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im at this point

by Mary Love 7/2/2014

written by Mary Love

im at this point where I just want to end it all.

the only bad thing is, i’m trying so hold to hang on.

most people say, well if you had time to write this, then you aren’t going to do this.

I want to so bad but I don’t want to.

I want to die so I don’t have to deal with these people anymore

so I don’t have to feel sad anymore

but I can’t wait for the day I leave for my grandparents house.

that’s the only reason i’m holding on.

I just wany yhis pain to end.

I don’t WANT to die, but that’s the only way I know how […]

7/2/2014 12 comments

Thinking again

by Remnant The Unbroken 7/2/2014

written by Remnant The Unbroken

It always seems like the people who truly DO have something to feel bad about, don’t. Then I feel bad for feeling bad and ask myself, “Am I really sick? Or am I just pathetic?”

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XKTg_INHgpc

7/2/2014 0 comment

i wanted my daughter

by ilovedyouadam 7/1/2014

written by ilovedyouadam

He said that he doesn’t trust me to have our baby and maybe he’s right. He think I will let something bad happen to her.

I’ve considered all of the options. All I wanted was for us to be a family. But he said I’m not good enough to have his baby or to be his family. I feel cold and numb. I have no one. He was the only person who ever loved me. I can’t live without my daughter. I can’t have an abortion. I will never be OK with that. I can’t let her live without me. She’ll think it was her fault. […]

7/1/2014 19 comments

is it bad?

by paingoaway 6/30/2014

written by paingoaway

That when i think of most people dying and going to hell, and me going to heaven and finally being away from them for eternity…it makes me laugh and smile?

6/30/2014 3 comments

just stop, okay?

by suicidal.bunny 6/29/2014

written by suicidal.bunny

I don’t understand why people try to sugarcoat self harm & suicide. Just stop. Stop thinking of it as a beautiful tragedy or a ‘tiger who earned their stripes.’ It’s really annoying. OH, and my favorite is when people don’t care about you until something bad happens. Fuck everyone. I hate society, I really do. Back to the sugarcoating part. It’s almost like people like to encourage self harm. You think that people are proud of the things they do? Things like this? Wow. Get your shit together people. I am proud of people who fight against hate though, you walk around with scars showing? […]

6/29/2014 8 comments

i want to help u

by ronal007 6/29/2014

written by ronal007

There was a time when i posted my sad story on this forum.To be honest i never want to remember those moments again in my whole life. But I definitely want to remember and thanks to this forum, that today i am a better person.

I met somebody through this forum who really helped me to overcome those bad days. I would like to do the same with people out here. I want to help you all and make you feel comfortable. I want you all to know that i will always be there if anyone needs me then feel free to msg me on inhellut@gmail.com

6/29/2014 2 comments

First Post

by greensky 6/29/2014

written by greensky

Hi. I’m a 38-year-old female. I’ve been reading on this site for many months. But I’ve never posted. Today I felt like I should share my story. The first time I thought about suicide was when I was 10. I can remember locking myself in my bedroom closet for two months surrounding myself with pillows crackers and fantasizing about who would be at my funeral and whether anyone would care, I scratched at my wrists. That was the only self harm I can ever recall. That was the beginning of what I consider the bad gene. Fast forward to now present day and what I […]

6/29/2014 6 comments

To tell the truth

by alina_01 6/27/2014

written by alina_01

I hate life everything about it I can’t honestly tell you something I genuinely like about it. Life hurts me so much that I’m afraid to even live it because I know the pain will come. Im afraid to let anyone in, to love, to trust, to believe. Because I see things negative and I don’t think I can change that, happiness is temporary and pain is forever. I’m afraid that I won’t make it through the next branch of pain so I don’t want to let go of this one. I don’t want to be happy that way I won’t feel the pain of […]

6/27/2014 3 comments

Unwanted and Invisible

by Spoyald 6/26/2014

written by Spoyald

Almost a year ago I tried to kill myself after my husband of 23 years dumped me. I had alcohol and Xanax and felt that was a way to tell him f*ck you. I ended up in ICU for a day then the nuthouse for two more. After I got out he left me alone by myself for a day and half until my sister got here. I could barely walk but he didn’t care. Since then I have been trying to cope with the whole situation but its hard after finding out he was engaged to another woman before we were even divorced. My […]

6/26/2014 4 comments

I want to end it.

by suicidal.bunny 6/24/2014

written by suicidal.bunny

My friends tell me they care, but I know they really don’t. People see my wrists and think “ew what is wrong with that girl.” It doesn’t surprise me. I dress weird, I color my hair.. I look terrible. Why can’t we all be accepted? We live in such a judgmental world. That’s why I’m deciding to end it in a few months, just take as many sleeping pills as I can; and just cut my veins open. Cut my legs one last time. And leave a note. Explaining why I hate my life. Nobody cares until something bad happens. So mine as well end […]

6/24/2014 4 comments

Morning everyone

by redpixie 6/24/2014

written by redpixie

I have been in hell for a few months and stumble here by chance. I’ve been looking suicide and stuff and came across this little paradise people just like me….in hell every waking hour and desperate for a bit of peace. I downloaded the peaceful pill book yesterday and was horrified and both amazed at its simplicity of it all. I’m in my mid forties, have two growing kids, a failing marriage, and a lover which I adore and have been seeing for a year and a bit for it seems he’s getting tired of me and I’m getting tired of so much unhappiness. I’ve […]

6/24/2014 5 comments

Music

by thepainiskillingme8062 6/22/2014

written by thepainiskillingme8062

I am perfectly aware that this is a stupid post but who cares? Is it bad that I listen to music about suicide, rage, and good ol’ depression. Should I listen to “happy” music or should I continue my current listening habbits?

6/22/2014 7 comments

by Joker1911 6/22/2014

written by Joker1911

To all my brothers and sisters going through rough times keep your head held high you made it to this point without failing.Hell something brought you to this website so theres got to be a reason youll still breathing. Find hope and learn to live happily i know shit always seems bad but youre strong enough to make it through. just think youve been through a whole lotta of other shit so you might as be able to withstan some more. find faith in yourself and bear through the storm youll be glad you never gave up. 🙂

6/22/2014 0 comment

Leaving a note or no note, thoughts?

by tbd 6/20/2014

written by tbd

Just thought I’d poll thoughts about this.

No note could create legal problems for others (i.e., wondering whether someone had a poisoning motive). The absence of a note may leave others wondering, which may be good or bad.

Leaving a note may be a means of providing reassurance or useful instructions. (I’m not talking about the kind of note designed to blame and hurt others.)

Thoughts?

6/20/2014 16 comments

alien suicide

by addicted 6/20/2014

written by addicted

There was inter star meet.

Where organizer auctioning different planets

For some reason, I brought planet earth hoping it will be profitable

When I see into it, it is full of species called humans

Only 20% of those species are really useful for me

I separated brain out of those 20% humans and threw remaining part(body) of the humans and also I threw away that useless planet

Now I realized these preserved brains are useless because those brains are so screwed up with concepts like god, billion year old concepts of physics, crap philosophy and full of self-convincing power.

To solve a problem which I can in a day, they took 10 […]

6/20/2014 2 comments

A Short Story Cut Short

by Spooky Z 6/18/2014

written by Spooky Z

A quick disappointing blur. That is what my 23 years have been so far. Maybe it isnt worth dying over. Maybe its not that bad. I have always doubdted myself at every turn, ever since I was a young boy .When I learned that i didnt know my father because I am the product of a drunken one night stand. My biological father was not present because he had to take care of his REAL family. I now have severe social anxiety, its impossible for me to talk to women, or most people for that matter. and I stay inside with my cats most days. […]

6/18/2014 3 comments

planning for the future

by Mad-hatter 6/18/2014

written by Mad-hatter

I am a certified genius.

that’s a good thing and a bad thing.

I am a constant danger to myself. I know exactly how my body ‘ticks’. and I know how to make it stop ticking. I don’t need no knife or revolver I am able to use anything except the air filling my lungs. I have been planning my departure for almost 9 years now. escaping pain in it’s various forms.

heartbreak, impending failure, shame.

6/18/2014 98 comments

Beaten Down

by david123 6/17/2014

written by david123

I’ve been depressed for years. Abused at an early age by a neaighbor.. That was the start. I got into trouble hung out with the assholes for no reason other them they were in pain too. I have a beautifal family who i love so much. It kills me to be the way i am. I went to prison i hurt people in fights and i paid dearly for it. I found out one day that i wasn’t like the sociopaths i was surrounded by and i had a massive nervous breakdown. I was. Sent to a psych ward and then i spent 18 months […]

6/17/2014 7 comments

What Will I Have Learned Before The End?

by uni687 6/17/2014

written by uni687

It has been awhile since I thought about something remotely close to the end of my life cycle, but I don’t think I can see that far ahead. I doubt anyone can, unless, of course, one is terminally ill and the end is really nigh. In fact, things in my life have been so randomly confusing or misleading, that sometimes, it feels better to keep my eyes closed; to look inward beyond the void of nothingness; to find a piece of serenity through meditation; to feel the weightlessness of sleep only to wake up in what appears to be a dream. Sometimes, I wake up […]

6/17/2014 0 comment

“Fairy tail”

by XxHelloKittyxX 6/17/2014

written by XxHelloKittyxX

There are many fairies.
Some are good, some are bad.
But they are all beautiful.
The bad fairies can easily take over.
There’s the anorexic fairy,
She makes you perfectly thin,
But she’s fatal.
The self harm fairy whispers to you cutting is the only way out.
The suicide fairy pushes you off a cliff.
Pulls the trigger or gives you the ideas.
Then there’s the fake fairy.
She forces you to smile,
But puts you down and makes you cry.
Then there’s the fairy, who isn’t really a fairy.
It’s a bully. All the fairies are bullies.
They seem gorgeous and perfect.
But they […]

6/17/2014 0 comment

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