Hey guys, my name is Fabienne, I’m 17 and from New Zealand and I have been at war with myself since I was born. Literally. Mum said ‘you came into this world not really wanting to live’ so I guess life-long depression is my diagnosis. I’ve been bullied for having eczema since I was 5, being called names like “Scabby” and things like that, then was ostracized from age 6 through till age 14 at school. I moved schools in Spetember 2009 and started to get boys attention for the first time and ended up giving my body to them so I could feel ‘normal’ […]
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My name is J. Â I was born in Portland, OR on January 22nd, 1988. Â My father’s name was Cris, my mother’s name is Laura. Â They were both 34 when they had me. Â To the outside world, they were practically the perfect couple (as I am told). Â My father played college football, was of genius level intelligence, tall and handsome, and loved by all. Â My mother was a petite 5 foot 5 brunette, who was a State champion swimmer in Highschool, and met my father while waitressing in Portland. Â However, despite all these stories I was told, I found it hard to believe any of it […]
I’m surprised that people responded to my post about wanting to die probably because I’m used to being ignored when I need help the most. That’s right – ignored. It’s called growing up with a depressed, emotionally distant mother who was too preoccupied with her own problems to give her baby girl the nurturing and love she needed. Sneer if you want. Whatever. I don’t give a fuck. I’ve spent years in therapy, group therapy, on medications, making crazy, fucked up choices that intellectually I could not defend or understand yet I acted on anyway. I finally, finally put it all together: not enough of […]
I can honestly say you’ve been on my mind all since i started talking to you,
I look at our conversations all the time, these memories come back to life
And it hurts inside
I remeber when you lied, you said you loved me,
That time when your called me our princess and baby girl
i remeber the simple things, i remeber till i cry
but the one thing i wanna forget is goodbye<3
He’s…expecting.
Josh is expecting a baby with her…
If you’ve read my other stuff about Josh, you’d know that he’s the one I’ve been in love with since I was 15 years old and was my best friend since I was 12. The one that told me he’d always love me and cried when I had to leave. The one that used to lay out with me and watch the stars burn.
They’ve been dating for three years, but it never really hit me that they were serious. I never thought he’d have a child with her..and not me. He always gave me the impression that […]
I’m going to write this out here, not because you are likely to ever see this (almost certainly you’ll never see this). I know you stumble around these sites (not necessarily this one). Instead, I’m writing this because this is all a little cathartic for me. It’s kind of my own therapy for coping, to stumble around these sites.
In the few years that we have known each other, you have become my best friend, and I have become yours. You know this because we walked and talked a few days ago, watched the sunset in the park and refound each other. At least I refound […]
Let me say first that though my life has been very hard for a woman that has only lived in this world for 24 years, I have been blessed with two beautiful children. Even though I have these angels with me everyday I still find myself locked in my closet uncontrollable crying with something in my head telling me my family would be better off without me. What role do I play in this world that I deserve to live. Let me start from the beginning of my life…. I was born into a abusive family where I witnessed my father beat my mother and […]
Why?
I was only 5 years old. I was just a little girl. I didn’t know anything about sex or touching. But than it happened. I was at my uncles house because my mom and dad were working that night. Me and my little baby brother were sitting in my uncles lap that night. My little brother finally fell asleep. We were watching a movie, I remember the movie got to the part about the yellow brick road. My uncle put his hand down my Pj’s and put his finger in my butt. I remember it hurt really bad and I was tearing up. I […]
Nothing left to live for… once chance at giving them a nice life…
by codeslinger
written by codeslinger
I have been addicted to drugs for half of my 30 years on this earth…. I thought if I got married and had some children that it would fill the hole in my heart.  I was able to stop using for a little while, but the desire to get high never goes away. I started using again and eventually my wife took my kids and filled a PFA to keep me away from them. I have never hurt her or the kids, but now I am looked at like a wife-beat. I despise those people who hit women, and that’s what hurts the most…
I do not want my kids to look at their junkie dad […]
I had a dream last night that I had a baby girl. Then almost emmidiately she was a toddler, and I kept trying to hold her, keep her little. But within 20 min, she was pretty much a teenager… I wanted to keep her little, at least for a while. No one should be forced to grow up so fast….
well i guess ill start with my story since some of yall on here are new and i havent posted in awhile. when i was little the one man in my life who was supposed to be there for me left { my dad } and told my mom he hoped i died and was born with aids luckly i wasnt i was just born sick then my mom got with another man who i grew to love and called dad they broke up but i still went to his house with my new half sister everyweekend { to keep you unconfussed later i have […]
My mom just gave birth to a baby girl which means i now have 4 sisters. I’m afraid that she’ll end up to hate the world,to feel unwanted and to feel like she needs to be perfect like the other 3. I want this baby to be positive about everything,to believe,to hope,to think that everything isn’t based on appearance and that everyone should be excepted. I want her to be open minded and open hearted like i am. Me as the first born watched as my mother attempted to raise us all in hate but i was the only one able to wake up and […]
my baby girl loves me. I know she does. I love her, so I hold her as I cry, or I force myself to smile back at her. It feels like my life is falling apart right now. Maybe it’s not, but how do I know? I have made so many mistakes. And I googled the phrase “would someone care if I die”, even though I know the answer. She would care. She loves me, and I love her. So I bear on. And sometimes I think :”she doesn’t deserve a broken mother” maybe if I… But no. No one will love her as much […]
For the past two years my life has been completely screwed over because of the sickest most evil selfish woman i have ever had the misfortune to meet. We had a beautiful baby girl togeather. Afterwards when I signed the birth cert she said to me “hah, now youre gonna pay” but I only realised after she kicked me out three weeks later that she only wanted me as a means of having a kid and when I signed the birth cert she could then feel free to kick me out of the house and take me to court and try to get as much […]
I am a 26 year old guy that came from a great family, married an incredible women, and fathered the most precious little girl 2 years ago last month! My life was amazing and then I became addicted to prescripton drugs. My entire world has been turned upside down and I have deeply deeply hurt my amazing wife (who left me in Febuary) my parents, my siblings, and my baby girl. I have gone through rehab and I go to meetings, but tonight I found out that my wife is ready to move forward with her life and that I am not included in those […]