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by 42 9/7/2015

written by 42

Lately, I’ve been thinking a lot about my friend who – surprise surprise – killed himself. It’s been over 3 years since he left. I was so crushed and felt SO guilty for about a… month. Yeah, it took me only like 30 days to get over the fact that somebody important to me died and that I might have actually pushed that important somebody a little towards the edge. Guess I’m one cold-hearted motherfokker. But despite not really giving a single disco dancing piece of poo about this once-so-tragic-but-not-anymore occurrence, I can safely say that I will never forget this little drama boy.

But hey, […]

9/7/2015 5 comments

What did I ever do to deserve this????

by BrokenAngel8 9/7/2015

written by BrokenAngel8

Hey guys sorry I haven’t been writing on here in a while. My junior year of college started a few weeks ago. This past weekend was rough 2nd E.R. visit in two months ( both for different reasons), feeling shitty, Accidentally cut my foot open when I bumped into a glass candle while shopping at bath and body works. The bottom end of it landed on my left foot broken part down. Thank goodness it only left a small scar on my foot, ended up being betrayed by a friend at church that I thought I could trust. Now I keep seeing photos and statuses […]

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Diagnostic report and I

by cocoki 9/7/2015

written by cocoki

The feelings started coming back again that sort of empty worthless feeling and I’m still trying to fight it even now my trying not to cry

I read my Diagnostic report today for the forst time ever and I was like someone literally put all my bad quality in a “nice” little box and I realised just how pointless I really am I use to think that I can use what I DO have to my advantage but what I do have isn’t going to help me be successful in a ordinary part time job and I isn’t going to make me progress onto being happy and […]

9/7/2015 0 comment

the knife

by melodychild 9/6/2015

written by melodychild

I’m back to the knife

not the sharp ones I’m used to

don’t want to cut too deep

but can’t seem to cut deep enough

can’t draw blood

too afraid

too afrad to relapse

needing medical attention

having people worry

seeing the pain in their eyes

but I want to draw blood

not too much

just a little

but I can’t seem to do it

all I make are red marks on my arm

like scratches from a stick

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Heavy Hearts

by theunknownxx 9/6/2015

written by theunknownxx

I’m not really sure what I want to say here…I feel like I’m doing better now, I’m out of counseling, back in school, still facing challenges. I’m still trying to be the person I want to be, but I find it difficult since I’m stubborn and always focus on the past, and I still get anxiety around people I don’t know, and I still have vengeance for those who hurt me or are hurting, and I don’t want to be like that… Anyone know good tips or advice to help me be a better compassionate person?

9/6/2015 2 comments

Burned inside my head, Images of everything I had.

by Rotted_Flesh 9/6/2015

written by Rotted_Flesh

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=46teotoyLiw

What’s your excuse for all of this?
It’s 12 o’clock and it’s times like these I know for sure won’t be missed
but for now, it’ll always be raining in my mind
I can’t take back what I said, words that go your way seem to disconnect
It’s burning me inside and out, but yet my heart’s so cold.
It’s another night I have to face being all alone.
I never thought it was possible, but I’m seeing shades of grey.
This weight you left me, just gave you away.
I won’t face today, all my thoughts keep bringing me down
Not a single […]

9/6/2015 1 comment

We’e (I’ve) Got Issues (Continued)

by kathunt15 9/5/2015

written by kathunt15

Sometimes I feel as though I’ve done all I can do; other times I feel as though I haven’t done anything at all.

In late October/early November of 2014, I became extremely ill and had to be taken to the clinic. There, I was seen by a doctor, and while she was talking, I suddenly because very light headed. Then I had tunnel vision, and everything went black.

I woke up to find myself surrounded by people, all leaning over me, and laying down on the cold, harsh tile floor. I felt a pounding headache, where I had evidently hit my head when I fell of the […]

9/5/2015 0 comment

We’ve (I’ve) Got Issues

by kathunt15 9/5/2015

written by kathunt15

June 27, 2015 at 6:15 AM

From: Kathryn Marie Hunter (Me)

To: Rick and Maggie Hunter (My parents)

This letter may come as a surprise to you, but I assure that it was a long time coming. Before this past week, I didn’t have the support to do this, but now I’m surrounded by people willing to help. This isn’t to upset you, but rather to give you a rude awakening.

The Katy you know is not the real one. The real me has hidden from you since 3rd grade, and has stayed in hiding until now. You have not noticed this, as you believe fallacies, and deny the […]

9/5/2015 5 comments

Feelings Are Meh

by brodie3750 9/5/2015

written by brodie3750

I absorb negative emotions so quickly and frequently. I don’t even have any reason to be upset at life. I’m just physically drained all the time.

I remember back in high school and earlier, I was always bright and full of life etc, but HS just ruined me. That’s not to say I had a rough time through it, I’m an average dude, had friends and did okay on subjects. But I was always invested in the idea of having a partner. Having someone to love and care for. And that want has slowly been stripped back piece by piece and I just don’t even try […]

9/5/2015 5 comments

Losing yourself

by Rotted_Flesh 9/5/2015

written by Rotted_Flesh

There was a time when I was fairly content with life. Took a lot of things for granted, things I should’ve cherished but instead just let them pass me by. I let myself just dwindle, sliding down further without me even knowing it. I wish there was a way I could go back in time and tell my reckless, dumb self to be more wary and careful. This all stemmed from me never looking at myself with love, I always thought I had to prove something, to be someone I was never meant to be. I should’ve just accepted who I was. If life presents […]

9/5/2015 1 comment

Anyone else out there depressed, and feeling like hell, but not suicidal?

by thelost 9/4/2015

written by thelost

I don’t know why I go on anymore, it’d be easiest to give it a fucking rest and be the recluse I’m meant to be. I just drag myself through this hell again and again. I have nobody else to blame but myself for the way I feel. I just wish sometimes I wasn’t so alone, but the thing is that it’s my fault and there’s no good excuse for it. Most days I can force the smile on my face to be real enough that even I believe it, for a time at least. The thing is that no matter how long I smile […]

9/4/2015 3 comments

I will overcome my mistakes!

by dep 9/4/2015

written by dep

I feel very depressed when I look at my 17-year-old self and remember the hasty choices that I made regarding my career. I’ve ever been very responsible with my school activities and, indeed, I’ve ever excelled; however, fear and anxiety usually devoured my guts so that I couldn’t take the risks and apply to a more profitable major/career at college. When I see my friends who weren’t afraid, chose the right thing and succeeded, I do just want to die; because time doesn’t go back and it sounds like I threw all my opportunities away. Today I’m 27 and I see no other solution than starting again from zero; […]

9/4/2015 3 comments

I guess its over

by wannabedeadcat05 9/3/2015

written by wannabedeadcat05

These past few months have been hell, i moved out from my dads place after having my baby to live with my mom hoping things would be better with her and they were for a year. Until she and i got into a fight, over my boyfriend. She was right, i was a prick but things were never the same after that, we fought a lot. Up until the point where she started demanding rent, got a job but i wasnt able to.keep it because of my anxiety amd depression. My mistake. Fast foward, she called the police on me after my sister (18), and […]

9/3/2015 7 comments

I tried to kill myself this morning.

by Delisnak 9/3/2015

written by Delisnak

yup title says it all. swallowed 20 aprin i didnt even fucking cry i was shaking though after about 10 minutes i felt fine and went to school. when i got there i was already feeling sick so i laid my head on my friends lap. it hurt to move and talk i had no strength. i told him what i did but he didnt get the hint to go get the nurse.so me myself had to walk around school from my class i was in to the office to my locker back to the class to the office. didnt throw up untill […]

9/3/2015 4 comments

Societies “Monster”

by Im-so-done-here 9/3/2015

written by Im-so-done-here

I’ve lost everything, my friends, my sister, my happiness. I use to be the happy person that would high five everyone in the hallway, the person you could count on. “Your the problem” “your not good enough” “why would I wanna hang out with a freak like you’ is all I hear now. Rejection and misery welcome me like my blanket at night. My friend’s all turned their back on me, and my sister, the only family I felt I could actually talk to and enjoy, is gone from this world, now all I have is my yorkie, I went into homeschool because the bullying […]

9/3/2015 4 comments

boom

by neptune 9/3/2015

written by neptune

honestly i’m just so fucking tired of everything.

i’ve gone past the stage of feeling depressed, to the feeling empty and numb inside. everyday, i’m walking around like a zombie, my mind blank and not really listening to anything, yet on the outer side, i seem to be laughing and socialising. and it wows me just how much a smile can hide. haha.

what future do i have in life? everyday, it’s just the same thing over and over again, if you’re a student, going to school, coming back home, occasional trips out with your friends, if you’re a working adult, going to work, coming back home, […]

9/3/2015 3 comments

Eleven Years

by ephemeropteron 9/2/2015

written by ephemeropteron

It was on this day eleven years ago that I decided to die. I was seventeen, and while I won’t violate policy by stating my method, the short story is that it was ineffective.

Ever since I was 12 or so, living has quite simply felt wrong. But I dealt with it. This fundamental issue was exacerbated by an issue that arose soon after. I had a really good friend, but every time she had a boyfriend, I got ridiculously jealous. Oddly enough, I always found a way to explain away my feelings. When similar situations arose in subsequent years, I concocted all kinds of ridiculous […]

9/2/2015 5 comments

“holes”

by wndozh8er 9/2/2015

written by wndozh8er

Holes in the front, holes in the back

Pink holes, brown holes, and even black

Some holes are smelly, hidden benethe

Oher holes peck your cute little cheeks

intake, outtake, holes can do it all

Some holes feel good, and some are very small

We came from a hole, and will be buried in one too

In the grand scheme of things, holes are me and you.

9/2/2015 15 comments

There’s always a reason

by debz85 9/2/2015

written by debz85

It was around 7 years ago I tried to end it all, I was a single mum and couldn’t cope anymore. I was lucky as my parents would have my daughter over night once every two weeks so I could go out. I loved to go out and drink and drink until I felt numb, I abused myself and my body I let men use me for sex. One night though I’d just had enough I couldn’t do it anymore I couldn’t live with myself for what I was doing i was drinking everyday I never ate I smoked weed aswell. People started judging me […]

9/2/2015 1 comment

just rambling…

by Delisnak 9/1/2015

written by Delisnak

my life is at bay nothing bad but the ache in my heart. i really miss him but he seems over me. i fucking knew one of us was gonna get too attached and it was me. dammit i just want to forget about him. go back the few weeks i fell for him and change how things happened. my only 2 friends are being supportive and keeping me busy. my mind always wonders to him. everyday i think about him and i go to walk up to him but i see that hes with hes friends and today he was with a girl so […]

9/1/2015 1 comment

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