just to get it out here,hey,i’m ricardo and i’m 15 years old(i know it’s pretty young)
i have been diagnosed with major depression about a month ago..
i had been heartbroken about 7 times by now and for the first time in my life i have found a girl who actually likes me for who i am,
at home i’m getting bullied for my appearance,i have a rather emo look..and my brothers can’t seem to handle me like a nomal person,
anyways,when i’m at home i don’t feel all too great,i have cut myself several times which i am not proud of,
my best friend introduced me to a classmate of him and we immediately fell in love.
her mom thinks i am a bad influence to her and she doesn’t want me around her anymore,
we do hang around just once a week at my place,and whenever she’s with me my parents and brother behave normally.
it really brings me down that i can only see her once a week,and whenever she isn’t here i cry my eyes red..
does anyone have advice?
thanks in advance.
R.
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2 comments
Easier to be the ’emo’ kid than the metalhead~ All I gotta say is don’t depend on one person for your happiness. Trust me. People leave. Some stay. Hey, throw away the blade/razor and switch to more constructive outlets, ones that will help improve your outlook on life, etc. You can’t keep cutting yourself since you’re not proud of it, eh? Teenage love. Somebody here might give advice on that. Then again, this is Suicide Project. Most of the older folks here focus on methods, death…. Well you get the picture.
Hey,
I am 23 but I know exactly how you feel. I guess I feel pretty young emotionally…it sucks to be stuck being 15 years old emotionally when you are 23 (i am talking about myself). Anyway, I would agree, don’t put all your hopes in this one girl. She may be awesome, but she may not be there for you forever. If you depend upon her, it will only lead to you being super depressed and super suicidal if she leaves. You are only 15 and I know it is easier said than done – to not depend on someone that is…i say it but cannot follow through with it..but you must try at least. I turn to my blade too. I am pretty emo myself…I don’t think there is anything wrong with having your own style. Focus on things that you like rather than people. A good friend once said…focus on yourself and the things you like because people tend to flake out!
Hope this helps ya!
**Hugs**