The depression has completely taken over me now and it’s only day two… I can’t remember how long these episodes take. I tried to eat, chocolate not healthy but something i might enjoy. I just threw it all back up.
I don’t deverse to eat.
Two days without food.
I can’t even make myself get out of bed to get water.
That will be how I die. The one way I have full control over myself. No one can make me eat.
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Well going a couple days without food is not a bad thing. In fact some people practice that > they call it fasting. Some people do it for spiritual purposes, some people do it to cleanse their mind and body. But you should get back to eating. Even if just little bit ech day and then get back to a normal eating habit. Also you need to drink water. and YES you can get out of bed and you should. Get out and get some exercise. You will feel better and the fresh air will do you good.
The other day I visited a web site and they had a list of things that contribute to depression and a few of them were. 1) not eating properly 2) lack of exercise 3) lack of sleep
If you dont eat you will not have energey to exercise and if you dont exercise enough during the day then you might not be able to get a good sleep
so all these things are important.
Drink a lot of water too
and find a good positive person you can chat with to help you through your issues
focus on getting better and accoplishing something worthwhile with your time.
Good luck
Sounds to me like you might be intending to die by starvation? That is probably indescribably anguishing.
Death by starvation is a horrible way to go. To be bipolar must be so hard for you Nevereverland, the contant ups and downs, not sure if you’re on medication to control it. Please keep trying, it must be so hard for you, idk what you’re going through to feel so low at the moment but please try and force yourself to eat and drink.