “Everyone has problems.”
You said: “You don’t. Your life is perfect.”
I didn’t argue.
But I did come on here right after you left and started writing this whilst inside me everything’s all jumbled up and messy and broken.
We all have our problems, okay. I might not have a horrible home life like you. I might not have been through the same things as you. But let me promise you: I have plenty of problems.
Yes, I have what looks like the perfect life- loving family, nice house, plenty of money etc. And I do actually have all of those things. My parents raised me perfectly and I […]
Daily I think about suicide, but I don’t act on it. It’s just that, combined with school, discovering my sexuality, my appearance and family problems, I don’t know what else to do. Every time I think about this, I think I’m being irrational, but I still can’t help the urge to do it. One thing that really led me to this was discovering I was sexually attracted to girls. Being a girl myself, I find this very hard to understand, due to the fact that I’ve had crushes on guys in the past.
When I think back on it now, sometimes I wonder whether this was […]
I miss being happy.
I find myself wishing by chance someone will just hit me in a car crash. Shoot me. Stab me. Beat me into a coma. Hell there is bleach in the next room.
I don’t know why I’m so sad, I wrote on here the other day thinking it would help. My life is good after all I am just so tired of looking like I’m so happy when I am not. It takes work putting on a constant show and making appearance. I want to cry…..
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just to get it out here,hey,i’m ricardo and i’m 15 years old(i know it’s pretty young)
i have been diagnosed with major depression about a month ago..
i had been heartbroken about 7 times by now and for the first time in my life i have found a girl who actually likes me for who i am,
at home i’m getting bullied for my appearance,i have a rather emo look..and my brothers can’t seem to handle me like a nomal person,
anyways,when i’m at home i don’t feel all too great,i have cut myself several times which i am not proud of,
my best friend […]
Well, I’ve lost my mind. I don’t have a bad life, it’s the way i look. I’ve had to deal with blepharitis in my eyes, it doesn’t look appealing. my teeth arn’t great, but i get braces next month. But what’s really getting me down is my longer than average neck. it just looks so long and stupid and I just can’t take it. I hate the way i look, i hate the person I am.
I’m 16, i’m trying my best to work on my appearance so it doesn’t look as long. but, life is to hard. The only thing stopping me from killing myself […]
I’m 19 now and I’ve been obsessed with suicide for about 28 months (to be precise :P) I don’t remember how it began… when I was 16 I started feeling depressed, literally because I hated myself, especially my appearance. I remember crying every time I looked in the mirror and crying randomly in public. I didn’t tell anyone… I don’t like talking about my problems to people I know well. Another reason I hated myself so much was because I felt so odd. I got so frustrated with myself and my inability to hold a conversation. I didn’t ever think of suicide at that time […]
 I thought my life would be extraordinary. I have looks, intelligence, and charm, yet it all went so wrong. I started puberty at an alarmingly young age-when I was 10 I looked 16. This really upset my father, so he decided to deal with it by putting loads of pressure on me to excel and by saying hurtful comments about my appearance and life. This shredded my self-esteem, causing me to spend my high school years scared and lonely. Then my freshman year of college, I met a 400 pound guy who was flunking out of school and decided to hitch my wagon to […]
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