Tag:

Depression

If you’re as confused as I am…

by alaskalevine 7/27/2016

written by alaskalevine

If you’re as confused as I am, you don’t know why you’re here. You don’t know what you believe in or where you’re going in life or what’s in your future. You’re confused as to why you don’t want to be here.

If you’re as lost as I am, you don’t know where to turn. You don’t know who to talk to, who will listen, or who can help you. You’re lost in a darkness that bleeds through everything else.

If you’re as depressed as I am, you feel hopeless. You know that no matter what anyone else says, you can’t be happy, you don’t quite know how to […]

7/27/2016 6 comments

The end is nigh

by AshCoveredAngel 7/27/2016

written by AshCoveredAngel

So the state refuses to fix my insurance. In 4 days I won’t have any. Cancelled insurance at 32 1/2 weeks pregnant.

I won’t be paying medical bills back because I don’t have an income of any kind. I’ll just have to deal with collection calls and letters until they give up getting money from me and put it as a charged off account on my already very poorly rated credit.

This also means I won’t be able to get any kind of postpartum care. Good news is that I’ve already accepted I’ll be a depressed woman with no safety net.

At least I […]

7/27/2016 4 comments

I Wish…

by Rose of The Phantom 7/22/2016

written by Rose of The Phantom

I wish, more than anything that I wasn’t so alone in the world. I try to confide in others, but I’m afraid to. Once you hear something, it can’t be unheard. I don’t want things to change between me and my friends. My family, I don’t know what to say. We’re not close. I’ve grown up in an abusive home for years. I’m still stuck here, I’m saving up to get out but I’m not there yet. I’ve prayed for death so many times. I wish I was out, I wish there was something better, I wish I could be stronger. Can anyone hear me?

7/22/2016 3 comments

by sad5ever 7/21/2016

written by sad5ever

Why do people fail at suicide is it because they don’t want to die really? or is it because they haven’t done what they were meant to on this earth? Is it because for some reason we aren’t meant to die? and why is it that I’m still alive when some other innocent is dying of cancer? why am I still breathing when other people, people who matter, who have lives, kids, people who need them, but I’m alive. I’m not important not really. I don’t know this just kinda came to me and I don’t know why…

The Fall

The wind pulls me forward, asking me to jump.

7/21/2016 1 comment

Feeling depressed and not worth living? Then you have been lied to… (Part 1)

by beyourself 7/16/2016

written by beyourself

Let me first tell you a bit of my story and how I found this website – I was searching for methods to commit suicide. Why? I do not feel suicidal at all and I do not want to die at all. However, I may not have any other option. The reason for this is that there are some criminal people treating to do horrible things to me and my family, presumably because I was the cause for their significant financial losses (we are talking millions “supposedly”). While I can accept being killed I do not want my family to be affected. Therefore, my only […]

7/16/2016 1 comment

Failure

by AshCoveredAngel 7/5/2016

written by AshCoveredAngel

Struggling these past few days and it’s hurting those around me.

Especially my child. I made them cry twice today. I’m so messed up right now I told my 2 year old to shut up.

Why? They were hungry while I was trying to angrily call the state about my insurance that’s going to be cancelled next month.

No insurance when I’m 8 months pregnant. Awesome. Worse case scenario I’ll stop all prenatal and deliver at home completely unassisted medically. I can’t afford the bill. It’s whatever. I’m not even worried about birth.

The thing I should be worried about is postpartum depression. I’m […]

7/5/2016 2 comments

New here

by lostintranslation18 7/1/2016

written by lostintranslation18

I feel like dying today. My world has been falling apart lately, my boyfriend has been my only support and I would always go on because of him. Until now, I made a mistake and he is ignoring me. I feel so fragile, lost, empty. We’ve been talking about it and trying to solve things but from one day to the other he decided to ignore me, I feel heartbroken. I want to jump from the top of a building but I’m waiting. Maybe he’ll talk to me. If not, I’m not sure how I’m going to get through the weekend.

7/1/2016 3 comments

Horrible Thought

by AshCoveredAngel 6/24/2016

written by AshCoveredAngel

I doubt anyone follows what I post on here, I’m new-ish and I don’t interact much.

Anyways I’ve mentioned before I’m pregnant.

Which means according to my own rules suicide it off limits. I have a rule “do no physical harm to another” I’m totally pro-choice and viability is a thing but I still have respect for *potential* life.

That doesn’t stop me from desiring to commit suicide or frequently thinking of death. It’s highly likely that I will not chose to make it through postpartum depression again. I’ve fought enough in this life to only face more misery. We’ll see I guess

I’d be […]

6/24/2016 1 comment

Lingering Hoplessness

by ColorlessBlur 6/24/2016

written by ColorlessBlur

I’m a 15 year old kid, and for the past 4 years or so I’ve noticed the deterioration of my happiness and overall satisfaction in life. I’ve also seen a new depression seep it’s way into my life. It’s always there, sometimes stronger than others, but it’s never really gone. The only way I’ve managed to ignore it is through my hobbies, video games, anime, and listening to music. Although these things have also been one of the main causes for me having to face my depression, because while I can ignore it for a time, when it comes back it hits hard. All these […]

6/24/2016 4 comments

Hope. Loss. Exhaustion.

by 121115 6/18/2016

written by 121115

Hope is one of the cruelest feelings on earth. It tricks you into thinking that everything will get better, that the present isn’t as bad as it seems, and that those who made you feel like garbage have some redemption.

I really, really hate hope.

I thought my parents were beginning to understand me. I was more wrong about that than I have been about anything in my entire life.

My father wants the addresses of every single friend that I go see. He checks the mileage on my car to see how much I’ve been traveling and if it matches up with what I tell him. He […]

6/18/2016 2 comments

Hello.

by 121115 6/13/2016

written by 121115

I almost ended my life tonight.

I got into a huge argument with not only my parents, but my grandparents, who I believed understood me more than my parents did; I was also publicly humiliated in front of my friends, in a situation where my parents and grandparents ran out in front of my house, in front of the car my friends were in, all just to yell at me.

I had to tell my friends to leave immediately. My parents talked to me for two hours and tried to tell me that family is all I have. That they’re the only ones who will ever truly […]

6/13/2016 1 comment

The truth is…

by 121115 6/13/2016

written by 121115

No one will ever believe you, in all of truth’s entirety, until you’re dead. No one will completely understand the pain you were going through or how serious you were, until they find your body.

Not your parents, not your friends, not your doctors.

You only have yourself until you’re dead.

6/13/2016 29 comments

Well, here I am.

by 121115 6/11/2016

written by 121115

I’m not quite sure if becoming a user of this forum is a means of an end or a coping method. At this point, it really couldn’t matter less.

One day, perhaps, I will fully disclose the ‘origin story’ (this phrase is funny to me, as if comparing the origins of my condition to the origins of a superhero’s powers); the entire tale of my descent into severe depression, my incessant and quite honestly obsessive thoughts of suicide that had lasted every day for a year, and my journey through psychiatric hospitalization. At one point, I had felt that these points in my life were important and […]

6/11/2016 4 comments

What Are Your Reasons To Stay Alive?

by They Call Me Amy 6/6/2016

written by They Call Me Amy

Today I had a breakdown again, and I decided to do a list of things that I really enjoy and I’ll miss if I kill myself, because I will be… uhm… dead. So these are 16 things that can help me get through this day, and maybe tomorrow, and next week.

There is nothing very special here, but these are the things that bring some joy to my life, and they are my reasons to stay alive and not kill myself. I will read them every morning so they can help me battle my urges. Tell me about yours too! 🙂

1. My Parents
2. My Boyfriend

6/6/2016 30 comments

I Just Want to Talk

by MortalCoil 6/5/2016

written by MortalCoil

This is not a cry for help. Technically, this is seeking attention, but only in the sense that I wish to speak about suicide without entertaining the notion that someone will attempt to interfere. I just…want to talk to someone who might understand.

6/5/2016 5 comments

Not every problem is temporary

by IControlmydestiny 5/24/2016

written by IControlmydestiny

All my life I’ve felt alone. At 23, I have great friends since childhood and had some good relationships as well. As I got older, I felt this disconnect from humans that made it hard to relate. By nature, I’m a shy guy and keep to myself. It’s obvious that it doesn’t help with my loneliness but what does it matter how many friends and relationships I’ve had if I still feel alone? I get attention from girls but I don’t have the urge to flirt with them it’s like I could care less but I’m physically tormented without any company. My family is dysfunctional […]

5/24/2016 3 comments

Depression

by NoBuddy 5/23/2016

written by NoBuddy

Life

5/23/2016 3 comments

Yup, I can’t deal with failure. Tips?

by They Call Me Amy 5/23/2016

written by They Call Me Amy

So I have been depressed since I was 13, I had a eating disorder (anorexia) for almost three years, I have social anxiety, I self harmed for many years, but now I am 7 months free (yep, trying to hold on) and I tried to commit suicide 5 times.

I can’t stand not being the best, and this feeling is eating me alive. I can’t focus, I can’t stop crying, I can’t sleep and I can’t eat. The feeling of not being perfect is destroying my life, I can’t help but break stuff, hurt myself, slap my face and smash my head against a wall everytime I […]

5/23/2016 12 comments

Medication and Depression

by JiminyCrispies 5/22/2016

written by JiminyCrispies

My psychiatrist wanted to up my medication. I refused. So, instead of letting it go, my psychiatrist is giving me some time to think about it. I haven’t been taking it still, but my Mum’s getting my prescription tomorrow and making me restart it again.

I have just under 2 months to decided whether I want to up the dosage or not. Honestly, I can feel myself getting worse each day. My depression is getting bad again, and all I want to do is just give up.

The voices are getting too much, and I can’t tell anyone. There’s no point telling my family because they can’t […]

5/22/2016 1 comment

Reality is boring , real life is boring , real world is boring , not like movies, comics, novels, anime manga, video games !

by niki 5/22/2016

written by niki

Reality is boring
real-life is boring
real-world is boring
not like movies, comics, novels, anime manga, video games !

also,
I hate Humans , Humans suck
I hate Human , Human suck
I hate Humanity, Humanity suck
I hate people , people suck

Most humans / people only think about Money ,
and this reality is boring !
reallife is boring !
realworld is boring !

people / humans are so shallow, superficial, stupid, ignorant
Humanity is hopeless

if there is God , then God is boring !
even Science is boring too !
Science fiction (Sci-fi) is much more interesting than real Science facts !

why […]

5/22/2016 3 comments

Newer Posts

Older Posts