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Death

What I want from life

by Alexther 12/7/2014

written by Alexther

Death.

You heard me. All I want from this life, all I’m asking, is to just fucking die. I don’t want no well-paid job, no expensive car(s), no bank accounts full of money… I just want to be exterminated from this world, and return to my place of origin, the place I was before being born, wherever that is…

The thing holding me back? My parents. They might not feel very close to me (well, at least one of them may not), but I love them more than anything, even though they walk on my fucking nerves sometimes and don’t give a fuck about how I feel…

My […]

12/7/2014 4 comments

The Void

by Brightshadow 12/4/2014

written by Brightshadow

Everyone makes painful, frustrating, aggravating experiences. But the question is – are there also some wonderful experiences to look forward to, that make it worth to put up with the bad ones? You can’t define the value of either experiences by logic (neither positive, nor negative). Perhaps, it’s even not possible to describe them in such a way, that people, who didn’t experience them, truly understand them. I believe, the most powerful positive experiences are built upon the feeling of affinity, belonging to this world. It’s […]

12/4/2014 4 comments

I don’t know what to say…

by Losergirl 12/1/2014

written by Losergirl

Apparently, I am so easily triggered to become depressed about my appearance by seeing pictures of attractive girls.

It’s probably stupid to you, I know, weird

It makes me so upset about myself…..I already hate myself. I don’t need to self harm; there is no positive usage to self harm, but I do it anyway…I feel like I deserve it though…for not being pretty enough, not smart enough, not good enough to live…I’m just a waste of space.

I would kill myself right now, but the fear of dying circles around me, mocking me and laughing at my tragedy.

My whole life has been a living heel since I […]

12/1/2014 3 comments

Out on bond….the ones we really love. the woman in our lives

by johnwhogivesashit 11/30/2014

written by johnwhogivesashit

I’m out on 100,000 dollar bail right now. I’m facing a home invasion charge in Illinois which is a class x felony. The punishment if convicted is a minimum 6 to 30 years in the department of corrections. I am facing a death sentence. These alleged charges are total bullshit but regardless of the outcome I will come out the other side 10,000 dollars in debt from lawyers. I am 22 years old. For all intents and purposes This situation is going to cost me 6-30 years of my life. The courts are a mockery of justice in illinois. they are courts of conviction not […]

11/30/2014 3 comments

Death and the unrealised plans of a nobody

by nias 11/21/2014

written by nias

I feel so low, I have to be around others to earn enough to keep going, I try to hide away so they won’t notice me and won’t talk about me behind my back, even if they do, I don’t want to hear it. I know I have a problem which causes them to do so, if it wasn’t for that I might just be okay. How do normal people cope with it all, laughing and joking and having a good time; hey, I joke, but inside I feel like crap all the time. Life once promised me so much, now I struggle to see […]

11/21/2014 12 comments

A Sign?

by leftforthedead 11/9/2014

written by leftforthedead

I gave myself one week for me to change my mind, and to not execute my plan to attempt suicide. The day that I planned to execute my plan, and end my life was Friday. I told myself that if anyone showed that they actually cared about me, or if someone gave me a reason to live that I wouldn’t end my life. One of my ex-college professors called my cell phone this weekend. He asked if I was okay, and said that I seemed troubled the last time that he talked to me. I immediately tried to reassure him […]

11/9/2014 7 comments

Exit strategy

by tech 11/3/2014

written by tech

So I have the method: helium hood. I have the plan all laid out. I have the relevant notes all prepared (albeit in my head). I know how I will do it, I know how long it will take, what will happen to my body, where and how I will do it in such a way that causes minimal fuss for those who will find me.

I’ve had this plan for a long time, I have replayed it in my head almost daily – what stops me is the thought of messing up my two children, they’re only young. How to get them to understand? How […]

11/3/2014 6 comments

Death by chocolate.

by Nevereverland 11/2/2014

written by Nevereverland

The depression has completely taken over me now and it’s only day two… I can’t remember how long these episodes take. I tried to eat, chocolate not healthy but something i might enjoy. I just threw it all back up.
I don’t deverse to eat.
Two days without food.
I can’t even make myself get out of bed to get water.

That will be how I die. The one way I have full control over myself. No one can make me eat.

11/2/2014 3 comments

Death is Unavoidable

by JustWatingToDie 10/30/2014

written by JustWatingToDie

you know your born into this world and for the first copal of years of your life you think hey what could go wrong? sadly you soon start to open your eyes and see the world for what it really is i don’t know much about any of you just anonymous bloggers like me i guess but i know one thing death is unavoidable wether it is from natural causes a tragic accident or self inflected. sometimes you don’t want to die other times you know your ready like me i know i want to die i know that theres nothing anyone can do to […]

10/30/2014 3 comments

here’s why suicide is so taboo

by Sabi 10/29/2014

written by Sabi

I believe as long as people (1) are not in debt OR have completed a filing for bankruptcy, AND (2) they’ve made arrangements for any dependants to be properly cared for after they’re gone, they should be allowed access to safe and painless (or as near-to-painless-as-possible) options for committing suicide. Yes, I’m completely serious. The reason I think so is not just because I think we all should have a right to end our own lives, but because if things were arranged that way on a *societal* level then I feel people would be more supportive of those around them. Sure you could still gaslight/invalidate […]

10/29/2014 6 comments

Breaking even isn’t survival. It’s denial.

by Justanotherdude 10/29/2014

written by Justanotherdude

My life is a downtrodden groundhogs day.

I wake up every morning with a varying degree of hope and slowly pull myself out of bed. I turn on my computer, if it isn’t already on to charge my phone overnight, and my monitor then venture into the kitchen for a fresh cup of water. I like water. Fortunate I suppose, I know most people don’t. I could gladly skip juices and soft drinks for a steady supply of water. A fresh sip splashes my mind and cools my senses. Today isn’t so bad, I think to myself. If I’m hungry I’ll peer into the fridge and […]

10/29/2014 2 comments

My tragic story…

by Maddie 10/16/2014

written by Maddie

Hello my name is Maddie and I’m 13. I bet some of you are probably thinking ” what would a 13 year old know about being depressed ” well i know alot. It started when i was 5. When i was 5 my mom died in a car accident. I don’t really remember her and it sucks :(. When i was 8 my dad put me up for adoption so i would have a better life. Since i was 8 i’ve been getting bullied because i’m either too fat or too ugly or too short. People just have so much fun judging me. So from […]

10/16/2014 9 comments

biding my time

by halcyonfawn 10/12/2014

written by halcyonfawn

I’ve decided I’m going to make my exit. Not tonight, not in the near future. But the sands of time are trickling. It was around this time last year (oct/nov) that my moderate depression took a sudden darker turn. It was like a switch went off. It was a sudden emotionless matter-of-fact realization: I have nothing to live for. Nothing, truly. I have a husband who loves me dearly, but you simply can’t live for other people. This time last year I made the decision… but how? where? Planning is crucial, not only because I don’t want a failed attempt. I’ve felt out of control […]

10/12/2014 3 comments

Doubts about sorrowful endeavors

by Faust 10/9/2014

written by Faust

I wonder what death would be like, for one as me… One who walks without purpose…. A corpse, forced to stand up by the scarce will it still has. If anyone in here would like to comment on this, they are welcome.

10/9/2014 3 comments

My first post!

by that.one.girl 10/8/2014

written by that.one.girl

I’m knew here and hope to be welcomed into the community. I am very weird and cooky and clumbsy 15 year old girl. I hope I can make some friends from this site that understand what I’m going through a little. I self harm and have attempted suicide 4 times. I don’t quite understand most of this site, but yeah.

10/8/2014 3 comments

Pills

by curlylion720 10/8/2014

written by curlylion720

I am a 14 year old teenager, depressed and suicidal. I know this may sound stupid but does anyone know any pills that will make me pass out if I overdose? I am not exactly trying to kill myself, just a way of revealing my pain to my parent without having to actually talk to them, but let’s just say I wouldn’t care if I died overdosing.

I know I will receive lots of “don’t do this” “you don’t deserve life” and “you’re worth it” but I don’t believe any of that. I hate my life and myself so much, I don’t think anything or anyone […]

10/8/2014 9 comments

Hiding scars

by curlylion720 10/8/2014

written by curlylion720

I have been cutting for about three months now. I cut my wrists, legs and stomach. I have been very good at hiding them, at least I thinks so, but now I have a problem. I’m sick therefore not going to school and left alone at home for the day. My mom’s friend is a doctor and my mom asked her to come over and check upon me, find out why I’m sick and how to recover. I’m so scared that the doctor is going to make me undress, because I’ve been to doctors loads of times before I started self harming and many times […]

10/8/2014 6 comments

Sleep- The little slices of Death

by Aurora202 10/7/2014

written by Aurora202

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ndPEQqqURXU

Don’t wanna wake up again.

10/7/2014 1 comment

Death part 2

by No12run2 10/6/2014

written by No12run2

Tonight I will be successful and I wont stop until I black out. 9 liters of water this time and an empty house!!! I will die tonight!!!?

10/6/2014 13 comments

Leaving is not easy as I thought..

by Aurora202 10/4/2014

written by Aurora202

I’m new here.. I’ve been thinking about suicide a lot lately. I don’t know..nothing seems right. People say that they care, but they don’t show it. Why do people say stuff, which they don’t mean? I’m just 20.. I haven’t started living yet…and end is just so near. :/

I’m afraid…not afraid of dying but afraid of hurting people. My mother keep saying that, I wish you were never born.. I don’t feel anything anymore. I feel numb but most of the time it’s just emptiness.

10/4/2014 5 comments

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