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To cut or not to cut

by They Call Me Amy 5/25/2016

written by They Call Me Amy

Every 6 months I have a breakdown. Too much stress to handle. I have been six months free, but now something triggered me to cut.

I have a strong feeling my dad is cheating on my mom, and she feels the same way, even tho she doesnt tell me

My dad can’t even take his eyes off other women to talk to me. He is the reason why I am scared of weddings, and the reason why I can’t trust any guy I know.

I am feeling like the stress has been piling up for many months and the fact that my dad is an asshole just made […]

5/25/2016 4 comments

sweet girl

by Missing 4/8/2016

written by Missing

she knew

maybe not

where she

was going

her bottomless pit

where all the guilt comes

faster

harder

faster

hard for her

does she like it

she doesnt know

nod your head if its a yes

shake it if its a no

a hug

a cuddle

they are affection of showing how couples love

she ain’t related to them

she was high for a while

then she got down

4/8/2016 2 comments

Wishful Death

by WishfulDeath 2/6/2016

written by WishfulDeath

Around the time of high school my life was so miserable. I couldnt make any friends and i felt useless. I didnt feel like i would amount to anything. I dont even remeber how old i was exactly i just remeber being in my room deciding suicide was the best option. Since im a christian (whether you believe or not. The fact is i do hence why i thought the way i did) i figured heaven would be a more prefered place to live. Besides i had no special talent her on this terrible planet. My grades were always bad. Learning things was always difficult […]

2/6/2016 1 comment

Sure as hell doesnt feel like a new year

by Sui_RC 1/2/2016

written by Sui_RC

New year, same problems
Am i good enough? No.
Will i ever be? No.
Was i ever? Definitely. Maybe.

I think thats the sad truth about everyone whos sad, and depressed,
They were brilliant, if not brilliant, they were adequate at some point of time, and then due to something or someone, now they arent good enough. And that makes them think they never were good enough.

Sure as hell thats what happened with me.

1/2/2016 4 comments

I wrote again… And no good for me

by tiredthoughts 12/30/2015

written by tiredthoughts

I think I can move on. Like everyone says. I wrote and explained and tried… And I know she’s over me. Theres nothing to save. I tried.. Apologized. She said she isn’t sitting in her place sad thinking about how I lied. She’s not mad or upset. She good and doing fine. She asked since i know this too why I torture myself. I said I deserved it. I feel I do. Where i thought we had something she replied we were in two very different relationships. She don’t care. Thats all i cared about. But it doesnt matter. Makes me not want to see […]

12/30/2015 2 comments

I’m back to wanting to die. Same reason, there’s no hope.

by tiredthoughts 12/26/2015

written by tiredthoughts

I’ve been putting it off the suicidal thoughts or attempts. I just wake up and live everyday. Hoping, waiting.. For what I know will never come. I relive every possible discussion, decision or thoughts or reasons that I had in my mind that led me to this point. Hope and support that ppl of sp bring. I just live and don’t like it. I try and forget, but I don’t. The memories are trapped inside me of a life with someone that will never happen again. I try and do what support suggests, ask myself if theres any hope. And I know there isnt. Doesnt […]

12/26/2015 2 comments

by Lime17 12/4/2015

written by Lime17

ive finally done it, found the one thing in this stupid world that makes my life worth living.. his name is Jimmy. Jimmy changes everything, all of my goals, all of my feelings, but i cant help but still be depressed. i have major chronic depression.. everything makes me want to kill myself except for him, this beautiful human being that is just as fucked up as i am. the thing is that, he doesnt truly understand how fucked up i am. he believes that he, along with a future we’ve planned together should be enough to make me entirely happy. i want to be […]

12/4/2015 2 comments

by deerdezz 11/5/2015

written by deerdezz

Deer just isnt right

Deer tells himself that he isnt mentally ill
he thinks people will just use this against him

Deer hears things that arent really there sometimes
Deer gets urges to do really bad things sometimes like setting things on fire and watching them burn Or dragging filling his body with poison and constantly feels bad
he can’t complete daily tasks without feeling pain or wanting to go back to bed
he cant sleep at night and spends hours laying in bed thinking about everything he’d done wrong that day
he acknowledges his paranoia and anxiety but tries to ignore everything else
he doesnt knows […]

11/5/2015 1 comment

Consolation…

by Shards 11/4/2015

written by Shards

The worst part of my situation, engulfing emotional pain from loss of love (and I am just below 40, not a teenager), is that I find no consolation. I guess I’ve most often been an agnostic concerning most things both religious, esoteric, “supernatural”, etc. So many days and sleepless nights I have prayed to, like I think Diem S Sky said, a “nameless entity” for something. To a god or goddess, dead family or forefathers, angels, demons, spirits, just *anyone* or *anything* that might have heard me. And I’ve felt nothing. I’ve asked for so many things. I know there are only three options for […]

11/4/2015 8 comments

My story

by eeixleinad1 10/13/2015

written by eeixleinad1

In short i have a crazy mother no one can get to her when shes angry…
my mother doesnt care about anything else other than numbers….
i want to talk to her but i never could….
she doesnt care….
so why should i?….
i dont know what to do i am literally in a life or death limbo right now…
i will admit i really want attention but not from everyone but maybe just one friend?

10/13/2015 4 comments

hurting

by nomorepain461 10/7/2015

written by nomorepain461

im really hurting today. i know my health issue doesnt have to be permanent, and that when i save up money, or get the right doctor, i can be fixed. except im poor and live in a small city. i am very educated, but work in a poor job. im 30. im tired.

10/7/2015 4 comments

I held on for too long…

by Navi21 9/27/2015

written by Navi21

My life sucks… My mother died last year before christmas and now nothing is the same. I thought that my life was already horrible, but after her death it was fucking hell. My father acts and treats me as if im the one to blame and im less of a daughter somehow even though I was the only one to take care of her when she was still alive, he constantly makes fun of
my weight and compares me to my little sister, my older bros and sis dont give my little sis and I some damn time to talk and
they treat us like […]

9/27/2015 4 comments

Are you Horton the Elephant too?

by Cateau 9/12/2015

written by Cateau

“And he sat all that day, and he kept the egg warm. And he sat all that night through a terrible storm…” (Horton Hatches the Egg by Dr. Seuss) bahaha. It gets me every time. How many have worn his same expression? Have had life run us instead of us running it? Although in the end Horton is rewarded for his faithfulness and integrity, truth be told many of us come to find that “Job” (Job 1-22 the Bible) is simply cursed and the sufferments were for naught. I read about Dr. Phils “Evil 8s” and it dawned on me this is myraid depressed person’s […]

9/12/2015 0 comment

by Shattered Night 9/10/2015

written by Shattered Night

im so tired life is getting heavier and heavier my thoughts are getting worse and im so sick of bad thoughts. my medicine doesnt work at night.

9/10/2015 3 comments

by Shattered Night 9/8/2015

written by Shattered Night

does anyone need to get anything out it doesnt matter what its about it could be anger or sadness or happy or funny just absolutely anything. im here to talk with you and listen to you

9/8/2015 10 comments

I Confess

by The Indigo Kydd 8/26/2015

written by The Indigo Kydd

Just to clear up the confusion of mistaken identities and jumbled and multiple profiles. Insignificant had it partly right I am indeed anthropopornia; however the deceit doesnt end there. Oh no. I must confess… *dramatically looking up and making eye contact* I am every profile on SP. I am you. Ohhhhh…!

8/26/2015 32 comments

Failure

by MagicMan98 8/4/2015

written by MagicMan98

Truth is, im a failure in life. I fuck up in school and I cant even complete something in the summer no matter how small I set my goals. Why can other people complete things and I cant? Why cant I truly be happy? I hate myself. My dad left me and I think my mom doesnt like me. Its just hard not having anyone there for you in life you know? I lost the ispiration to live and I just hate myself. Im going to be a senior and I still dont even know what im going to do when I grow up plus […]

8/4/2015 3 comments

Voices

by schizophrenia 222 7/16/2015

written by schizophrenia 222

I would trade no ones shoes to swap suicidal scenarios. I can imagine they are all just as bad as each other. Mental pain, physical pain, no matter what it is. Torment and pain beyond what most of us are capable of handling. How did i get to this place and scenario. Anyone ever youtubed what its like being a schizophrenic.. Its fun for the first ten seconds or when youre on a high then its depressing, scary, obtrusive, crazy and intruding.

Im schizophrenic almost every second of the day and meds do jack shit unless you want to be zombified do you.. No.

Ive heard shit […]

7/16/2015 2 comments

by absentlife 6/26/2015

written by absentlife

Not having a funeral when i die, people didnt want to make the effort to see me in life so it would be the greatest of insults for them to see me in death, it’s too late then, it’s not their fault it’s just the way it is…

I will be cremated and have my ashes discarded with only my immediate family present it doesnt matter where that takes place as it makes no difference..

6/26/2015 4 comments

Im mentally destroyed

by Jakesta112 6/4/2015

written by Jakesta112

Im not well, i suffer for bipola-disorder and last tuesday i had my first mental breakdown in over two years i was so scared but i had nobody there i contacted my fiance but she had just finnished work and said she was going out with her colleuges we didnt talk after this really till monday when she confessed 3 things …
– She has sexual feelings towards a co-worker. And it he asked on the tuesday night she would have gone home with him.
– When down town she gets alot of attention and she likes it.
– She made out with her assistant […]

6/4/2015 2 comments

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