i need help doing this.. i cant kill myself on my own no matter how much i want to. the pain is just too much. i always think about who id be leaving behind. but wouldn’t they just be better off without me?? I’ve fucked up too much for anyone to have to deal with me. i can’t even fucking deal with myself anymore. i need a fucking escape but i don’t know how to do it… someone help me PLEASE!!
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Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live.
by luke23
written by luke23
Does anyone out there agrees with me?I have exhausted all my hope,aspirations and strength.I don’t have anything left in me to push forward.
I guess I was never meant to be born and live. My mom was an addict and she had this brief fling with my dad, they weren’t in love, she didn’t have a job and she was an addict. I wish she would have aborted me. But she didn’t. I was born at 7 months, probably due to her injecting God only knows what.
ALL my life I was MISERABLE, my childhood wasn’t that bad but as soon as I went to middle school people started bullying me, telling me I was ugly, that I looked like an ape, that I was hideous. And I was […]
Well guys i know i haven’t said my story and i’m not going to.But it seems that tonight is the night and i’m gonna do what needs to be done.
I guess i can mention few things about myself.I’m 19 year old male.I don’t really hold any religious believes but if there is an afterlife…i don’t want one because i simply don’t want to exist anyway.
Cya ^^
Sometimes I wonder if there really is an alternate universe, or another life, or a life in a life. And whatever might happen when you’re dead and your feet are no longer touching the ground.
What do you feel after you die? What do you see? Is everything pitch black, you with no thoughts whatsoever, you literally just gone? Are you really going to be up there, with a God who just so promised to have plans for you? Plans for your life? Or is there another life, where, once you’re dead, you live again. Live another life. Reborn. Forget your past life and just move forward. Start new.
Sometimes […]
Hello, I am a 22-year-old male. Thank you for reading my post. February 2014, I experienced anxiety attacks due to the existential crisis I was having at the time. I couldn’t deal with torment alone and sought help. I started seeing a therapist, and things were still rough, but in my mind, I thought that at least doing something about it was better than nothing at all. After seeing a doctor, I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder. Both the doctor and my therapist suggested I start taking medication. I started taking anti-depressants. I was told that the drug wouldn’t take effect for a couple of weeks […]
I have suffered with depression and suicidal feelings for as long as I can remember, but something has always held me back when it comes to ending my life.
I have made several attempts, but have failed so far.
I can’t be bothered to write about what has happened to me, because I have tried every form of therapy there is and it doesn’t work and I have never really felt any other way.
I’m just fed up with the lack of understanding, the patronising advice given by therapists and family and the accusations of self-pity or attention seeking with regards to suicide.
I don’t feel sorry for myself, […]
There are minimal external factors which constitute my claim that life is indeed a struggle for me, making it hard for other people to comprehend and/or understand the exact nature of my discontent. Most people retain the belief that misery absolutely must be invoked upon an individual due to trauma or tragedy, when the truth rests in our own perceptions all along. It’s the perceptions of those adverse external factors or events that cause the depression in most people, not the events themselves.
Anyone with half a brain knows this. What people don’t know, or at least often don’t recognize, is that a mind can turn […]
Hello, my name is Kills and here’s my brief story. I’m currently 24 and have had severe Crohn’s disease for 11 years. Not only that I have a chemical burn on my genitals. I’m in pain many times throughout the day and am not really able to have a sexual relationship. I take medication for Crohn’s but still have a lot of flare ups. As for the chemical burn I have seen many doctors but haven’t received any beneficial medication or alternative remedies. This has extremely effected my quality of life and am very very serious about ending my life. Thanks for reading and have a good night.
Kills.
Why is it so hard to understand? I have depression, but I don’t want to be fixed or cured or given “coping stratergies” (ugh). I just want to die. That’s why I don’t go to counselors any more, or talk to my friends or family about this: they assume I actually want to get better and treat me as such. It’s an assumption that would make sense for a healthy human being, but clearly that’s not me. I’m sick of being told that “It gets better!” by people who don’t understand my problems, and in many cases are the cause of them in the first […]
I don’t know if you’ve seen that slam poem, but you should. You know the one by the guy who has bipolar disorder where he says “I think a lot about killing myself, not like a point on a map but rather like a glowing exit sign at a show that’s never been quite bad enough to make me want to leave” and then goes on to talk about the future and make you cry? I watched that poem once and I remember that line sticking with me, always in the back of my head, always there when I was feeling like doing it.
I think my method would […]
“Him. He’s the best thing that ever happened to me. Everything was so perfect. He made it perfect. He meant the world to me. I actually felt like I would die for him. I felt it and I wasn’t even scared. Death has never scared me.
I experienced so many feelings. I felt happy. He was the only thing that mattered to me. Whenever I did something I always thought of him. I actually had the courage to see him everyday. I wasn’t embarrassed from sending so many messages to him.
I always wanted to be his friend. I tried but I never succeeded. He didn’t wanna […]
Born poor
Mom, drug addict
Dad, never knew him
Family support, what is family?
Passed through the system
Flushed down the drain
I never had a chance
Death was the only choice
It was never my fault
My final words…
Why the fuck did you have me, *****?
I am nothing but words
Soon…
They’ll be nothing too
I am self-destructing
While re-constructing
The lives of others
Death
The end of life for some
The end of torture for most
If I don’t make it through
Say something nice about me
There’s a voice in my head i never can ignore.
I hear it every single day, and right now it seems like i want to hear it more.
It sounds appealing to my ears because my soul is gone.
I wish that i could draw closer cause it’s a sweet song.
It calls my name day and night like it is next to me.
And i can almost feel it cause this pain is stuck inside of me.
I swear that one day I’ll pull the trigger to escape this trap.
So i can stop breathing while i take a never ending nap.
Nightmares stay […]
I had just returned from a job interview. It was the first interview I have had in over a year. Since losing my job in Nov 2011…. I was trying all sorts of job opportunities… but with the same result. So much so that I lost hope and had been living out of my savings and later? with my parents? until this job interview came up. It seemed like a job offer on a platter – they desperately need to fill in the post in a weeks time -but I‘d not kept myself updated in the recent past – and couldnt answer the simplest questions. […]
when he died, I knew there was only one way to see him again….. Death. Every day I see darkness. The rain just pours itself over me. I grab razor after razor until I learn how to feel again. People tell me it will get better. That they’ll be here for me. They say love lasts forever, but even forever expires. And what about the bullies who told me to suck it up? He’s gone and I can’t fix it. He died alone on gravel. And before he died he flew. He flew in impact. It was like a gunshot in the street. And then […]
Hello Fellas,
I have a very painful story.. My uncles & grandparents betrayed my parents when they were newly married.. They were out of house and money.. My mom has a psychological disorder.. My dad has so many confusing decisions.. My uncles killed my 3 elder Siblings.. I am the younger one and the one and only son of my parents.. By the situations and time.. I saw everything Bad.. Some goodness.. I am in love.. But i cant get her.. Bcz she’s in another country.. I was going kill myself last night by jumping off balcony.. But i saw a news in TV infront of […]
I have decided to go. My husband left me for the second time. I went all out to save him from domestic violence chargsd. I lied on the stand he never hit me; but the truth is he has never stopped hitting me or verbally abusing me. I have loved him truly n have gone all out. I risked my credibility, and the day charges got dropped he left me.
i pray this never happens to anyone but i also pray my pain ends soon. I have decided to take my life; after so many attempts of dying i am trying this nicotine ingestion.
I want to […]