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ARE YOU AWARE??

by RealTalk30 8/20/2013

written by RealTalk30

How aware are you of your own intelligence, creativity, potentials, etc?
Do you think that you try too hard to be clever, or smart?
Do you take yourself “seriously”, maybe too seriously? Or not at all?
Does it not dawn on you at all? Do you not care?
How aware are you of your own stubbornness and it’s hold on you, or lack there of?
And if none of this relates with you.. Are you aware of anything? Just name anything you are conscious about.

Me: I’ve been aware of my own potentials and intelligence, to the point where I tried way too hard to develop […]

8/20/2013 10 comments

AT YOUR DARKEST HOUR

by RealTalk30 8/14/2013

written by RealTalk30

Shift yourself from this grave..side to side ..consider yourself for the first time in a millennia. Look up to the sky..consider you’ll live again.
Drifting up from your sleep..in a haze to what the world has become. Shake a breath for the wind..show no fear for the light…and slowly breath in.. Exhale!

Search for strength, beneath your bleeding heart. Behind the crimson lines you’ve drawn tighter still. Reset trap door thoughts of letting the world collide with the emptiness inside. Hold on..dare to hold on..hold on tight to life even when the lines break from their binds.

Hold onto your hope so tight. Dampen the screams […]

8/14/2013 4 comments

Up At Dawn

by raincloudz 6/17/2013

written by raincloudz

i think theres something up with me. it takes me forever to fall asleep (if i do). smoking doesnt do anything and i dont want to have to drink myself to sleep every night. i have no appetite despite my growling stomach. i know i need to eat and thats really the only reason i eat now, because i know i have to. i have no desire to do anything or be around anyone or talk with anyone lately and most of the time i wish everyone would leave me alone for a while. everything seems monotonous. everything seems banal. all i want to do […]

6/17/2013 1 comment

Storming at Dawn

by clevername 5/10/2013

written by clevername

“Ooooh…”

So i was sitting outside a while ago, enjoying a smoke at dawn, during a rather precipitous rain storm…

A faded flash behind the veil, an echoed crack of thunder in the distance…

Crossed paths with some memories, thought about where i’d left some things…

There’s a certain person who is always close inside, no matter how far removed from my physical life, who i just can’t help but think of, when it rains.

Or when it’s just cloudy.

Or when it’s sunny.

Or when it’s just a normal windy day.

I recalled a recurring theme i used to employ, as part of my previously favorable attitude and outlook that this person […]

5/10/2013 1 comment

never ever

by perspectivexx 4/18/2013

written by perspectivexx

early in the morning

as the sun rises

you’re wide awake

no surprises

honestly, she never sleeps

she’s up til dawn

fussing about her weight

she’s pinching her tummy

she’s making herself sick

it’s honestly cruel

what children permit

-e.m.

4/18/2013 0 comment

The Boy With The Lies

by fallenangel48 3/3/2013

written by fallenangel48

We are gathered here today, brought together by sadness and a young girlâ€™s demise

A conclusion reached because of the boy with the lies

Her told her things each day, no one should have to hear

So often in fact, she lived in constant fear

She no longer looked forward, always looking back

Building up her defenses for the boy’s next attack

Day in and day out she heard the boy with the lies

Make fun of everything- from her feet to her eyes

Even the way that she walked was absurd

She remembered every mean thing she heard

Even when she was alone, […]

3/3/2013 8 comments

Song of the Shirt

by wordless within 2/1/2013

written by wordless within

Today I lay awake trying to will myself to my chores, with a man whom I am not inspired by, with a child I have no motherly passion for I do today entertain my weary mind while I work with the song of the shirt.

With fingers weary and worn, With eyes heavy and red, A woman sits in unwomanly rags, Plying a needle and thread, In poverty hunger and dirt, She lifts her head and sings the song of the shirt

“Work Work Work

While the cock is crowing in the dawn on the roof

and Work Work Work

Till the stars shine on the roof

To this life I […]

2/1/2013 2 comments

does anyone know some antidepressant stuff…

by Soulless-dawnkeeper 12/14/2012

written by Soulless-dawnkeeper

So I heared ketamin works pretty well… I can imagine MDMA will also be amazing, but I’d like to get some more information. I’ve done MDMA.not as antidepressant but as party drug. The plus side of MDMA is the way you feel… loved, one, amazing and on top of the world, for three days. The down side is: your memory gets fucked up, you need to take vitamin c too protect the brain and after 3 days you get this huge downwards spiral… It was probably the worst in my life.

So I have 2 questions for you;

1. What kind of antipressents/SSRI/drugs do you use for […]

12/14/2012 5 comments

What can I do when I’m freaking out?

by Soulless-dawnkeeper 12/11/2012

written by Soulless-dawnkeeper

Dear SP’ers,

Since I promised to my therapist I would not kill myself and suck it up for two months… have you guys got any tips? What can I do when I’m freaking out?

Things I do to cope:

call/text someone to get help/ distraction
cry the fuck out of myself
post something on SP
eat ( chocolate)
smoke
masturbate/ watch porn
cut, beat myself blabla..
sometimes: booze

I would like to have tips: I want to learn how to cope with shit a healthy way instead of fucking myself up even more…

Lots of Love,

Dawn

12/11/2012 15 comments

So…

by Soulless-dawnkeeper 12/11/2012

written by Soulless-dawnkeeper

I feel alone :/

empty…

I went to my GP today, he directly sent me to the psychiatrist institution, and they have talked to me. In about 2 months there will be a spot for me… till then I have to suck it up. I’m glad there is a solution, finally. The GP said I probably have Borderline…

Dawn

12/11/2012 5 comments

for all the people that have helped me through alot,

by Tormenting Dreams 12/3/2012

written by Tormenting Dreams

ive been doing some thinking lately, which isnt really normal for me. im usually impulsive, which isnt good since its got me where im at today.

but i dont really think im suicidal, more like i just want to stop existing in this world. and the only way to escape it is to die. but i think i would still be the same way i am now, even if life had dealt me a different hand. i would always feel lonely, even if i was surrounded by people. i just feel like im different, everything im into or not into doesnt fit the fold. everything i […]

12/3/2012 5 comments

Protected: Finished; Part 4

by Nobody915 11/18/2012

written by Nobody915

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

11/18/2012 0 comment

losing hope quickly

by blaz04 7/16/2012

written by blaz04

All hope is gone
Hoping to not see the days dawn
I am helpless in time
My life has no reason or no rhyme
My life is frozen in time
People say Ill get through
But they don’t understand what I really want to do
I don’t know where to go
Other then the place u all know
What happens next
Do I live or do I die
Is my place down below or in the sky….
Losing hope quickly …..

7/16/2012 0 comment

For my friend, a poem

by Titanstrong 4/24/2012

written by Titanstrong

Sorry, I am not very creative, nor a good poet, but I wrote this for a friend, but will never send it, but I kind of wanted to so here it is.

If I werenâ€™t so Naive,

I would believe,

that what is there,

isnâ€™t just hot air,

and what I feel

Is actually real.

And I am more,

than just a chore.

But what I know,

is my life will flow,

and I will be gone,

before the next dawn.

Though what I seek,

is solved when you speak,

I cannot allow

what you have to fall,

because you are great.

And I am just more weight.

4/24/2012 1 comment

Another Goodbye Song

by subtle_bloodstains 4/1/2012

written by subtle_bloodstains

I’ve been writing too many of these lately…

A long and winding road
A winter lonely and cold
I near the end of this fateful trip

The solitude sucks me down
To depths below the underground
No hope of any rescuing ship

A ray of dawn breaks the dark horizon
Illuminating the shattered dreams
Through the purest light I can envision
A place devoid of broken memories
Shrouded in the sheltering darkness
Forgetting and becoming lifeless

Simply let go
Donâ€™t mourn what you know
I leave on the wings of night
I leave you to fight
Never forget-
The sun must set
Take all my love
Carry it with […]

4/1/2012 0 comment

My American girl

by Unique 3/15/2012

written by Unique

about year and a half ago today, i was still traveling ireland. I was in strandhill in co mayo, its build on the beach and is one of the best surf spots in all of ireland, I managed to hitch a ride there with some lovely polish girls and arrived at about 5:30 or dawn anyway.

I walked down onto the beach and just sat back and relaxed, i just let the sound of the ways breaking off the beach block out all other noise and i was for a time at peace. A perfect moment.

Suddenly a girl sits down next to me. about my age, […]

3/15/2012 1 comment

I shant be gone long, you come too..

by Kuzgun 2/10/2012

written by Kuzgun

~ Polygon Window (Aphex Twin) – Quino-PhecÂ ~

How countlessly they congregate
O’er our tumultuous snow,
Which flows in shapes as tall as trees
When wintry winds do blow!–

As if with keeness for our fate,
Our faltering few steps on
To white rest, and a place of rest
Invisible at dawn,–

And yet with neither love nor hate,
Those stars like some snow-white
Minerva’s snow-white marble eyes
Without the gift of sight.

Robert Frost ~ Stars

2/10/2012 0 comment

if i die young

by itsmytimetogo 1/20/2012

written by itsmytimetogo

If I die young – The Band Perry

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Uh oh, uh oh

Lord make me a rainbow, I’ll shine down on my mother
She’ll know I’m safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh well
Life ain’t always what you think it ought to be, no
Ain’t even grey, but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I’ve had just enough time

If I die young, bury me in […]

1/20/2012 3 comments

just saying

by clarity1987 1/11/2012

written by clarity1987

My suicide story isnâ€™t base on a single dramatic occurrence or a series of bad hands dealt to me by life, like so many have posted concerning their suicide stories. Like many (if not all) here I have been dealing with deep depression, manic mood swings, and suicidal thoughts on a daily basis, that at times feels all consuming. Again, my path to suicide wasnâ€™t due to a traumatic event but rather a fucking series of mundane, minutiae life events that have led me to deciding to off myself at the end of lackluster, Loserville 25 year bullshit life. All my life I havenâ€™t amounted […]

1/11/2012 5 comments