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Still Here, for now

by Matt 3/20/2015

written by Matt

So yesterday morning I was all ready to go. No fucking around this time. No last messages. No dramatic and theatrical end to my life.

I put the belt around my neck and suspended myself. It hurt, I won’t lie to you. The feeling of blood backing up in your head. Vision went blurry and the music I’d put on sounded all tinny and metallic. My limbs went heavy but I could still move them.

Then I heard it…

The front door opening.

We’re finally having our door fixed because it was broken into a while ago.

It was the contractor coming to finish the job. He knew I was […]

3/20/2015 5 comments

Cold bath and thats the end

by lissbabe 3/10/2015

written by lissbabe

take a blade to my wrist,

let it slide down my skin,

let it cut and show the red powerful blood

let that blade end my life, allow me to go in that cold dreadful bath

let me endure the pain i was meant for, let me endure the death thats meant to be

don’t allow me to be in pain, if you care so much allow this to happen

at least for me. let me lie down in the cold bath and let the blood trickle down my arms and wrists allow the blood loss to kill me

3/10/2015 0 comment

Addicted

by boredtattoos 3/8/2015

written by boredtattoos

I love it when you

Curl your arms around my neck

And sink your teeth into my shoulder

And twist my heart to bloody ribbons

Snapping.
I love it when you

Kill me in every way possible

And suffocate me under your breathless thoughts

And line-dance across my skin

Crimson.

I love it when you

Press on me like a weight

And hollow me out like a hole

And twirl me along the edge of the roof

Dangling.

I love it when you

Whisper dark nothings into my ear

And make my heart beat faster

And kiss my hand goodbye

Fallen.

But I love it most when you

Leave me alone with the crowd

And hide yourself away somewhere lost

And forget about me

Please.

I hate it when […]

3/8/2015 1 comment

#1

by scartopia 3/7/2015

written by scartopia

Why do I have this sudden urge to take a blade to my wrist? It’s as if I just need to see the trickle of blood flowing from my wound. Why do I have the need to feel the burn as the blade pierces my skin? This isn’t a new feeling, but every time I want to fulfil my desire, the feeling just goes away. Why do I feel this way anyway? As soon as I build up the courage, the minute the blade touches my skin, a pleasurable sensation is sent down my spine. As I arch my back to take in the sudden […]

3/7/2015 0 comment

I don’t love you MCR

by i-Like-turtles 2/23/2015

written by i-Like-turtles

Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
But baby when they knock you down and out
It’s where you ought to stay
Well after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar’s just another blow
So fix your eyes […]

2/23/2015 1 comment

Save my soul

by Stereotype 2/17/2015

written by Stereotype

I want to cut. I want to shed blood. I figure if I can’t cry cutting should be equally as cathartic.

2/17/2015 4 comments

just a girl

by disposablegrl 2/16/2015

written by disposablegrl

i am just a girl

I have no super powers

My veins filled with blood

But as I lay here

Breathing, in tears

By the agony I feel

I become aware

My heart ripped out

Stomped on, destroyed

Did not alter the life

Continuing on in my soul

I am just a girl

Without a heart, no joy

No possible future

Nowhere left to go

I have no super powers

But here I am

Against allodds

I still stand

I am just a girl

Without any hope

Void of will

I AM NO SUPER HERO!

So please tell me why

Against all the odds

why do I stand here still?

2/16/2015 0 comment

I’m Dead

by Muskin01 2/7/2015

written by Muskin01

Tear me away from my life as I’m torn asunder.
Put on my blindfold and toss me into the dark.
Bind my hands up in chains, throw away the keys.
My blood and tears pool beneath me as I cry and scream.

Remembering what I hold dear.
I’m struggling to keep myself.
I hope its not too late.
Cause life is great without a care.
My heart beats but I’m enslaved.
My body’s numb.
I’m gone….

2/7/2015 2 comments

Habit, Relief

by effystonem 2/2/2015

written by effystonem

I have this terrible habit. I’ve never actually gotten the courage to take a knife and slash my skin so that is not it. Instead I bite at my fingers until they bleed. My fingers ache right now because I’m typing. They really hurt after I wash my hands or am in the shower because they prune up and are useless to use. Since the layers vary depending on where I bite, the flesh underneath my first layers is exposed. This exposure makes them more sensitive so I can barely touch anything. My parents think I have a common nail biting habit but I rarely […]

2/2/2015 7 comments

wisdom tooth removal

by Lesswill 1/18/2015

written by Lesswill

my wisdom tooth have been aching me for quite some time now. the pain got unbearable and i decided to remove the tooth. unfortunately for me all medical health workers were on strike so the two student dentists couldnt get their hands on enough anasthetic to douse the pain. turned out they applied the little one they had wrongly and it only had little effect on the pain. i almost dropped dead while the two dumb student dentist tried to remove the tooth, my mouth windpipe and even my nose was filled with blood, they kept on hitting and hammering for two hours before the […]

1/18/2015 1 comment

Cutting Doesnt compare to my heartache

by AnyoneListening313 1/15/2015

written by AnyoneListening313

I have been cutting for two years. My parents found out last may. Seemed like they didnt cre. I stopped for my friend becaus he askdd me to stop or he would tell my principle. I stopped. I have been feeling like cutting again. I wanna see the blood running down my arm mimicking my pain.

1/15/2015 2 comments

Trying so hard

by alina_01 1/9/2015

written by alina_01

Well I had some medical issues that had been occurring over the past two weeks. I noticed some symptoms and panicked and got a full blood std test last friday. I was flipping out in so much pain and couldn’t wait till tuesday for the blood results. So I saw a Doctor on Monday and was given a clinical diagnoses and told I had genital herpes. I was devastated and cried but I accepted it, I was going to wait for my blood test to confirm what I had already been told before I spoke to the person I was currently seeing. I get my […]

1/9/2015 4 comments

My Wine days

by Voidt 1/6/2015

written by Voidt

Now my depression is grey- and red; as, I’v poured wine on my sadness. Wrapping my hands round the coffee mug my wine hides in, thinking it’ll all be over soon. The red has now mixed in with my blood, streaming together, creating weaves throughout my soul. The mug is now stained with red tears; but, my tears are dry, I’ll cry no more.

The waves can’t settle, or they seize to exist.

The music gets better as the waves get stronger: both feeding off one another; both feeding my soul. The waves must go on.

Link: http://wp.me/p3Duo0-HCM

1/6/2015 1 comment

I can’t resist

by moonlitrose34 1/3/2015

written by moonlitrose34

I can’t resist the temptation.

When I see the blood come out from where I cut, I seem to become lost in a trance. I become fascinated. It’s inciting. I can’t resist the temptation to draw more blood. It’s as if as the blood represents all my negative emotions, and is it pours out, my negative emotions are slowly cleansed. The temptation is too great. It makes me happy. The emotion that I thought I’d lost. Call me crazy, but I love it.

Also I don’t really want anyone to tell me not to cut, to go distract myself, go talk to someone. I have done all […]

1/3/2015 13 comments

Bleed it out

by moonlitrose34 1/1/2015

written by moonlitrose34

The title is courtesy to the song by Linkin Park.

Moving on though. Does anyone else cut just to see their blood? I mean I cut for the pain, I cut to feel again when I feel absolutely nothing, and sometimes I cut to focus on the physical pain rather than the emotional. Lately though I’ve been cutting to simply see my blood.

I want to cut deep enough so that blood drips down my arm, kindve like how you see in the movies. Except I can never get myself to bleed that much. Oh well, there’s still something fascinating about seeing your blood come out, the […]

1/1/2015 6 comments

Quick glace at my mind.

by DreamingOfDeath 12/15/2014

written by DreamingOfDeath

Please, pardon my language if it’s too much for you.

People see babies, and they often think. “awe, it’s adorable” (Or something of the sort.)

I see a baby, I think. “Wow, some guy put his penis, where pee comes out of, into a girls vagina, where pee comes out of, during sex, and he ejaculated inside of her, and a baby began forming, then after months of growing into a living being that baby then stretched open that females vagina 20 times bigger than it should ever be and came out covered in blood and amniotic fluids. That’s fucking disgusting.”

12/15/2014 21 comments

Dark Night of the Soul

by thedeathproject 12/15/2014

written by thedeathproject

It’s that time again

It’s night and I cannot rest. There is no such thing as sleep.

And my mind couldn’t be crueler

I see blood on my arms and the vision in my mind calms me

But it takes more courage than I or alcohol has and another night I go unpunished.

The noise in my mind filters all the way through

There is nothing to combat all that anguish.

I fail, as I do time and time again

And you cannot solve what I can’t accomplish.

I can’t establish time and presence in this space

Because everything I feel abandons feeling.

I escape with no entity found

A soul without a means of ending with […]

12/15/2014 0 comment

they prob shouldn’t have let me out of the hospital

by cyberbullied 11/25/2014

written by cyberbullied

if I’m honest they’d never let me leave tho

at least blood looks cool in a bathtub

11/25/2014 32 comments

Do you remember?

by secretz180 11/22/2014

written by secretz180

Do you remember when your breaking point was. When you finally couldn’t take all the darkness that you felt around you. The moment you let yourself down.. The moment when you didn’t give a shit if you died or lived. I remember it and I have the evidence for the rest of my existing life. I only cut myself on the left side of my wrist. Why ruin your other wrist. Just put the pain all in one spot at a time. Just look at your artwork of scars. I remember when the breaking point was. I promised my self I would never harm myself, […]

11/22/2014 1 comment

Looking Ahead

by bayareaguy 11/18/2014

written by bayareaguy

Purple Clover's photo.

We are all on here for different reasons and have been driven to consider taking our own lives due to a wide range of experiences. We are a diverse company of sufferers. And that is as it should be.

I haven’t posted here with any regularity in many months. I’ve been in Puerto Vallarta since August 1st and will return to the states on Jan 26th, as planned.

Its been a time of great introspection, highs and lows and just plain old acceptance of who and what I am, and what is possible for me. I made […]

11/18/2014 1 comment

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