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He isn’t coming back

by three.moons 12/26/2014

written by three.moons

I’ve been trying to believe that he is, but it’s stupid and crazy and i’m giving up hope.

And sadly now that i feel like this I don’t have any hope or happiness to toss around to anyone else. I’m back to wishing I could find an easy way to end my shit lonely existence. There is no easy way of course, we all know that. But there are ways.

If I could erase the memories it wouldn’t be so bad but that’s impossible. If I could shut off how I feel and how I felt then, that would solve this too but that won’t happen either. […]

12/26/2014 6 comments

christmas spirit

by tc13 12/26/2014

written by tc13

wow, folks, just had good news.landlord giving me til the 31st. yeah. a little more time to straighten things out. not much, but more than i had. i dont feel so bad squatting here now. i have permission. that and he feels bad about tossing me out in the snow. ( if he only knew, eh, tm,lol) one more small worry eased. so the magic and miracles continue.HOHOHO,HAHAHA and a couple of falala’s. keep trying my friends, the shit eventually breaks open, it hard, dark and tough, but with each others help we will get through this. i love all of you, and want your […]

12/26/2014 3 comments

RIP

by dreamsinwhichimdying 12/25/2014

written by dreamsinwhichimdying

I remember last December 26. My grandfather’s birthday is the 27th, so we were driving down to Pittsburgh to see him. I was texting this girl I liked, when out of the blue, she told me that our middle school art teacher’s wife had just found him hanging in his art studio. I immediately got my mom to turn around the car and go home. A year later, I still can’t believe he’s gone. He was the most wonderful man I ever had the privilege to know. I remember how, on the first day of class each year, he would do magic tricks for us. […]

12/25/2014 1 comment

I just wish someone cared about me.

by jcanida56 12/25/2014

written by jcanida56

Christmas without you is hell…..we never had family to have over, or the money to have the “average” Christmas……but I miss going out of my way to get you a lot of nice gifts, because I enjoyed seeing you smile. And it always made your worthless scumbag of a husband angry bc the only reason why he even got that $10 gift card is bc you made me get him something…..a pile of shit in a box crossed my mind a few times……as crappy of a mother as you were, I always loved you with all my heart. You were my bestfriend. I knew you […]

12/25/2014 2 comments

Mistakes.

by unbrokenangel 12/25/2014

written by unbrokenangel

Why are we always remembered for our mistakes? It’s like you do one bad thing and it sticks with you forever. I made a huge mistake and I regret it. I’m so scared that everyone is going to find out what it is. It’s bad enough that it made the papers. I don’t want to go to school because I feel like everyone already knows and they are talking about it. Like why can’t they just ignore my stupid mistake and think of the good things I’ve attempted. But wait society doesn’t work that way.

12/25/2014 7 comments

Me.

by unbrokenangel 12/25/2014

written by unbrokenangel

So hey I’m new here so please don’t judge me with what I post.

I’ve had suicidal thoughts since sixth grade. I’m now in tenth. I’ve kept telling myself to not worry that it will get better. That’s only a lie though. It’s gotten way worse. Especially high school. This past year I’ve made mistakes and I’ve trusted the wrong people. I was bullied on Ask.fm because of it. It got so bad that I wouldn’t get out of bed. I just cried all day. Every time I get a notification from it I jump. I’m scared to death that it’s going to be hate or […]

12/25/2014 5 comments

This is not me!

by Emie 12/23/2014

written by Emie

Hi!

I’m a 15 years old girl. And I’m feeling like shit. I’ve been feeling very bad for quite a long time, but some days ago I couldn’t control myself. My mother was shouting at me, she kept on telling me the same things, while my sister was laughing at me and the entire situation. I shutted both up by suddenly hitting my mother in her face. She started crying, I ran away and locked myself up in my room before she could do anything else.

I hate myself! I don’t get it! Why do I always act so aggressively. This really isn’t me! I hate myself! […]

12/23/2014 11 comments

Jaded: My struggle with suicide

by jcanida56 12/23/2014

written by jcanida56

My name is Joseph…..I’m a cutter, and I’m sick of being alive. I have nothing and nobody, and I’m worthless. I refuse to act on suicide anymore though because I’m sick of being locked up in those inpatient prisons for the mentally ill. Getting no help. On August 26th, I drove out in front of a semi going 70 in my 2012 Ford Focus. I was ready to end it. I was sick of the pain. It tore up my car, but somehow I walked away from it. Then my mom decided to kick me out so she could have her piece of crap, sleezebag […]

12/23/2014 17 comments

Biding My Time

by IndigoMasquerade 12/22/2014

written by IndigoMasquerade

Guess I’m on here a lot lately. I just have nowhere else to put these thoughts out there on…I’m hurting so bad. I can’t wait until January 5th, but I have to, in a way. It’s relieving to think about though. To think that my pain will end and I can just escape it all.

12/22/2014 3 comments

help me plzz!!!

by gabreialla 12/21/2014

written by gabreialla

I feel alone and lonely these last few months I became very sensible and I had changed in my character . I feel tired in my head and in my body . I just feel like crying and something is killing me from inside. I had really thought about it and I think suicide is my the best solution .I can see everyone is getting love only me. I can see everyone is having new accomplishments in their lives only me. sometimes I think if I was living or not its the same thing. and I am the kind of person who hides their […]

12/21/2014 4 comments

Goodbye

by EvilKitten 12/20/2014

written by EvilKitten

To my friends, thank you for being there for me. I enjoyed our chats. I’m sorry I haven’t been around the last couple months. I thought about you often, and wish that I could have had time to come on here and be a “regular” again. You helped me through some difficult stuff, and just talking about it with you guys and hearing opinions was very helpful.

To those who are struggling with this life: try not to give up hope. Things CAN get better. Many of you are just in bad situations. Bad situations that are TEMPORARY. As the old quote goes “Don’t fix a […]

12/20/2014 21 comments

Consequences of overdosing

by koschei 12/19/2014

written by koschei

Has anyone overdosed on (insert poison picked here) and had bad short/long term consequences? Both in terms of health, emotions, relationships… Has looking death in the eye (e.g. waking up in a hospital bed) ever changed your mind and motivated you to live?

12/19/2014 15 comments

Life is not fair / unfair. there is always winners & losers. I’m a loser, so why can’t I / losers just commit suicide?

by niki 12/17/2014

written by niki

Life is not fair.
Life is unfair.

there is always winners & losers.
there will always be winner & loser.
so why can’t I / losers just commit suicide?
rather than they keep living chasing & fixing all their way too many losses, which is probably too late anyway too.
and usually losers can’t win / can never win against winners anyway .. even the “start” is already too late!!

This is the harsh truth / fact / reality .

Reality / Real life / Real world is very LIMITING / LIMITED in what we can & can’t do !
We are limited by money […]

12/17/2014 1 comment

25

by lovemyshihtzu 12/17/2014

written by lovemyshihtzu

I turned 25 Monday. I feel old. days with my boyfriend go up and down the arguments got bad then I finally stood up for myself and he realized he was close to losing me. I can’t lose him again I just can’t. but the craving for death is always here.. yes I know this made no sense. ps wanted to apologize for never posting my life story, I still keep putting it off

12/17/2014 0 comment

Possible more darkness in my tunnel. Is there even any light anymore?

by BrokenAngel8 12/15/2014

written by BrokenAngel8

2 years ago if you would of asked me I would of said something similar to that i felt like the happiest and luckiest girl in the world to be his. Now all I just feel is broken, hurt, betrayed and confused. I feel betrayed by what he said about me behind my back a few weeks ago.

I knew we had issues in our relationship I thoguht we were both strong enough to get through it but I guess I was dead wrong. Instead of confronting me about how you felt you t alked behind my back about it its bad enough that i found […]

12/15/2014 1 comment

Self-Harm and Running Out of Options

by jasal 12/15/2014

written by jasal

I thought I had brought a blade with me on my trip out of town, but I can’t find it where I thought I put it. I really, really have the urge to self-harm right now, but that blade is my only inconspicuous method…or at least it was supposed to be. In a house with other occupants, I can’t utilize any of my other methods without attracting attention. You might be thinking that it’s better that I don’t self-harm, and I recognize what a bad habit it is…but it helps stop suicidal ideation. It helps me feel a bit better when I’m at my lowest […]

12/15/2014 3 comments

Nobody Dictates Me

by IndigoMasquerade 12/15/2014

written by IndigoMasquerade

My “friends” have been cut from my life because they always believed it was fair that they could get mad at each other, but I couldn’t get mad at either of them without severe punishment. My family is starting to act the same way. My sister will confront me and threaten me if I get mad at my mother or grandmother, and my mother will do the same if I get mad at my sisters. It’s not reciprocated though. If someone gets mad at me, nobody fucking cares. These people who are supposed to love me and care about me don’t listen when I try […]

12/15/2014 2 comments

Tired

by briannasucks 12/15/2014

written by briannasucks

One day i just wanna stop being the girl that everyone uses as a bad example like “you can either go with her or Brianna” “Ewww naw man her ugly self “ i just want to be the girl that a guy at least looks at out of amazement and not disgust.

12/15/2014 2 comments

Ranting.

by TotalFuckup 12/15/2014

written by TotalFuckup

So, I’m a full-time nanny. That means that I live with a family and take care of their child. I get paid $20 a week. I don’t get breaks and I’m expected to clean as well. Not so bad when you have no bills to pay. Or at least you would think. I took this job because I know the mother in high school and she helped me out with my prom fare and when my sister’s dog got hit by a car, she gave us a ride to the vet. So the first few months I was here, I decided to work for free […]

12/15/2014 1 comment

my life

by ahannah123 12/14/2014

written by ahannah123

I was at UBC Universal Behavioral Center I was there for 6 months that I tried to kill myself 3 times nothing worked I tried cutting my wrist vertically and horizontally and tying things around my neck that didn’t work because people found me.I still have suicidal thoughts I’m not acting on it because I don’t want to get in trouble and I want to be trusted .I have had two girlfriends the first one I dated for a few days I broke up with because she wanted to date more than one person my second lasted more than a week she claimed to be […]

12/14/2014 1 comment

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