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Out of spite

by jennjenn 4/27/2015

written by jennjenn

I want to do it, just out of spite. Won’t change a thing for him. Maybe a little pity from his family. Good excuse to do some drugs again. He doesn’t hear a fing thing i say, thats if im allowed to talk. Save my life, bring me back for what, to torture me. Homeless isn’t fun. Thats more of an early twenties thing. Florida is hot and people are cruel. I just want somebody to give a sh$t about me.

I really just want one of you dumb fing kids to listen, but no one will. It will happen to you. You aren’t invincible. Rape, […]

4/27/2015 4 comments

Is it worth it?

by TheRoadSoFar 4/26/2015

written by TheRoadSoFar

Is it worth it to be sad for loving someone who doesn’t love you back?
Is it worth it to hear all about how much she loves that guy, when in reality all you want is for her to love you?
Is it worth it to hear every single day about that guy that she loves so much, just to not lose her friendship?
Is it worth it to be everyday, every hour, at her side, faking to be okay, when in reality you’re in pain?
Is it worth it to keep the fact that I love her so much as a secret so that […]

4/26/2015 7 comments

What I want

by Kenntouchthiss 4/26/2015

written by Kenntouchthiss

I thought I’d feel better when you get back.
When you were here I felt like I could do something right.
And when you left it just left me feeling empty
Now that you’re back, I thought I’d have a purpose again
Trying to help you, because I thought it would help me
Trying to figure out ways to make you happy
Of course it wouldn’t be easy.
Definitely one of the hardest things to do is get better
I thought I’d be able to help you get better, but
Even that I can’t do.

You’ll see what I want to be, when you get back […]

4/26/2015 1 comment

I . . . don’t . . . . want .. . .. to . . . . .

by Bisban 4/25/2015

written by Bisban

I had to change the music, but it’s already all too late. If I were in it’s stability, it would be like writing a book status as I sit. I’ve already said every words. The dungeon that I am battling. But no-one will ever know. The destination . . . isn’t coming back. Attacked, from every which way . . . The name of a dark one makes his name and view down deeper and clearer. The ten-year cycle that my mom told me about, it isn’t over. The hardest thing, it exist now . . . But what is it. This night shall disappear, […]

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4/25/2015 1 comment

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I’m back to self medicating

by goingnumb 4/25/2015

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4/25/2015 4 comments

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It slips from me.

by cephalus 4/24/2015

written by cephalus

Your line, cast in the water. You feel the tugs, its like you caught something.
Something you wont let go. Only, at the same time, it pulls you in, under. You
don’t even notice.

Somehow you are both breathing, alive in each others worlds. Both cast, both reeled in.

Both caught.

One day, the line snaps. You find yourself shivering, wet, on the shore. You
try to go back, your lungs fill with water. Gasping for air, choking. You
strive, you push on. Darkness surrounds. Red appears in your peripheral.

You see a glimmer in the murkiness. You reach out. They dart away.

Still you stay.

You don’t need air, not […]

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4/24/2015 4 comments

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that one thing

by worthless_loser 73 4/23/2015

written by worthless_loser 73

I think most of us here have a lot in common. Details might be different from situation to situation, but at the core there are a lot of similarities.

Some here have a reason to live, and I think that is great. Some, like me, don’t. And that sucks.

But, for most of us in that second group, we have another thing in common. There is that one thing that could change that.

For me that one thing is quite simple. If only if she would just be my friend again. Not asking for anything more than that. Just friendship.

Even if the possibility of getting back together wouldn’t […]

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4/23/2015 3 comments

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i hate sleep

by hiitsme0819 4/22/2015

written by hiitsme0819

no wander i have insomnia whenever i do get any sleep i wake up disappointed that im awake and still in this shithole of an existence i wish ending it was easier i accidentally od’d 5 month back hasnt been a day since that i havnt wished i was alone when it happened i was actually dead and happened to be around people with the means to bring me back dont remember any pain or anything i drifted off and came to in a tub of cold water at least i stopped using shortly after but how i wish i could drift away again never […]

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why

by radi0active-f_ckup 4/22/2015

written by radi0active-f_ckup

I will never understand why I did it, but I did. I let him take control of me, & I let him take all of me. He took away all of the innocence that I had. I was 13 at the time, & he was 24. I knew it was wrong, & I have hated myself for it ever since, but I let him sleep with me. I don’t even know if I gave consent anymore. Not because I regret it, but because of me being so young & looking up to him. Did he just manipulate me, or did I give consent? I don’t […]

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4/22/2015 5 comments

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up all night

by delsnak 4/22/2015

written by delsnak

I cant sleep. I feel more alive in my dreams then i do in real life. When i wake up i sit and cry before putting on a fake smile and going to school. Im a pretty shy kid, i guess you could call me a nerd. got good grades but there not the best and i spend most of my time reading blocking out the real world. Anyways, back to the sleeping problem. I fall asleep around 12 at night and the problem is i cant stay asleep. i dream, wake up and cry, and go back to sleep. most of my nights are […]

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4/22/2015 2 comments

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It’s time for Action

by JustReallySad 4/21/2015

written by JustReallySad

Okay, so this divorce thing has been dragging on for a year. It’s not what I wanted. Sure I could have been a better husband, but that doesn’t really matter now. Have a court appearance next week, hopefully that will resolve the thing once and for all. Visiting with our son tomorrow, I have to try really hard not to talk to him about her. But really the big thing is we’re not getting back together. So I’ve been laying around mostly feeling sorry for myself. I think it’s time to get up off my ass and start trying to build some sort of new […]

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4/21/2015 6 comments

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magic pill

by worthless_loser 73 4/21/2015

written by worthless_loser 73

I wish there was this magic pill out there. Actually, it really doesn’t even have to be a pill. It could be any form. Solution, injection, whatever.

This is how it would work: Once you take it, there is no turning back. No one and nothing can reverse it.

The first 15 minutes you are fine. Gives you time to write a last minute note, record a video, make a phone call, whatever it is you want to do.

At 15 minutes you rapidly start to feel sleepy. You have to lie down. Your speech becomes labored and slurred. Your thoughts are muddled.

At 30 minutes you are completely […]

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4/21/2015 3 comments

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My story</3

by Kya-bug 4/21/2015

written by Kya-bug

My story starts when I was little, my mom was seventeen going on eighteen when she had me and my sister. She struggled to make ends meet and she still wanted to go out and have fun like any young mom would, my father wasn’t around for the first three years of my life so my mom used to find babysitters or drop us off with family, she would be gone for night and nights on end my family told me. When I turned three me and my sister were dropped off with my aunt and uncle and custody was handed over to them, my mom […]

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4/21/2015 2 comments

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my best friend is a jerk

by bnubs1 4/20/2015

written by bnubs1

my best friend has turned into a total jerk lately. he has literally taken the only thing i cared about and then threw it away like it was trash. he’s taken the past two girls I’ve actually liked from me one of them while he was still hooking up with my ex-girlfriend. he’s stopped talking to me completely and still tries to hang out with all our other friends without me. granted we all talk about it behind his back and we all kinda hate him now. i had decided this guy was gonna be my best man at my wedding. we’ve known each other […]

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4/20/2015 1 comment

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Why I’m Here

by louise52 4/20/2015

written by louise52

My story is both hair-raising and mundane at the same time. I was a very promising student, talented musically and didn’t have too bad a childhood, but went down with clinical depression aged 19. Back then there was not so much awareness of the condition so I didn’t really get any effective help. Depression through my twenties came and went, I tried out ‘alternative’ lifestyles and was somewhat of a political activist, I didn’t pursue a career because it was kind of fashionable in my circle to be a dropout I guess. Also the episodes of depression would hit hard, still undiagnosed, still not really […]

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4/20/2015 4 comments

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Clouds

by cephalus 4/20/2015

written by cephalus

Set to the music “The Fool on the Hill.”

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UNfS9Ywb2Cc

I have become the clouds. No feelings, just expression. They only appreciate in passing. A compliment here, a compliment there, their heads turn back, to the ground. Beautiful, for those that look. But I am not beautiful, its just a point of view. Clouds at night, hidden from everyone. Unable to see no matter how hard you strain. Sadness, happiness, productive. Irrelevant. No one understands the work that goes into forming me. The sun, creating a phase transition of water, condensing back down… I form rain, snow, thunder. Some hate, others love. Emotionless either way. Some fly […]

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4/20/2015 3 comments

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This world is boring , boring world . why movies, games, anime/manga, fantasy / imagination is better than this world / better than life / real life / real world / reality ?

by niki 4/20/2015

written by niki

I hate this world .
This world is so boring , boring world !
Why movies , games , anime / manga, & fantasy / imagination is better than this world / better than life / real life / real world / reality ?

everyday life is the same : wake up, eat, go to school/work, boring, then go back home, eat, then sleep, then repeat again.
but movie / game / anime / manga / comics / books are much more exciting & interesting than this boring life !
for example: like in the world / universe of Harry Potter, Avatar, Lord of the Rings, […]

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4/20/2015 5 comments

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Two Steps Forward, One Step Back

by Matt 4/18/2015

written by Matt

There was a time in my life, not so long ago, when I could pass for normal.

Probably because, for all intents and purposes, I was normal.

I did normal things, ate normal food, took normal shows, I was thoroughly unexceptional.

Not to say I’m exceptional now, but you get my meaning.

No one ever said it’d be easy to get back to that place in my life.

But for the first time in a long time, I can see the horizon.

Those bastards were right, time must heal all wounds.

No longer am I taking one step forward and two back.

I’m making progress.

Two steps forward, one step back.

Now only a million […]

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one choice

by worthless_loser 73 4/18/2015

written by worthless_loser 73

Sometimes I wonder what I would do if I was given a choice: go back and make one change in the most critical moment, or just do nothing and be in the same position I am now?

For me that critical moment was actually a series of tiny interconnected moments. Our friendship escalated to flirtation. At first just innocent, then mischievous, then naughty, and in the end serious.

What if I could go to that exact moment when we decided to cross the line? Would I back out now, knowing what I know? Knowing that I have lost everything, including my will to live?

But if […]

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4/18/2015 1 comment

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There’s Hell To Pay

by Matt 4/18/2015

written by Matt

I rambled with the worst of them.

Fell in love with a harlequin.

Saw the darkest hearts of men.

And I saw myself staring back again.

I am so fucking selfish.

So self-absorbed.

So unworthy.

I think I’m a monster.

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4/18/2015 4 comments

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