I don’t know where to begin…but I need to let this out and please, someone tell me what to do. I have survived suicide…and yes, it did get better. So much better that I think I can be happy again. I fell in love and this person loves me a lot too. He is aware of my past and is trying his best to help me since I still have depression and do self-harm. I want to be happy and get on with life. But I just CAN’T…why ? I should be really happy but for some reason I don’t feel anything. I am not […]
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If you saw me at school you would think that I was a typical 16 year old girl. I like my starbucks and uggs. I am nice to everyone and pretty much always have a smile on my face. Yes, I am bullied very regularly at school but I don’t let that effect me during the school day. If you asked anyone who new me just on a school level they would probably say that I am a very happy person but they would be wrong. I am not a happy person. I am actually very depressed, as is most on this site. I cut […]
As a kid growing up, I didn’t grow up happy. The pain I go through everyday of my life does not equal to the average kid today. My biological father was my everything to me when I was young. He was the only person I look up to. We weren’t close, but he was the one in my life that gave me hope and happiness. Around the age of five, I was oblivious to see our family problems. I had no idea what was going on. My father told me in the midst of my sleep that he loved me, that he was leaving. Again, […]
A psychologist gave me a booklet for ‘the bereaved’ to inform me on what I would feel in the coming weeks/months/years. Seeing as every time I start to read the shitty booklet I bawl my eyes out, I’ve decided to write about what I am feeling and hope to feel in the coming weeks/months/years. I hope that in writing this, others who may find themselves in a similar disastrous situation can get some sort of comfort in knowing that shit luck affects a lot of people.
First of all, my boyfriend committed suicide. We were at my house arguing, it was an ongoing insecurity fight that […]
I feel empty. tried to kill my self twice, and currently not suicidal but lacking. lacking the will to live, lacking the will to get up lacking the will to sleep to eat, to go outside lacking the will to do anything.
my favorite activities. . . . no longer seem to interest me. I always loved stories. so i would take almost weekly trips t the movie theater, it was nice haven’t been there in 3 months. I’m a geek i read comic books, haven’t read any since summer. I enjoyed my friends, haven’t talked to any of them in over two weeks. I […]
Pre-thought: Though this isn’t my typical depressive rant-type style of writing, it’s still majorly important. I would like feedback on what you guys think.. Anyway..
Today, as I was scrolling through my news feed on Facebook, flipping through pictures, I came across an interesting topic.. Can kids/teenagers have depression? Umm.. DUHH. Yeah, they can. I would know, seeing as I have depression. I’ve had it for most of my life. However, there was this guy on there that disagreed with this STRONGLY. So strongly, in fact, that he went as far as to generalize all types of depression into one category (and certainly a category excluding […]
I know there are endless threads on this topic but I can’t seem to find a consistent answer. Does anyone know of a painless way to commit suicide (either from research or from a painless past overdose)? I do not know if I will get a response and if I do receive one I am not looking for some form of moral support. I understand that there is much to take out of life and that, as the 15 year old I am, I have not yet experienced many of the joys life has to offer, but I have suffered for too long. Medications and […]
You know when somebody says “You shouldn’t be around people who make you unhappy.” There’s only one person that makes me unhappy, and that’s my mom. The worst part is I am forced to be around her. She is emotionally abusive and she claims that she has never said anything bad to me. She says I’m a *****, a drama queen, that I’m crazy, and she hopes I run away. She is the reason i cry so much. I’ve suffered from depression since I was 8, and my mom has always belittled me about it. My older brother at the age of 7 had a […]
Hello,
I’ve been on this site a few times to ease my sadness. (I read posts that were close to what I felt, and regained hope from users’ comments.) After 3 years of discovering this place, I finally decided to create an account and tell my story.
I’m almost 20 now and I’ve been sad or depressed since I was 10. I don’t quite know if it was depression all this time with all the ups and downs in my life, but it sure took a toll on who I am today. (My parents don’t know about my “depression” if it is one…) Due to certain things that happened […]
I wish and want things within my life to get better, but for somehow they just continue to get worser. I have Borderline Personality Disorder, Insomnia, Generalized and Social Anxeity Disorders and a long list of other problems I dont care to list. I’ve been suffering from Depression since I was nine years old, I also started self- harming at this age. I’ve been thru alot trying to recover and cope with the issues I have going on from day to day. It s taking a tow on me, and I can’t seem to focus on anything else besides my issues. Hate my life and Hate […]
I might kill myself. I think I am going to use the “exit” bag method with helium as my choice of gas. I can’t take the constant pain, guilt, worry, and sadness anymore. My parents are so disappointed in me. I am everything they never wanted. Unlike my younger sister, my grades are poor, I’m a drug addict, an overall failure. My dad constantly reminds me about how he refuses to pay for my college expenses since I am such a bad student. Constantly asking me, “Which college do you think you will be accepted into?”, in a rude tone. My dad always makes snarky […]
I don’t know if anyone reads this, I hope so.
I don’t know what I’m feeling, I’m empty. I’ve had a depression, It’s been gone, but now I think it’s coming back. Last time I had it was actually around christmas, I wouldn’t live anymore. It’s wierd you know, being happy about life,but then some things happen and boom, you just want to die. In January I told my teacher, that I’ve been sad in a long time, and that I wouldn’t live anymore, that I didn’t care about anything or anyone. Luckily I have this really good friend, she told me to talk with someone, […]
continuing on from Story of my Life part 1…
He broke up with me. I couldn’t believe it. He raped me. But I still couldn’t believe he left me, just like that. I went to school everyday being teased and harassed. Until this guy whose name I didn’t even know, told me that he knew I didn’t want to have sex with him. (I’ll call him Nick, not real name.) He told me that he’d stick up for me. He’d protect me. Of course I thought he was just acting nice to get what all the other boys wanted. I bitched him out. I yelled at […]
Have you ever seen a friends just lose interest and you and move on and you feel like shit because you know you’ve done something that made you lose whatever they saw in you? Well now that line I mentioned in my last post is so fucking clear. The line between all the depressed, suicidal fuck-ups like me and the rest of the happy world. Nothing makes me want to kill myself more than seeing a bunch of happy people, all hanging out with their friends, laughing, joking, taking pictures. And I say why not me? Why can’t I get better and just be that […]
After 3 days I know why I post here. It’s because I can say whatever the fuck I want to people who can sorta understand what I’m going through. I don’t have to interact with people. I just can throw stuff out there and never have to deal with conversation. My three friends (the only people I could actually call friends) know a lot about my MDD but not everything. It’s too much for me to give them details. It hurts them more than it helps me. One of them, Abigail (no last names), suffers from an anxiety/depression disorder. More anxiety than depression though. She […]
Hey guys, I’m a new-comer to this forum.
Hello,
I have recently set a Death Clock for myself, the end of December. At which time, I will decide whether or not to commit suicide with my gun.
I’m twenty-two years old, never smoked, used drugs, and can count all the drinks that I’ve ever had on two hands.
I’ve never been abused or experienced anything overly traumatic; however, I isolated myself when I grew up which I believe helped to instill low self-esteem, depression, and anxiety. I also have or fairly awful memory, which may be in part to the depression, since I studied hard in school and college, […]
This is my first post. I am 15, and always feel like I cannot escape the pain within my life. I have been raped, lost my grandmother, my father left me, I moved, I have been bullied since 5, very few friends, harassed, abandoned, misunderstood, and much more. I put myself before others more so than anything else, and I cannot bare to do otherwise. But I get hurt for doing such a thing. I support self defense, and I would do so if required, and sometimes I do want to, but I cannot think of myself doing such things to someone.
What did I do […]
My name shall remain anonymous. I’ll go by KLM, just to make things easier for everyone who decides to read this.
This is my story. It involves: depression, mood disorder, drugs, drinking, sex, suicidal ideation, suicide attempts, and lots of other mature content. I don’t want to trigger anyone, so just stating it before hand. Here goes nothin’.
I was born in Las Vegas, Nevada. Still live in the same house after being alive for these past sixteen years. A lot has happened in my life the past five years. When I was a child, I was a good kid. I got good grades, hardly ever got […]
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