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A Truthful Look at Suicidal Impulses (Reality, Documentary)

by SumTimesIWonder
written by SumTimesIWonder

 

It is difficult for people to understand the mind and behavior of those affected by true
Bipolar Depression Disorder. Identifying, accepting and treating it in a child, that must
be extremely challenging.

If life isn’t worth living, it definitely isn’t worth dying for either.
With all due respect, if you believe there is no point in living, make it your goal to finding
that purpose. That may be what you need to pull you through long enough to prove you
wrong… or prove you right. But at least you will have tried harder than most.

YOU’RE NOT A FAILURE FOR NEEDING HELP OR FEELING HOW YOU FEEL.

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This Is Not an Exit

by Nullify
written by Nullify

I’d like to start this off by saying hello to all you fellow less than content members of the human race (or Realists as I like to refer to us). I’m new to both this site and the general concept of sharing my darkest, innermost thoughts. So, you know, bear with me if it takes a little while for me to fully open up (or at least until I’ve gotten a few more beers in me). I’ve always been more of the silent, keep my thoughts to myself type. I suppose I’ve been of the mindset that as long as my issues aren’t vocalized, they […]

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There literally is no point. (rationally suicidal)

by WhatIsEvenHappening
written by WhatIsEvenHappening

So I really don’t have any reason to continue living. I don’t believe in God, and think the chances of our conscious dying when we die is very likely. We are our thoughts, so we are our brain, so when our brain dies, we die as our conscious become unconscious. You can’t be aware while unconscious, not of yourself, or anything. That may seem obvious, but many people don’t realize or understand this. So that means that we, in a sense, will no longer exist after we die. Our thoughts will stop, and we are our thoughts, so we stop. There will be no darkness […]

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meditation

by bornalone
written by bornalone

Its actually possible to coax yourself into cardiac arrest through careful meditation if you are trying to die.

You sit, with you eyes closed, and try to enduce what many people call an anxiety attack, or what i see as trying to remember where you were before you animated your body.

As a baby i can remember categorizing every experience i had, and knowing that whatever i was in-my body- was a highly advanced prison, designed to fool me into keep myself inside it.

I can remember taking account of and noticing my breathe, how many times i had inhaled and realizing that if i didn’t stop immediately […]

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Collective Proof

by RealTalk30
written by RealTalk30

I was just commenting and this idea crossed my mind. Ill try not to get too detailed.

Your life is the only proof of your consciousness; your ideas of right and wrong, your creativity and compassion, your love and fears.
Collectively this is what makes up our humanity, it’s what really matters in the end to us. Not our hate for each other or our wars, or our neglect for our own.

Collectively our consciousness is what has kept our speciese going all this time, otherwise we would be food for other animals. But we cling to life because we know it’s the right thing to […]

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3rd time’s the charm.

by AProperID3
written by AProperID3

I haven’t had much luck with this whole suicide business so far. A couple of years ago an overdose didn’t even touch the sides. A few months back I tried the exit bag method, and didn’t even lose consciousness. We’re pretty robust creatures, it seems.

As much as I’d like to succumb to a peaceful death in bed, it looks like I’m going to have to bite the bullet and try a violent approach. I’m going to start with the official drop table, and double the recommended height. I’ll happily trade off an increased risk of decapitation for a reduced risk of strangulation.

I’m sharing this with […]

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Painful

by HunterBrown
written by HunterBrown

I don’t understand why I feel pain like this. It’s completely unbearable. Two years ago I was diagnosed with severe depression. i’ve spent these last two years in therapy and searching everywhere for something to make me feel better. I’ve tried therapy, ten different anti-depression drugs, hypnosis, acupuncture, acupressure.. the list goes on and on. on top that i’m victim to horrible anxiety attacks that can strike at any moment without warning, i usually get about two or three a day. they make me curl up into a ball and wait to die. my family has abandoned me because i cause everyone around me pain […]

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Back home after failing

by ISmiled
written by ISmiled

So here I am after failing the first time. Let’s go back to the night of the 26th of May, for the full story.

 

I was feeling awful that night, it was another one of my bouts of guilt and depression. But this one was different, while normally, they happen for no apparent reason and last for a few hours, half a day at most, this one lasted for 3 days, after an incident with a boy from my class. We’ll say he wasn’t well-liked, and he was awkward, sweaty and not the best looking either. He came up and asked to be my partner for […]

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Was it a Sign

by Function41
written by Function41

I am in the military and my wife has been telling me for years “Ever since that last deployment, you just haven’t been the same”. Can’t say I was blown up by an IED or anything of that nature, but the experience was bad enough that the the thought of going back out gave me enough anxiety to want to rip out my chest. I should have gotten help when I got back. It took 3 years but it won. I broke.

On January 24th 2013. I tried to commit suicide. I tied an electrical cord around a joist in my basement. Then I tied it […]

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What’s death like?

by just a guy
written by just a guy

I’ve been pondering this question since my time is near.  Of course no one knows for certain, but I think a certain blogger had the most likely description.

Time existed before you were born, other people lived and died before you were born, and other people will be born after you are dead.  One has no memory of anything before they were born (of course folks will claim to be someone in a past life, but people imagine all sorts of stuff).  Before you were born will be like it is after you die.  You won’t have any memories or consciousness that goes on.  In other […]

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Eternal Misery

by f_u_c_k_E_D
written by f_u_c_k_E_D

damnit.  IDK where to start.  so much is racing through my head right now.  im completely fucked.  It’s unreal how horrible things can become.  So, I have this stupid belief that, yeah, i want to die, but it could be the last thing I ever do (assuming in death there is no afterlife…just in case) and it will only happen for real once…  I want to FEEL it.  None of the gun to the head crap (besides, you could always end up brain dead which is worse than life itself…[although, someone i once knew shot himself in the heart…  i think that takes guts]) but anyways this […]

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MYLIFE

by kristink
written by kristink

so here is my story. i have suffered from major depression for more than 30 years. i first remember being suicidal at age 9. my middle school has 3 stories and i would look out the window wondering if the fall would kill me. never tried and never told anyone about those thoughts. tried the pill and cutting thing in high school. i also drank a lot. in college my dorm was 10 stories. i lived on the second floor. thought about jumping from a 10th floor window everyday. never told anyone about those thoughts either. after being married for just a year some heavy […]

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Why Should I Live?

by firepower1996
written by firepower1996

I Have a very bad history, I have an abusive father, I have been raped by my brother when I was a kid, I Lost what was precious to me, etc. here recently I have been feeling like a machine, I have been reading what these scientists have been saying and they say that consciousness is a quantum process and that the soul is universal material and that pretty much everything we do is all body based. if that is so then can someone tell me the best way to commit suicide, I dont want to live my life if I am just a fucking […]

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I don’t believe in hell but if I did it would be a lot like this

by cyanidesofmarch
written by cyanidesofmarch

when subjected to huge amounts of pain, nerves go numb, bodies go into shock and consciousness shuts down. Mental pain, on the other hand, never lets up. It piles on thicker, higher, heavier each day and there is no relief. Screw fire & brimstone. If I were to design hell for the worst criminals and worthless souls to be or tired with unspeakable agony, it would be exactly my life. Which begs the question: what did I ever do to deserve this?

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Suicide in a psych ward

by kazukithreat
written by kazukithreat

I’m currently stuck in hospital, not sure when ill be released but they’ve kept me in here for 3 months before. I can’t wait any longer to do this so I’m just going to do it in here. problem is I’m a wimp with pain so want to do it as painlessly as possible. Not to mention the lack of things I could use to CTB with. my plan is to use the exit bag with valium (diazapam).

My question is, how much diazapam do I need? I don’t want to puke just lose consciousness. I’m going to start hoarding it and think I can […]

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A philosophical question

by Engie
written by Engie

OK, I have a question. Yesterday, im-worthless made a post called “The other side” asking what people thought about the afterlife. I responded saying no one knows, but there is no logical reason based on what we do know about consciousness to think it’s anything other than eternal oblivion.

 

Now, I’m sticking by what I said then. That said, this does raise a number of other philosophical questions that have really been troubling me for years.

I’m very evidence minded, and I find the believability of a claim is closely linked to the strength of the evidence supporting it. If there is no evidence for something, it […]

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A man can only take so much…

by Son of Kings
written by Son of Kings

I’ve tried before to take my own life, I was 22. Many things had occurred through out my life at that point all of which had been coming to a boil, my button had been pushed, death was the only way to escape.  Some may find it cowardice, but not me, it’s my life, the things in my life are under my control, and at the time I felt I had lost control of everything. So I decided I was going to take control of something for once, it was one of the lowest days of my life. I was having issues finding work, the mother […]

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Like rust

by TarotXIII
written by TarotXIII

Well it’s been a while that I came to this site. I don’t know if anybody missed me, my existence doesn’t really matter at this point anyway. I’m just a shell moving by the habits that have been inprinted in it.

It has been a month since I moved in Ontario. Following this lofty scenario where I deluded myself with naive idea that my life would get better, that “grass is alway greener on the other side”. Well I don’t see any more colors here either. It just came to me today that I have been eating only one “meal” of junkfood a day since three […]

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